Loving Or Loved?

Korea

Happy reading....

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The POV

I've been in this country for a month, in addition to doing work to handle Papa's corporate tender, I've also been this month along with my friends began to pioneer a culinary business that Papa had not allowed. The business of work here Alhamdulillah smoothly and facilitated all his affairs by Allah S.W.T, but as with other human lives ‘nothing is really smooth, nothing is really smooth, there is always such a thing as tesan’ and because of that exam I will be a little longer in this country, at least until we realize our true feelings.

“Why are you? Still thinking about what happened a month ago in Indonesia? Forget it, it's fate should be like this.” Talking is easy but, still running it is very difficult. He's my old friend Andin is 3 years above me, and we've been friends for a long time but because he decided to study abroad so we rarely meet. And he was a witness to my month-long journey, ever since A Bagas and Bang Aziz knew that they were half-brothers but not blood at all.

“Destiny yes Ndin, whereas I just received A Bagas entry in my life.” Said me while looking at the ring A Bagas gave when graduation first.

“You're still tied, Bagas didn't let you go Fani. He only gave Aziz a chance, and this is where you have to make your decision. Bagas a good person, not his intention to include a third person in his relationship. But he is struggling for the harmony of his family as well, along with making Aziz aware, that there is a heart he cannot have completely.”

Andin was right, maybe it was just my feelings that were too weak and pessimistic. The fear of being abandoned again, not by betrayal, but the name left behind, will still hurt and I don't want to be a second time.

“What has not contacted you again Fan?” and again I just answered him with a headband. Hmm.. The same question for the umpteenth time was thrown from the thin lips of this woman before me. I let out a heavy sigh, there was a sense of tightness hitting my chest. I remember the day that Qiana's four-monthly event was one month ago.

A Bagas the man who had already expressed his earnestness to me back then, suddenly had to give a chance to his Big Brother, Aziz. Patrated clearly in my memory to date, the conditions put forward by Bang Aziz to receive a new family from his biological Mami.

“I want to ask for one thing, I ask Fani to consider me to be her lover. Both prove the love I have is the same as Bagas who he has given the opportunity to be his lover. Huh…. Why is he always the luckier? She already got the love of the woman who gave birth to me and now? Should I give up again?” he said with a face that had gone red, I realized that there was a deep sense of jealousy in his heart, maybe even Bang Aziz felt being played with destiny. 15 Years of living without parents, and it turns out all just misunderstandings are left rooted by his own Papi.

Because of that, A Bagas asked me to consider Bang Aziz to be a part of my life, giving him a chance like me that also gave him a chance. At first I was angry with A Bagas's decision to agree with Bang Aziz's request. And let me go to Korea with a burden on my heart, because in the end I was left to choose between the two.

Bugh…. Aww, hadeehhh hand of this Andin is very rough already.

“Fan, are you okay? How to fuck?” My shoulders are hot and Andin's clapping. Hah remembering them makes me stupefied often.

“Hemm, it's okay. Just to reflect, how do I help A Bagas so that his family remains intact with the inclusion of Syta and Bang Aziz into the family A Bagas. With so much jealousy from the figure of Bang Aziz, I want to immediately decide if I choose A Bagas to be my companion. But I'm afraid I'm even bullying their families.” Andin rubbed my back as if giving strength to me, huh. If only Mama and Mama Qiana were by my side now would definitely not be this heavy.

“You must contact Bagas, find a solution together do not walk alone, difficult! You still chatan also the same Aziz?” I nodded, saying what Andin said. Silent…

Thin smoke billowed right in front of me, who else if not the ignorant Andin who was blowing a cup of tea that looks still hot. Always this child slips into his ignorance while talking seriously like now.

“You are given a time limit until when, to decide all this?” ask her while putting a teacup on the table, then pluck the pieces of my kimbab that are still intact.

“Uhukk...uhukk..uhuk Fortunately, I ordered water and I opened the lid before I handed it to Andin, after his cough subsided he stared intently at me as if I was a hunted animal that he was ready to snoop at any time.

“Why just said? I think it's a long time ago it turned out to be so. You said the story is all the same I turned out not all.” The omel.

“Lupa, how else do I here work need my brain while my heart is left in Jakarta.” My answer is not clear, hahhhh over time thinking and weighing this situation makes me lose a lot of vocabulary, it seems.

“What’s...forget!! How can I forget?” her screams, which made me reflexively cover my face with a palm

hands as some of the visitors at my resaturant were staring at us with astonished gazes.

“Ssttt, very noisy anyway. Yaudah this I must how, A Bagas phone used to mean yes?” my many.

"Mending now we go home first yuk," he asked while looking at the beautiful circular clock in his left hand.

"By, come on." Andin and I walked to the main door of our restaurant.

"Fani's... Fan.." shouted someone from the left side, I seem to be familiar with this voice.

Degs... Why must he be here, O God, is this one of his business forms?

"He's Aziz..Aziz.. is that right? he's walking towards us." Andin's whisper was right in my ear, I just nodded in response.

With the PDnya man walked closer, do not forget the smile that had been attracted earlier perfectly. If I were a woman who relied on the physique of a man to be a companion, maybe I would be clingy with Bang Aziz's current behavior. But unfortunately, I am a woman who relies more on my heart to choose a man. More relying on the beat of the heart that rhymed beautifully when dropping his heart for a man, than the blink of an eye that repeatedly when looking at the handsome man hilr homecoming before me hahaha Fani...Fani.... and now how do I convey my decision so that no one is hurt?.

Ahaa. I have an idea...

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Thank you all...

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