Loving Or Loved?

Test Trial

Happy reading……….

I stood and held the iron fence, my head turned up to look at the pitch black night sky with no stars and moonlight tonight. Dark and cold. For a moment I remember Mbak Tiwi's words this afternoon, it is true that I must have started to really mengikhlaskan and forget the darkest past in my life, especially regarding the link Bang Aziz in it, especially regarding the connection Bang Aziz in it, even though his attitude was really annoying. I must make peace for myself, of course.

The smell of rainwater soaking in the ground still rippled in my sense of smell, as the breeze was still faithfully stroking my face gently, the friction of twigs and leaves seemed to be a harmonious harmony in my hearing. Being grateful for the blessings God has given, is one of the earliest ways of making peace.

To be honest sometimes I feel guilty about Bang Aziz, because there is only a resemblance to my former fiance I so vented with annoyance. The prank that he did at that time was really upsetting me, but actually I have no problem anymore, especially after just spending time watching the content on the red application with Mbak Qiana and Mbak Tiwi.

It turns out that everything on the face of this earth is destined to pair, not just men and women, males and females, even attitudes, traits, and even, and the feeling is presented in the form of pairs. Like the good that is always juxtaposed with the bad, not because the two are worth it but because the two always come together.

Good and bad will always be there, even in ourselves there must be good and bad sides. No human being is born perfect on this earth, and I must realize this fully in order to meet someone who is making a mistake, the heart can hold the chest to forgive him instead of hating him or stop interacting with them.

“Onty, disten Bunda masyuk mam used to bial cepet dueeede sepelti Father.” Said the little boy while tugging at the end of my nightgown, who else if not Dafa the kingpin from Bang Akbar's house wkwk.

“Ready to command!!!” I said as I turned my body against Dafa.

“I want to carry, can?” haha Tumben once he asked first when asking for a sling, ah maybe this is the order of Bang Akbar because Dafa is getting heavier and heavier.

“Bby, but sun Onty first.” Tawarku and he nodded his spirit, it has been almost a few months since Dafa was forbidden by Bang Akbar to ask for a sling on his mother, because of the pregnancy of Ms. Qiana who had

weak so prohibited from carrying heavy including carrying Dafa, maximum only hold it even in a short duration.

Cup.. Dafa kissed me on the forehead

Cup.Cup..Cup. Dafa kisses the right cheek, nose, and, and my left cheek and just straight away I hold the tiny body into my sling even though it is heavy to carry especially to the dining room on the first floor, yes it is good enough to burn the calories I ate this afternoon hahaha.

“Onty know not, said Father later Mother will beeesaaall once if her sister Dafa pintle mam in Mother's pelut. Was Dafa in Mother's pelut too, Onty?” uh what question is this, Bang I have to answer how is this. Your son really made me die standing up to his question from this morning. Bismillah O Allah, may my answer be understood by Dafa and he does not ask much more.

“I.iya, every child was raised first in the mother's stomach if it has been nine months his child will be born into the world. Later we will see both, yes, Dafa's sister when she was born into the world.” My speech.

“Otehhh, later Dafa will buy lobots that buaannnaakk banet bial Dafa can play at all time with his sister Dafa.” He answered so enthusiastically that he spread his hand to the left. Oh son again on this ladder, diem-diem bae or if the irritation how try.

“Night, Fan.. Wih a handsome child Mother of sinter really told to call her Onty back and forth to be carried hihihi.” Ma'am Qiana said as she giggled small.

“Night also Mbak, waahhh rice liwet asyiikkk…. It's really good,.” I said half-screaming and jumped up unconsciously if I was still holding Dafa, fortunately my bones were still good so my reflexes when I saw the rice dropper and his friends did not cause gout.

“Huss... pamali ih shouted in front of food.” Sergey Mbak Tiwi.

Gezz brushes…. Eat first, oh yes and this is one good example that always comes hand in hand. First this is very good, because rice liwet and his friends always arouse my appetite, the bad news they are very powerful to raise my weight is this served mayem-mayem huhuhu….

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“Iya, baweeel. I'm already leaving late.” Answer Mbak Qia.

“I can actually pinjem the motorcycle?” ask me again, to make sure.

"Sumuhun eneng, pretentious manga brought motorna aya in the garage. Exposed kusudak nyak,” replied Mbak Qia, eiitdah so nyunda gini talk about it even though only semalem speak Javanese language that I do not know what is spoken.

“Eleeuhhh, Eteh said that obviously napa. Yaudah I'm leaving first, papaaayyyy…. Assalamu’alaikum.” My pamit.

“Wa’alaikumsalam.” Answer Mbak Qia.

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Tin.tin…

“Dafaaa, Onty went to work first dadahhh..” I cried when I saw Dafa who was in line to buy chicken porridge with Mbak Tiwi near the housing post.

I saw Dafa startled at my screams, but after seeing me he returned my smile and even waved his tiny hand at me. Glad it…

During the trip to the store I drove my vehicle ranging from 40km/h to 60km/h when I found a fairly stretchy road. But suddenly the matic motorbike I was driving suddenly shrewd, fortunately I was smart enough to balance it. I slowly pulled my car over for a check. And eng.ing..eng... rear tire is leaking, the address will be sports this morning.

With a heavy heart I inevitably had to push it until I found the nearest tire patch. Motor that is heavy enough for me to push in a state of leaky tires like this. 100 meters, 200 meters, 300 meters, I have not met the workshop to patch the tire. Sweat is already as big as corn kernels taste, hufft. ngaso stretch good times yes.

Tin...tin..tin..Abaghfirullah, shocked and suddenly there was a car that mepelakson while his car on the motorbike deck that I parked on the sidewalk deck. Cuek ajalah, the mineral water that I just bought in the small shop was much more appealing to his taste.

“Assalamu’alaikum.” Greetings of a man who I believe just got off the car that was mopping up earlier. I was busy with my drinking water.

 “Wa’alaikumsalam.” I said as I closed my bottle of mineral water, and jeng.jeng. Aishhh.. Shall I test my sincerity and hospitality in Bang Aziz this morning, as a sign that I am well with those bad memories?. Think Fani.thinking a sneak, do not take the wrong decision.

“Bandung no less nice hangout place, why must hang out on the side of the road like this? Very little work,” tuhhhh right, by the way very nice package.

Trial now no.... Jeez naga...

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