Love (Not) Owned

Heart Poetry

Today is my last vacation before school, I spend it going to the mall after my sisters come home.

I made an appointment with Jihan and we'll meet at one of the cafes.

I deliberately chose a place that was a bit to the corner so I would enjoy it more.

This place is among the most visited by young people, in addition to its Instagramable place here is also available a small stage for singers.

I'm tired of waiting for the never-ending jihan to occasionally take some pictures for me to post on ig.

While busy I thought about the caption I heard the singer sayup-sayup start the song.

The sound is very good, the guitar game is also like a match for the sound, balance la anyway like using his singing heart.

Songs that brought the old song si but still only people who are in that year or even now must understand the meaning.

Second chance by Stairway

Really regrettable

Real love you love

I could not read my heart

Even being neglected by me

Tired of hiding

Cover the heart

Who lives because of you

And could die without you

If only I had one

Second chance

I'll definitely wipe your wound

Watching you gives you

Whole love

I realize it's not worth it

Always full of disappointment

You deserve to be happier

Happy for my love

If only I had one

Second chance

I'll definitely wipe your wound

Watching you gives you

Whole love

verse by verse I heard until I finally realized the same sound.

Malik

As long as he sings, I don't see him, I don't know if he sees me here.

I don't know why she's here and singing anyway, I guess she's forgotten her hobby.

The appearance is very different, only wear over-size shirts and shorts plus a hat.

What's with his appearance today, what if this holiday gini style for the streets.

Ahh care what I am

If you look around, it seems like he does not know if I am here too and looks really discouraged face, like someone robs his smile.

After I finished I saw him sitting back down yappp right as he sat down the moment Yunda came and sat down before him.

I almost forgot she was still a couple.

When I was about to go out the door of the cafe when also jihan came like in pursuit of ghosts.

I immediately pulled him out again afraid that Malik would see me here.

"Why is it like running around ?"

"Ni I am here need a really struggle la anyway "say him with a bad breath "sorry yes I used it very long "

"yuda relax aja yukk ahhh"

"sohh how do we go instead we should make a deal there" while pointing at the cafe

We also came out of the place and chose culinary in one of the streets that are special for hawks.

"i think it's good we eat seblak yukk yukk long ago nii not eat it"

"let's go"

We also entered the stand seblak and ordered it with moderate spiciness.

When I was busy eating I was on the phone of brother Zahra who asked me where I was, when he told me the real condition I immediately slid into the hostel.

When I got in when the door wasn't on the key, I was surprised to see him drooping under his bed. My panic made the jihan that came with me immediately lifted Mr. Zahra to go to the hospital.

After a journey of about fifteen minutes we immediately took him to the ER.

The feeling of anxiety fear of confusion was lodged until the sound of kak laila surprised me, yes on the way I contacted him to immediately come to the hospital.

Almost twenty minutes we waited and the doctor came out of the room.

After knowing the actual condition, Laila decided to contact Abah who was heading here so that he was not too worried let alone see the condition of the mother who was easy to think.

At this time Brother Zahra has been moved to the treatment room, and the knock on the door was heard, I think Abah but it turns out Bg Dimas who has arrived with his mother.

Yes my brother is already in contact so it is only natural that his future-in-law also feels worried about his condition especially the distance of their home with my sister's index is not so far away.

Jihan and I decided to leave and make room for them and go to the cafeteria.

When I got back Abah was already inside.

Zahra's condition is just a lack of fluids in addition to colds and many jobs, he is in addition to being a teacher as well as an extension member.

That was why he chose to stay at the boarding house so that the mileage to go to his two workplaces was equally not too far away.

Which heart of a mother is not sad to see her daughter sick like this, actually, the mother had told him to get married immediately but he preferred to withdraw it on the grounds of his tenure as a extension of another year after that he would just get married.

That's how he's royal with his job. Even so I did not until the heart saw him have to take care of himself at this time.

I asked Mom and Abah to keep her company until she was allowed to go home and accompany her until she fully recovered.

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Only I was at home, it felt so quiet, ahh I so missed the moment when I gathered with my nephew. They can change the atmosphere of this house to be crowded.

Tomorrow we return to our usual routine. I also remember what happened at the cafe. My thoughts are still with Malik, I feel like there's something different about him since that incident. His last words I remember.

What does this mean at that time,

He won't bother me anymore, won't make me feel disappointed even if he won't see me again.

I felt something was missing.

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For almost two weeks my mother was in the field for as long as I was home.

Cook yourself, eat yourself, poach yourself ehh kok kayak song ya hihihi

Before I went home from school my uncle called me to tell me that next week there was a parenting event for all the teachers without exception so he assigned me to give an invitation to Malik as a sign of part of the school also, as the biggest donor, he must always be in it.

Until now I still wonder why he can be a donor here ???

Not wanting to think for long I rushed to his house, there was no way I would go to his office where I knew where.

Along the way I wish he wasn't home considering it was still daylight.

Arriving at the gate of his house I also asked the security guard and I was allowed to enter after the security guard called his mother who was at home.

His own mother opened the door and then I just fainted when invited in.

After handing over the invitation, I got permission to go home, but his friendly mother invited me to lunch. Yes, I am hungry and finally I agree to his request.

While eating his mother opened a conversation about the relationship between Malik and Yunda, it turns out that he actually did not agree if Malik had to marry Yunda, because he saw Malik did not really want it.

That's how the mother, her feelings are so strong especially regarding her child.

Without me asking her mother to keep telling me, about her being a donor and her mother knew, it turns out my mother carita if I teach there and he also told Malik who in the end did not know what basis he was willing to be a donor, if you look around the school that my uncle runs it is not short of funds just the funds given by Malik is more to support the potential of teachers, activities and scholarships for the achievers.

The situation was a little awkward when his father came home with his sister who he said was in Aceh and of course they came to eat with us.

"Isn't this Shofie's sister, the idol of her heart, Malik ?" said Farhan suddenly that made me suddenly choke.

His father cleared his throat for his son's question and I just kept quiet.

After finishing I also cleaned this dining table even though it was forbidden by his mother but still I felt bad. Inget ya feel bad not looking for attention.

When his mother said the same thing as when they were in my house. I don't know why I felt Malik was so close to his mother that everything about us he knew.

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When I was on the bike I saw the gate open and saw Malik's car coming in close to my bike, not until he got off I put my bike on and I could see him staring at me until I got out of there