Mahabbah Love Khalisa

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"I'll marry Rindang." Levin's voice was so soft in the middle of the cafe crowd that afternoon. In front of him Jason sat quietly with a flat face but a second after the sentence slid from his mouth, Jason's countenance turned shocked mixed with annoyance. Jason clenched his hand, he wanted to get angry but after thinking about it again there was no point in getting angry. Jason has been rejected Rindang, no matter how much he tried to approach, he will not succeed.

"Congratulations." Jason held out a hand to shake Levin's hand. "Why do you tell me?" Jason was about to refuse Levin's request to meet but he finally agreed because Levin insisted.

"So, I feel like I have to tell you there's no misunderstanding between us."

Jason laughed, a fake laugh that implied how devastated his current feelings were. During his early days with Rindang, Jason often said that he would continue to love the woman. And that speech is still proven today. Jason could not get rid of that feeling even though Rindang had rejected it outright. Jason realized, his present self does not deserve to be shady. Then who deserves it? Jason has the answer now. Levin is the perfect match for Rindang.

"I've pretended to be stoic but it's hard, I can't." Jason rubbed his wet eyes, laughing to the point of tears. Jason's lips trembled forming a curved smile like a crescent moon. "But that does not mean I do not want you to marry Rindang, although I admit my memories with Rindang are difficult to forget but I hope your relationship lasts."

"Thanks Jas." Levin gulped down the orange juice he had ordered. The sweet taste of the juice did not comfort Levin, he felt guilty for telling this. Levin just doesn't want to betray Jason even though Rindang has no relationship with Jason.

Levin understood Jason's feelings because he had been in that position, when Khalisa turned him down and a few months later he heard that Khalisa was getting married to Azfan. Levin hopes that Jason will soon find the moorings of his heart.

"What wedding gift do you want?"

"No need, we'll do the marriage contract at the mosque and then eat with the family without reception."

"Why?" Jason's eyebrows raised, he thought Rindang was not the type of person who likes to hold events simply. Shady always excited in various things. Jason thought they were going to have a big reception attended by the upper class in Banyuwangi. Jason could not believe that Levin and Rindang would only do marriage contracts at the mosque.

"That's what Rindang wanted and I agreed to do a deal without a reception."

"She changed a lot, she's no longer the Missile I love, she's already the Missile that was created for you."

"I think so." Levin knows that Jason is trying to make him believe that Jason has completely given up Rindang for him. But Jason could not hide what was implied behind his smile.

"I'll buy you this time." Jason called the waiter to order some snacks.

"I should've bought you."

"Oh, I'm trying to make myself look less pathetic." Jason pointed to three chocolate dessert menus for himself and Levin. Jason smiled bitterly, actually being here in front of Levin was enough to make him look miserable. How not, everyone comes with their own partner. There were only two men sitting at one table.

"Recently, I have a prewedding photography project in the hospital."

"They're doctors?"

"No, the bride is sick again." Jason's gaze glazed considering the touching moment between two lovers who were doing prewedding photos. "Husband candidates say, if she gets well, she'll grant whatever her lover wants."

"What's his wish?"

"She wanted her future husband to marry another woman because his illness could not be cured, the doctor said the possibility of recovery was very small and the time was not long anymore."

"Doctor said that?" Levin asked in disbelief, what was more surprising was that the bride asked her lover to marry another woman. "That doesn't make sense, they found the best way to get hurt together."

"Because he believed his illness could not be cured so he dared to ask for it."

"How are you doing now?"

"I don't know, I wish they were married."

"Vin, I just wish you would accompany Rindang forever, I know you'll do it even if I don't ask but we all know Rindang's pancreas will never be able to produce the hormone insulin again so please don't even think about leaving it because of the disease."

"That didn't cross my mind at all."

"I know."

Black forest cake and 2 plates of Cheesecake with chocolate wrapping presented on the table. As his companion Jason ordered 2 espresso to accompany their chat.

"You like sweet food turns out." Levin scoops the cheesecake and devours it.

Those are the 2 types of cakes that Rindang often ordered first while eating at the cafe with Jason. It was Rindang's favorite cake that he almost never ate again. Usually Rindang just eat a bite and Jason who will spend it. Rindang said he would be satisfied after seeing Jason finish it, as if he had eaten the cake.

"I've already used your trust to get back to Rindang, I'm ashamed to remember that."

"It's okay, at the end of the day you want to admit it." Levin hopes that one day Jason will truly fall in love with the same God he and Rindang are.

"I really didn't take Rindang's time off because he wanted to convert to Islam but at the same time I couldn't oppose it either."

"The rain is awesome." Levin recalled that when he met Rindang at the museum, he was amazed by Rindang's appearance which changed completely. "I have to go." Levin looked at the circular watch on his wrist.

"okay." Jason nodded, before meeting earlier Levin had said that today he would leave for Banyuwangi. Levin invites Jason to meet before going to the airport.

"Thank you for meeting and talking." Levin.

"Don't overdo it, I don't want us to be friends." Jason pretended to put on a fierce face.

Levin chuckled, "you're like my brother." He patted Jason on the shoulder twice.

"Do I have to call Koko?"

"Can."

Jason shuddered in horror at the thought, "hopefully your show goes well."

"Aamiin, I'll go first." Levin waves his hand and then gets out of there leaving Jason who still has to spend two dessert dishes. Suddenly Jason regretted ordering the sweet cake too much.

Jason dropped back on the chair staring blankly at Levin's clean dessert plate, as if Jason's heart was completely empty.

There are too many things that Jason must forget when he was with Rindang first. Rindang Anjana whose name was carved in Jason's heart until now.

It didn't take long for Jason to fall in love with a shady. Starting from him who became the ospek committee, for a week Jason noticed Rindang who he thought was the most shining among other Maba. After the ospek ended Jason made an approach and a week after that they officially dated.

They do a lot of things together, eat, do college assignments to do photoshoots when they have to promote certain products. Sunday is the most anticipated day where they will worship together in the church. They'll have lunch at Jason's.

Jason stirred the Black Forest tastefully until the cake was shapeless. Jason vented his anger at the innocent cake.

Jason stared at the reflection of his face on the spoon, his purple hair began to fade into black. In the past he and Rindang always change hair color every two weeks. They have the same hobby: changing hair color. But since breaking up from Rindang, Jason no longer dye his hair. Jason hopes that his love will also fade with his hair color.