Mahabbah Love Khalisa

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For five days in hospital Khalisa did not want to be visited by anyone. Even when Daniel and Ica came, Khalisa was reluctant to meet them. Khalisa only wants to talk to Azfan and Azka. Khalisa looked terrified as someone else walked into his room.

Daniel and Ica are devastated after hearing the bad news that befell Khalisa. But they can understand if Khalisa does not want to be met by anyone. That's how Khalisa cured his trauma. Daniel knew it would take a long time for Khalisa to return to what he was.

Azfan apologized to Daniel and Ica because he did not take good care of Khalisa. Azfan has reneged on his own promise to Khalisa's parents who have put their trust in him.

In this case, Khalisa's parents certainly can not blame Azfan. This was a disaster that they could not have expected. In the future they should be more careful so that there are no similar events.

"Ma, Pa, Khalisa's asleep." Azfan came out of Khalisa's room, he told Daniel and Ica who were in front of the room.

"We're in." As Daniel moves on, he and Ica must wait for Khalisa to see how things are going.

"Yes Pa." Azfan waited in the chair while his in-laws saw Khalisa.

Khalisa's condition is very concerning, his face is full of bruises. The corner of his lips turned blue.

Ica bit her lip withholding a sobbing that was probably uncontrollable as she walked closer to Khalisa's bed. Since arriving at the hospital, Ica and Daniel have only been able to see Khalisa from the window.

"Khalisa, I'm sorry you had to go through something like this." Ica rubbed Khalisa's head and then kissed his forehead.

Daniel is angry when he finds out that this is all Revan's doing. He wanted to beat up the man but unfortunately Revan was already on the ground.

"Mama."

Ica was surprised to see Khalisa open his eyes, he hurriedly wiped his tears so as not to be discovered. Ica knows Khalisa most dislikes seeing others sad because of him.

"Sorry baby, Mama makes you wake up, if you don't like Mama and Papa can come out."

Khalisa held the hand of Ica who was about to leave and slammed into the arms of the mother.

"Khalisa's afraid of Ma." Khalisa's tears broke, I don't know how many tears had come out during his time in the hospital. Every incident that Khalisa experienced was recorded clearly until now.

"Don't be afraid, there's Mama and Papa here, there's Azfan ahead too." Ica's voice is so soft.

"Ma, the man said he loved Khalisa just before shooting himself, Khalisa didn't want to be loved by him Ma."

"Sshhhh, he's lying, that same love of you is Azfan, Mama, Papa and Azka and your sisters, we all love you, don't believe the same nonsense." Ica rubbed Khalisa's head covered in a black headscarf.

Ica's heart was broken to see Khalisa like this, her cheerful daughter turned quiet and did not want to meet anyone. Ica could feel Khalisa's body trembling in his arms. Khalisa's physical wounds may heal in the next few weeks but not with the wounds in his heart. It'll settle for a lifetime.

"Mama." Azfan walked into the room, "Ma, Zunai nyariin Mama."

"Yes a minute." Ica Reply. He kissed Khalisa's forehead before breaking his arms and leaving the room.

Khalisa actually misses his parents but he does not want them to see his miserable condition. After feeling better, Khalisa just wanted to talk to them.

Daniel who was waiting on the sofa moved to replace Ica.

"How does Khalisa feel?" Daniel asked softly, he grabbed Khalisa's hand and grabbed it. It used to be very small and baby-scented. Khalisa is now a mother. Khalisa's age is 22 but for Daniel, Khalisa is still his little girl. "Papa will never understand how Cece Khalisa feels now because Papa didn't experience it himself so Papa doesn't deserve Khalisa's advice."

"Why did Allah give Khalisa a chance to get pregnant if it was finally taken again?" Khalisa's view is empty, he is trying to take the wisdom of this incident but despite thinking about day and night Khalisa can not find his wisdom.

"God wants to teach Khalisa to mengikhlaskan something." Daniel rubbed Khalisa's back. "Papa know this is hard for Khalisa and Azfan but is not the temptation to make us much closer to God because we pray more to Him."

Khalisa pressed his chest that was painful, he again sobbed.

"Khalisa must be strong for Azka." Daniel pulls Khalisa into his arms. "Azka needs her Umma, Azka wants her Umma to smile again like she used to."

Khalisa nodded, he should not be stressed because he has committed to breast-feeding Azka for up to 2 years. Azka's journey is still long. At least Khalisa can focus on Azka now.

"Khalisa sleep again yes, Papa wants to go home with Mama, pity Azka just the same as Madam Nadira."

"Yes Pa."

Khalisa lay down again, Daniel pulled the blanket to cover Khalisa at the waist. Daniel rubbed Khalisa's head and kissed her forehead shortly before exiting.

******

In the morning Azfan took Khalisa to walk around the hospital to breathe fresh air because for 5 days Khalisa did not come out at all. At first Khalisa hesitated to come out but Azfan assured him that everything would be fine.

"Bi, I just wanted that day to see Naira's sister." Khalisa only remembered that when he woke up this morning.

"Yes, I told him that Umma was hospitalized so I can't see you anymore."

"Can't you take my phone?" Khalisa looked at Azfan.

"Bring." Azfan pulled Khalisa's phone out of his jacket pocket. Azfan left his phone in Khalisa's ward.

Khalisa sent a message to Naura to ask her here if there is any spare time. Because Khalisa does not know when he is allowed to go home from the hospital, maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow but Khalisa is curious what Naura wants to talk to him about. Khalisa wanted to ask why Naira did not send her own message when she was in Indonesia.

"Oh Mbak Naura said she could come here." Khalisa returned his phone after notifying Naura of the hospital room.

"Thank God then."

They stopped at a park next to the hospital where there were several other patients who were also enjoying the morning atmosphere while sunbathing. The morning sun is good for health.

"Umma wants what breakfast, he said Mama wants to cook today because Umma said bosen same hospital food."

Khalisa thought about what food his mama often cooked. Khalisa did not want to make his mama bother cooking if he asked for something strange.

"Sandwich Bi, use eggs with vegetables."

"What can it be called cooking?"

"Beat too, fried eggs will use the stove." Khalisa pulled Azfan to sit in one of the chairs. Azfan did not know if his in-laws were very unskilled at cooking. That's why when Ica comes, she orders food more often from outside.

Azfan typed a message for Ica, he mentioned the food Khalisa wanted for breakfast this morning. It's a very simple menu but quite filling.

Azfan looked at Khalisa, he was happy because Khalisa started to talk a lot. Unlike a few days ago, Khalisa was silent all day and answered as necessary when Azfan spoke.

"Let's not ask me how the chronology I can carry with me Revan." Khalisa looked straight ahead at the patient children playing soap bubbles.

"Even if I want to know I'll never ask."

"Why?"

"It just makes Umma think back to the incident, I don't want Umma to suffer more." Azfan also forbade everyone to ask Khalisa about the event. The question was like a knife that stabbed Khalisa and inflicted new wounds. If it is ready Khalisa will tell it but after that Azfan does not want Khalisa to remember the event again.

"He's dead but I'm still scared." Khalisa smiled bitterly, this is really beyond his shadow. Khalisa thought he would never see the man again. Khalisa thinks Revan is sorry after making him wretched to have to spend time in prison. But Khalisa is wrong, Revan returns to carve out deeper bad memories.

"Umma don't be afraid, there's me." Azfan embraces Khalisa.

Doctors said there were no internal injuries after seeing the MRI results. Tomorrow if Khalisa's condition has really improved then he is allowed to go home.

"Later noon there will be an examination from our psychiatrist, I hope Khalisa can be better after that."

"Thank you doctor." Khalisa.

"I'll excuse you." The doctor and two nurses came out of Khalisa's room.

Moments later Ica came with a food box and a change of clothes for Azfan. At Khalisa's request, Ica made a sandwich containing eggs and vegetables with tomato sauce.

"You don't need to bring a change of clothes for Azfan." Azfan felt bad because Ica brought her change of clothes.

"It's okay, it's Miss Kirana who came in." Ica sat on the sofa opening the food box she was carrying. "It's Azfan's." He gave one box to Azfan and another to Khalisa.

"Please enjoy breakfast, Mama go out first, Mama stayin Zunaira in the lobby." Ica get up from there.

"How come Zunai left alone, Ma?" Azfan looked at Ica who was in the doorway.

"You know, he's excited to meet his Cece, Mama should not because he must be noisy, afraid to disturb other patients." Ica said her regards and left from there.

"Kok got Umma different bread?" Azfan moved to a chair near the bed, he saw Khalisa start eating sandwiches made by Ica.

"It's whole wheat bread."

"Oh, the usual Shady eat."

"Yes, whole wheat bread is healthier but tastes better white bread, Abi want it?" Khalisa brought his sandwich closer to Azfan's lips.

Azfan bit the bread a bit, "the texture is rougher."

"That's why Mama used white bread for Abi's sandwich."

"Eating sandwiches reminds me of when we went together to my house, Umma made sandwiches for all of us." Azfan smiled remembering the moment he was in a car for the first time. At that time Azfan was amazed at the figure of Khalisa who is very friendly and likes to share.

"After remembering now, unconsciously at that time actually I had fallen in love with Abi." Khalisa looked at Azfan within.

"What's the reason?"

"Because during the journey Abi never separated from the same prayer beads, Abi always berzikir."

"But Umma too." Azfan saw Khalisa always pin digital bags on his index finger. Khalisa also always dhikr.

"That's why I'm in love, because I'm sure Abi will be a good husband and father to our children."

Azfan blushed, his face flushed to the ears. He finished his sandwich quickly because of the wrong behavior praised as such by Khalisa. Azfan did not even know what the taste of the sandwich made by his father-in-law, he just ate it until it ran out without tasting the taste.

******

Naura took the elevator to the 4th floor and read Khalisa's message again before stepping into the hospital. Actually Naura had heard the news that Khalisa was the victim of the kidnapping of a escaped prisoner named Revan. At that time Naura wanted to see Khalisa's condition but she did not know the hospital where Khalisa was treated. It turns out it's not far from his house.

Naura looked at the number on the door of the room carefully. Naura stopped the move after finding number 35. He hesitated to knock on the door, fearing that Khalisa was resting.

Shortly after the door opened, Azfan emerged from behind the door. Naura remembers Azfan as a male figure that Naira had liked first until Naira left for Yemen. Naura never thought about how Naira and Khalisa became friends. They both love the same person but can still make friends.

Azfan let Naura in while he was out for a while so that Khalisa and Naura could speak freely.

"Sorry Mom, I didn't come that day." Khalisa got out of bed to see Naura coming.

"Don't apologize, I've heard everything, which is important now you're okay." Naura commented with a smile, she was concerned to see Khalisa's condition. Khalisa street was slightly limped and against the bruise on his face. Naura should apologize because if that afternoon she did not invite Khalisa to meet, maybe Khalisa will not experience this.

Khalisa invited Naura to sit on the sofa, he put a bottle of red guava juice and apples on the table.

Now Naura understands why Naira can be friends with Khalisa. While sick like this Khalisa still treats Naura as a guest by serving a drink on the table. Khalisa is very good, far from Naura's estimate.

"I'm the one who should apologize, if I came straight to your house maybe it wouldn't have been this way."

Khalisa shook his head, "if that day did not work out, he would try another day so even if that day I did not leave in the end he would have succeeded."

"I came here to give you this." Naura thrust a white envelope at Khalisa. "Naira asked me to give you this envelope."

Khalisa took the envelope and opened it impatiently. Khalisa wanted to ask why Naura did not come with Naira. But Khalisa answered his own curiosity, maybe Naira can not get out because of the focus on the baby. Naira's son should have been born based on Khalisa's calculations.

Khalisa, I want to say a big thank you because all this time you have been very good with me. You strengthen me in the midst of my illness that cannot be cured. You're an expert at encouraging others, somehow if you're sad, who's going to encourage you. You can encourage yourself, right?

You always put others first, next time think of yourself. That's important to Khalisa and never ask your husband to marry you again. BIG NO'S!

Khalisa, don't be sad. Inshaa Allah when you receive this letter I have calmed down in the bosom of the earth. I hope you and your baby are born healthy. Happy waiting for the second child. Will you have a daughter too?

Khalisa dropped the paper after reading some of its contents. Khalisa doesn't believe this, what does it mean? No, this must be wrong.

Khalisa looked at Naura who was looking at him softly, "Bak?"

Naura nodded, she understood what Khalisa was asking right now.

"It's been 20 days since Naira left us all."

"Mbak, why ... why don't I know that Naira—" Khalisa can't continue his sentence. It's too stifling.

"Naira who asked us to keep her return secret here, Naira did not want anyone to know her condition, until Naira breathed her last breath, no one knew except close family."

Khalisa covered his face with his hands, he was unable to receive this news. Khalisa thought Naira was focusing on welcoming her son, which is why Khalisa did not get any news of Naira. But it turns out—

"Naira died giving birth to her child, the doctor said her condition was severe enough but Naira could still give birth to her daughter."

Khalisa's cry broke upon hearing Naura's story, his head unable to read the letter again. Khalisa has not even congratulated the birth of Naira's child. Khalisa sobbed to take the letter back.

Naura hugged Khalisa, before she left here she promised not to cry. But who can resist crying when losing the figure of the younger brother.

Speaking of princesses, I put Ravina on Rindang. I believe Rindang and her husband can love Ravina like a real child. Ravina means clear sky. I hope Ravina can make Rindang's life brighter. Rindang can pin his last name, like Ravina Anjana.

I am so happy because before I died, God gave me the opportunity to marry a man who loved me very much, got pregnant and gave birth to a beautiful daughter.

Khalisa as he pleased, his chest felt increasingly tight as if he was hit by a blunt object many times. Her gaze is twitching. The earth stopped turning at that moment.

Thank you Khalisa and Rindang. We'll talk more later, in God's heaven if we get a chance. Please find me if you don't find me in heaven.