Loving Or Loved?

19. Broken Into Two

Setya and Tiwi should have come home in the afternoon after resting for a while at Granny Qiana's house. But because Grandma Qiana still wanted to chat with her grandson's friend, they finally decided to stay overnight and return tomorrow morning, considering that Setya will fly during the day to Surabaya.

"The old Grandmother never nengokin Mama Qiana in Surabaya, since the last 8 years always those who come here to visit Grandma and Qiana," said Grandma Mira.

"Meanwhile since 8 years, Qiana has never returned to Surabaya Nek?" Tiwi said, actually he thought that Qiana still often to Surabaya without the knowledge of her friends turned out to be wrong predictions.

"Yes, Qiana said she wanted to be in Jakarta. A lot of good people have always supported her, she said, "grandmother Mira said.

"During here Qiana has ever been close to the rowdy man Nek?" asked Setya who made Grandma Qiana turn her head while smiling towards Setya.

"Never had Grandma seen Qiana close to a man, just talked about her never when about her other life she was very open with Grandma" replied Grandma.

"Then Nek Tiwi heard that Qiana had a cake shop, what was Grandma's legacy?" ask Tiwi.

"Yes Qiana does have a cake shop, but it is the result of her own hard work. If you want to know tomorrow before going to Jakarta it's good to stop by first to the cake shop, later Granny and Qiana who deliver," said Grandma.

"My grandmother told me to meet Qiana, there is something I need to talk about for a while." said Setya and was adopted by Grandma Qiana.

Setya walked slowly towards Granny Qiana's room, afraid that Dafa was sleeping and she woke him up if he was too excited to enter the room. In the absence of the wooden door a little, he saw that Dafa and Qiana were busy making vidio calls that could be ascertained it was Akbar. With a heavy heart he waited until the vidio call was over, he instead focused on listening to the conversation until his chest felt tight. There was a clear familiarity between Qiana, Dafa and Akbar's family not only with Akbar but also involving his family. Broken into two hearts Setya made. Setya was still silently staring at the door of the room. Soon she realized that Dafa and Qiana had finished the vidio call.

Tok.dok...

"Qi, I want to have a chat... Can you come in?" Setya.

"Here I go, I sleep with Dafa" replied Qiana.

Setya went into the room and sat on the edge of the bed next to Dafa.

"Qi, before I go back to Surabaya I want to talk seriously with you. First I want to apologize about Tyo not being able to change his feelings for you." Setya paused her speech, turning to stare at Qiana's expression.

"There's nothing to do with you, so there's no need to apologize. Tyo was also not wrong, because it was my decision at that time to hold it myself, eh even you know." replied Qiana while continuing to rub Dafa's back without paying attention to Setya.

"Yes, the second one I want to say that actually Mama I really want to make you her ex. You won't try to open your heart to me Q, then marry me you can consider me Tyo if you want?" setya was doubtful.

**...

Qiana turned to Setya, where there were men asking women to open their hearts because the request of their parents was not a matter of heart or feeling. A little disappointed look from the beautiful face, not because he felt that Setya did not love him but, is it so inappropriate that he got a person who really sincerely loves him?.

"You mean for your Mama, like that?" ask Qiana.

"It's more or less like that" Setya replied.

Actually Setya was too afraid to express his true feelings, so his tongue even said because of his mother. Bo*oh indeed!. He also cursed himself when he saw the look on Qiana's face turned flat unpredictable.

"If your mother wants to, why don't you marry me" Qiana said

De**g**

Setya's heart melos, dibenaknya what he said earlier was wrong. Why is Qiana still difficult to approach if the heart problem, always makes her heart split in two.

"Hahahaha, Set did not have to give up. It's good to stay friendly for now. Either later if we are a match, surely our heart can open and accept by itself" said Qiana, who ended with a bland laugh.

"I've been opening up and accepting you for a long time Qiana, even though I know it hurts." Setya said.

"Alright Qi, if that's what you want. I'll go out and rest." resigned Setya while walking gontai leave Qiana.

Blams... (Setya's closed door voice).

"Whatis that? He said because his mother and I can think of him as Tyo. Huh Unfortunately love can not be forced by Set, if I can open my heart to you maybe I will even feel pain due to often see your face like Tyo. But why do I look as if Setya felt a broken heart after I spoke to her? Ah maybe he just felt disappointed not being able to realize the wishes of the Aunt Goddess. That's right, how could he possibly like a woman who likes her own biological sister." - Inner Qiana.

***

Setya walked gontai towards the family room, there was already prepared Granny Qiana folding mattresses, blankets, pillows and also bolsters to sleep. Because it only had 2 rooms, so Setya slept outside, Qiana and Dafa in her Grandma's room and Tiwi and Grandma in Qiana's room.

"Have you finished talking?" tiwi asked and only got a nod from Setya.

"Why are you so lethargic? " ask Tiwi again.

"Why again" replied Setya.

"Judah I want to follow Grandma to the room, you go to bed only tomorrow we travel far." said Tiwi.

"Yes, it's already in there." Remove Setya.

***

The morning came, all the women who were at Granny Qiana's house were busy making breakfast. While Dafa he has appeared adorable with a padded cheek that polishes baby powder. Dafa was busy watching his sleeping Omnya under the blanket. Yes, he was Setya who slept again after returning home from the musholla near Grandma Qiana's house.

"Om, ngun Om dah pole," said Dafa as he made Setya's cheek.

Because he did not get any reaction from Setya he decided to go up to Setya's body and move his tiny body. Makes Setya squirm small.

"Om Tetya awunn." cried Dafa.

"Hmm." - Setya.

"Om ngun Om dah nih pole," said Dafa.

"It's just a little bit more" said Setya.

Dafa leaves Setya with a goiter because he fails to wake her up. Setya is still feeling lazy to wake up because he needs to need a lot of energy after the heartbreak last night. Makes it hard to sleep well.

*Now I realize I'm using the opportunity well. I can't go back in time to correct my mistakes. And I can't stop time to just stare at you. All I can do now is regret the past and hope that in the future there is happiness for us who both love people, who love others. I also hope God will soon meet us with people who love us with all their body souls - Setya 🍃🍃🍃*