Loving Or Loved?
47.Women and Love
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Qiana POV
After the maghrib prayer I rushed to the house of Mama Dewi, the home of the twins. Intentionally we do not make an agreement outside because our discussion is private, said Mama so it must be in a closed room. Dafa, Mas Akbar and the men who lived in the house had not returned from the mosque, this was Mas Akbar's plan so that Dafa would not see me when he went out of the house, afraid that Dafa would whine to come along.
Anyway I should get to Mama Dewi's house immediately and return immediately before Dafa's bedtime. On the way, I thought about what Mama Dewi would discuss with me. It did not take long I have arrived at Mama Dewi's house, the house looks very lonely.
I rushed down from the car and walked towards the main door, when I was about to press the bell, the door of the house was already open from the inside. And there was a middle-aged woman who smiled warmly at me while stretching out her hands. I also ran into his arms.
"Assalamu'alaikum Ma," my greeting while kissing the back of the middle-aged woman's hand in front of me who still looked beautiful.
"Wa'alaikumsalam Nak, let's go straight to Setya's room aja ya." take Mama Dewi who directly lead me to walk into Setya's room.
"Papa, Tyo and his wife where is Ma? This lonely, Mama's alone?" ask Mama Dewi.
"Yes, the others on the out deliberately Mama do not come along so that they can talk to you both," said Mama Dewi while opening the door to Kmar Setya, who was not involved in the conversation, The contents of the room still looked the same as the last time I entered this room.
"Sit down, son, Mama wants to talk to your soon-to-be-married daughter. Although you are not Mama's biological child and not Mama's daughter-in-law, but you are still Mama's daughter who will always love Nak Mama. You're the only woman that Mama's child loves, son," said Mama Dewi, she still seemed to smile warmly while I?, had wanted to roar in tears if remembering about Setya.
"Yes Ma, Qiana will always be Mama's son. Once again Qiana apologized yes Ma, because when Qiana's proposal did not invite Mama and family," I said softly, I really feel sorry for Mama Dewi.
"It is my son, who passes let it pass. Mama only wants the best for you, son, if Akbar is the right person for you Mama will support you wholeheartedly." Mama looked up at the bedside nightstand we were sitting on.
"For a while Mama wants to take something," said Mama and went to the nightstand that he had noticed earlier.
Mama Dewi seemed to take a medium-sized wooden box.
"What is Ma?" I was curious, as I recall when I entered Setya's room at that time the wooden box was not here.
"This is open, this is from Setya for you. He bought it as a reunion gift with you after 8 years of separation. Open my child" said Mama Dewi by thrusting the wooden box.
My hands shook violently when my fingers touched the wooden box that Mama gave me, was this really Setya, I thought. When it was in my hand, I slowly opened the wooden box, it turned out that it contained a necklace with a pendulum of the letter Q in the heart symbol. Even when Setya is in a different realm, he can still surprise me with the secrets he has. I held the necklace, and then I put it back in the wooden box.
"Where would Setya like Qiana?" My toot.
"As a Mother, Mama knows what Mama Qi's children are feeling. Highlight his eyes when you see him Mama knows that, because Setya's gaze upon you implies admiration and happiness. And Mama was more convinced of Setya's feelings for you when you suddenly disappeared, her eyes dim, as if her happiness had been lost. " said Mama Dewi and looked at me with sorrow.
"Mama know if Qiana likes Tyo?" tanyaku.
"Mama also knows that, but Mama knows your good Qi wouldn't possibly ruin Setya and Tyo's brother relationship right? So you'd rather be quiet and decide to be friends with both?" ask Mama Dewi.
"Had son, Mama told you to come here because Mama wanted to tell you something" said Mama Dewi as she wiped my tears.
"This has become the destiny of destiny. As a little girl you know about your feelings, women and love are two things that are equally difficult to guess. The word love for a woman is a pain, because many women can not express their feelings and end up hurting their own feelings," said Mama Dewi while looking at me fixedly.
"Mama was right, as a woman Qiana was embarrassed to express Qiana's feelings first and chose to harbor her. At that time Tyo had advised Qiana Ma, he said either we accept or look for people who love us only, because the possibility of eating his heart a little," I told Mama Dewi, I said, I saw my mother smiling at me.
"Support it, hmm. Look, as human beings, especially women, when we are loved by someone and that person treats us well and looks sincerely in love with us, then our hearts will be easily melted and the possibility to repay his love more quickly. Ah, the point is that both love and love both need struggle and sacrifice, and the word love is far from easy and original," he said with a warm smile, I don't know my heart is getting raging, I hugged this woman in front of me.
Maybe I should really start to love Mas Akbar as sincerely, however much Mas Akbar has proved his sincerity for me. I don't want to waste people who have struggled to get love from someone like me again, who still have many flaws here and there. Thank you Setya, has taught me many things to make a lesson in life, even though we are late but our destiny is never wrong.
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I knew from the beginning
Loving is not easy
Far from simple and original
I learned from childhood
Shouting over the throatÂ
Rain and makian
Destroyed easier than survived
I learned from childhood
I have hope for us
The little one in all eyes
Even though fear sometimes sucks
But all my life I've spent
Read more try Nadin Amizah's song 'Put it'.
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