Loving Or Loved?

Not an Easy Thing

Happy reading....

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Qiana POV

The days continued to pass as far as the day of my application and return to Bandung, making me reflect and learn many things. Life goes on sometimes below, sometimes above and I understand that very well, this is not just a matter of sustenance but about many more complex things than those that appear on the surface.

And at the age of 26, I met a man who had never been imagined before, a man who I initially thought was cute and would be difficult to talk to turned out to have a million extraordinary charms,

especially when he came to me to look for evidence of the truth that Dafa was his flesh and blood, I was very persistent. His figure tends to be the same as mine, too monotonous with that, maybe because he and I have both been through dark lonely days.

But never forget the words of our heroine Raden Ajeng Kartini ‘HABIS DARK PUBLISH TERANG’ in the context of life the words are very worthy to be made a reminder and self-exciting middle slumped.

And now my path has returned to light leaving a dark tunnel behind and even my journey this time is no longer alone, there is already Dafa and Mas Akbar who are ready to accompany the rest of my journey while in this world. For the umpteenth time too, I must be very indifferent and bodo with people who are jealous and disturb my peace in this world, even though there is still a sense of worry in my heart but I have to suppress it so that I can live life with true calm, because everything that happens in my life is already there that regulates it very nicely.

“Doooorrrrrrr......!!!” shouted Fani surprised me who was daydreaming while stirring the porridge.

“Astagfirullah Dek, you are well obi ngagetin people know not,” I said while stroking the chest.

“Hehehey yes Ma'am sorry yes, Ma'am kok cook chicken porridge again?” askinya.

“Today Your brother came here before picking up Mbak's parents at the airport, so Mbak made a blur again.” I replied with a smile, hmm some days did not meet Mas Akbar already felt strange it might be my comfort level towards Mas Akbar has increased hehehe.

“Aishhh... Ma'am already know that buryam is his favorite food of the brother?” ask her while bringing her body close to my side.

“Iya.” Answer's short.

“Oh yes Ma'am, if his family Back here his room does not fit dong, here it is only two bedrooms,” said Fani with a serious facial expression, rarely can I see Fani's serious face

joke this, gumussh.

“Quiet, load it. Stay you open the door that decket the middle room later surely you see many rooms there.” I answered while pointing towards the back of my body.

“Hah... Seriously Ma'am? Can Fani get there?” asked Fani with sparkling eyes and the look of her brightly-colored, funny hehehe also Fani is always showing what is felt with expressions that tickle the stomach if looked carefully.

“By there alone, there is Bi Ani also again clean-up,” said, but he has not yet moved from my side his face implies as if there are many things he wants to ask.

“Eh, Ma'am but the room is not serem right? What is join the same house next door that looks well maintained but empty?” ask me again, really the soul of his very high prospective sister-in-law this.

“Iya house next door is Grandma Mira's house too, just because Grandma lives alone here so be separated at love door itself and open if the children at home, gather all here. Let's not feel really lonely if living in a big house alone, but the next room is often in the same residence as Bi Ani and Mang Didin really, really, a week can be 3 to 4 times they nginep here.” My answer explained to Fani, it turns out that in addition to Fani's keoan also parnoan hihihi.

“Alhamdulilah safe, I think empty continues right so think serem-serem I Mbak, hihihihi,” he said as he passed leaving me.

I just smiled to see the behavior of Fani that was quite comforting to me, hmm this seems to have a sister, especially a Fani. A person who is very humorous and relaxed in addressing everything even though sometimes his emotions are still explosive, but there are times when he can be mature and be a good listener, he said, like that time when Bella called and threatened me, Fani became the first person to help me.

Ting.tong….

Chequek…

Plakkc….

“Astagfirullah..” I was shocked, because suddenly there was a woman who slapped me hard.

“What's Qi...?” tiwi shouted from the inside and I did not acknowledge her at all due to the shock with the woman before me, she was quite a persistent woman in my heart.

“Bella?” my spoken.

“Yes, I am. Why surprised you? Cheap base, do not know yourself like to seize the happiness of people,” he said with high notation, my breakfast this time is no longer chicken porridge or Mas Akbar's face again like yesterday, but Bella's heart-wrenching chirp.

“You haven't been kapok ya Bell?” ask me gently, because it is useless if I follow hard like him, even drained of energy.

‘I will never stop until you return Akbar and Dafa to me,” he said again with great emphasis, it was as if Mas Akbar and Dafa were items he could throw away and pick at will.

“It's Bell, don't lower your own pride by licking your own saliva. Each has their own destiny path. Do not stray the lives of others, better focus on your own life and start everything from the beginning,” Tiwi said from behind me.

“You don't have to interfere with Tiw, don't let me slap your face too,” he said with the body that had tried to break through my body and Tiwi who was facing the door, until someone's sturdy arm pulled him away.

“You've reminded me, don't fuck you!” said Mas Akbar with his flat face.

“You? Why are you here again?” bella asked confused, equally I was also confused because behind Mas Akbar there was already my family and Mas Akbar's family who were out of their respective cars.

“Waooowww.. surprise....” cried Fani from the window of the room that was wide open.

“This let me take care of the Bar, you are the same others enter aja,” said Mr Bagas, Whaattt? Mr. Bagas the son of the owner of the hospital where I worked first.

“Already, tell him about peace and happiness that is halal not canned by snatching from others,” said Bang Reza who has stood behind Mas Akbar.

“Do not, I still want to teach this same cheap girl,” cried Bella with more explosive emotions.

“Huh Shouted Fani while widening her eyes to Bella.

Finally Bella was dragged away by Mr. Bagas either want to be taken anywhere, huwaa breakfast that is quite filling. Oh yes, why so two families have come, wahh Mas Akbar deceived apparently.

Living in the present day is not an easy matter of envy and hate not buried and eliminated even more in fertilizer. But it is not happiness that will be harvested even prolonged suffering that will faithfully nourish a narrow heart.

**Thank you for reading.. Don't be bored**.