Love (Not) Owned

Traumatizing

A week after the opening of the store I did not find also a reply from Malik to my message that night.

This month is the last month before the new school holiday. Like the previous year I as the one in charge at the Kindergarten level will be busy preparing for the release of the students . Like today I trained them to dance which I split into groups as an offering at a later event.

All graduation equipment has also been ordered and in this week has also been completed.

This release also invited Malik as one of the donors in our school.

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After the children came home I put my body in the room together with three other teachers.

While unwinded because of my dancing practice open my HP from inside the bag. I open all the social media I have.

Looking at the notification on my ig there was a request to follow from four days ago, it was clear who the picture was that appeared on that profile.

It amazes me, reply messages I can not but can ask for confirmation of my friendship.

I haven't had time to receive a ringing call coming in, it was clear who was calling. Abahs.

Tumben once Abah phone usually also Mother.

I picked up the phone and asked me to go home soon.

I don't feel good when Abah says I have to go home fast because it's not like usual.

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When I got home I met Abah and Mom who were in the kitchen having lunch. I who was also hungry immediately joined dong. hihihi

After eating Abah showed me a serious face, which made me even worse.

"Son, can I ask you a question?" which I immediately nodded

"Is there a relationship are you with your friend whose name is Hendra ? it is impossible to feel like he came all the way here if there is no specific purpose" explained Abah

After days of why Abah just asked about him yes, what is this.

"We were just friends of Bah no more. As uda shofie said at that time about his arrival here. Abah also knows how Abah's son is"

"Aren't you feeling the same way she wants to "ask Mom

"No ma'am, he's just a friend like everyone else"

Should I tell you about Hendra proposing at the time ? it seems like they should not think much about this.

I breathe heavily.

I also told you about Hendra's proposal at that time, there was nothing I covered up from them.

Finished telling everything they were silent looking at each other.

"open your heart, son, do not close your heart, you also need a companion life sharing and perfecting half your religion, want you like this, you want to be like this, don't you want to get married and have children like everyone else who is happy with their partner" she said

I can't see their faces. I know their anxiety I can feel it.

"dek don't you want to try to just get to know "kak zahra's voice all of a sudden

I almost forgot it's a weekend and he doesn't usually come home this late.

"find the husband is not a trial event brother, who knows constantly close is not suitable to continue to stay" I replied

"so how do you want to get a husband if you yourself can not open your heart and do not want to try to know the same name deck man, you why si, still traumatized ? come to terms with the situation, the soul mate does not come alone without us looking for" the reply does not want to lose

"already do not be like this, it is not good later fall of the difference, if you still do not want to get married it is okay to Abah same mother just remind you if you are already comfortable with solitude"

Not until my heart replies to their every word.

If I said I was afraid to know love, I was afraid the same thing would happen again.

Who says I don't want to get married, isn't that one of every woman's dreams ? the problem is that I do not have a partner yet.don't let the candidate partner just not be seen.

And I do not deny my heart still holds a taste for malik even though it is only a little. It's not easy to forget, even though it's been years.

I also do not want to be the cause of the breakdown of their relationship even though their relationship is already tenuous at this time, but that does not mean I take the opportunity.

"have not discussed this again not horrified what uda adzan dzuhur, yukk we are ready" invited mother to break the silence

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deck is sleeping ? kakk is in

I, who had not yet slept, sat back down and leaned my head.

"dek, brother wants to ask this yes, you really do not like Hendra temen you ?" my brother answered directly.

"when he is handsome lo deck, said mother he also has his own company huh ? that's when he came here, mom was a lot like him"

"bull is also not a guarantee people will be loyal brother not necessarily good akhlaknya also"

"so you think he's not loyal that way or he likes to play that woman, because it's usually if the bosses in the big cities are that sii ya"

"if he is as old as I don't know, my brother, his family is also good not to look at other people of social status"

"ehh you know really the ins and outs of him, brother so not sure if you do not have the same feeling he "his phone is not playing my brother

"yes, I won college for almost four years lo I was there one community with him and we also several times in the same boyong he to Jogja free all accommodation from him, he said, his papa mom also welcome aja not picky about his son's friends. Let alone he's an only child" my story that makes him goatee-beard only

"don't you still like Malik ?" inquiringly

"what the fuck, brother, I'm sleepy to go back to your room"

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Ting...

new notifications came in this blind morning.

I lazily opened

my eyes read it

"does he try to send a message so ngajak meet all" my snort annoyed

Though this week I plan to go to my mini factory to check the stock of supplies of materials for outlets.

I read it intentionally without replying

Ting...

"if there's no answer I assume you agree and I pick you up at ten"

"i'm busy today" I replied immediately then turned off my HP

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I who was ready to leave suddenly stopped for a moment when a car entered the yard.

This is a really reckless child, really want the claws of his face.

Before she came down I immediately went back in the house but the ill-fated mother had already seen her coming.

"Assalamualaikum" he said

Waalaikumussalam answered with my mother

"ehh son Malik has come, thankfully Shofie has not left. I forgot to nyampein same you want if today Malik asked permission same mother would take you out, you do not papa alone because your brother this afternoon must return to his Indekos "shocked not playing apparently he immediately asked permission from his mother

" mom should ask first dong I want or no I have other needs what not" I upset

"you said today you want to check the materials in the factory, right ? so I think you have some free time" said mom

" mom but it's still not good to go alone, I know I can at least" I complained

I see Malik as innocent, if he does not consent to mother I certainly do not answer mother's words.

" You're all grown-ups, you can definitely you should try to think of it as an exercise"

Without refuting again I follow her wishes.

I don't know what entry this person uses open the door of everything, where the cold attitude is

Along the way a word did not come out of our mouths, I just looked out the window at his regret.