Love (Not) Owned

Uncertainties

The more aware it turns out this feeling fell in love with him, ahh I am still too young for love affairs.[MMP]

Pendam keeps feeling, pendam only while being able to take her wherever you go. It was I who was too strong to carry this feeling of my heart without thinking about the consequences.

The 3 SMA

In chat, in,

She: I want to ask you one thing, okay ?

Me: may, what is it.

He: all this time from us Junior High and until now we are in a different High School even though I like you, maybe it's too soon but if I don't move first, I'm afraid you're taken.

I : Then ???

She: Do you want to be my girlfriend ??

Demii what turns out all this time he also has the same taste besti.

Me: We're still reading and in a few months we want the final exam. May I ask you to wait for me until we finish the exam ?

He : Well, I hope your answer does not make me sick, because all this time you have been sick to see you in some guys, you know all this time I was waiting for this moment.

Me : yes I will make sure not to abuse you

During the time of waiting until the news reached my ears that he was close to another woman, I understood very well how she was, and that was not possible, until I finally decided to ask him directly.

Me: Hii, how are you ?

He: I am good, what are you ? Tumben really chat me.

Me : Can I ask a lot ?

He : just a lot

Me : You're getting on with another girl ?

He: Who said it ?

Me: You answer first.

He : does not exist

Me : Somehow my feelings seemed to reject your answer, as if something was wrong.

He: you are talking about what

Did you do your job ?

Me: You do not switch the conversation gini dong, answer first the honest.

(For a few moments only in read doang, and there is no reply again until tomorrow )

I had thought when he expressed his feelings it was the way God pointed it at me if he also had the same feeling, too, but once people say about him I doubt when I know exactly how he has been all this time.

I've been thinking I can't believe this, not just because your people say you don't trust him. Stop listening to people. But how not to think about while in the group is indeed again so excited he is close to another girl. In fact he was the most handsome guy in school when I was in Junior High School and I even heard in High School he is now an idol, he said the kayak oppa korea.

Until this moment there was no news until the final exam was completed

Me : Hi you, Proud bangett

He: you are so, I am ordinary, afraid to disturb you. How's the test ?

Me : Pretty draining of mind too, how are you

He : I am an STM male, so it is normal to.

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since then I have withdrawn to all the flavors and expectations that have soared.

yes, since entering university I chose to study outside the city to rest my heart because if I was in this city I could not focus on learning it might even get worse. During college I've busied myself not to think too much about my heart problem. in addition to college I worked at one of the kindergarten schools near my college which was my dream since childhood. in addition, I also try to sell online both clothes and snacks.

time just passed after 4 years without giving me a pause for a moment to look back until one day I met again with the human that I had hoped for his heart.

brugh...

shofie: okay no papa (take a look at the back of the person quoting my stuff scattered on the supermarket floor)

for a moment when these two eyes met, how surprised I was when I saw this figure.

malik : maa...aff. shofie ??

shofie: no problem (i got my groceries out of his hands) I'm sorry

malik : wait.

degh my heart.

what is this why my heart arrived² rippled gini, wahh gawatt

I kept quiet without turning around until he walked and stopped right in front of me

malik: can I talk to you for a minute ?

anything I want to say, just for a minute ?

shofie: what do you want to say ?

can't you just stay here ?

malik: no, I want to ask you something.

shofie: okay if it's just a minute, wait for me at the coffee shop ahead.

to be honest, I was confused why I had to accept this man's request.It was clear that all this time I tried my hardest to forget that even all forms of social media we were cut off from each other.

I remember very well when the last time we met, yes then after finishing high school we were having a smp reunion at one of our relatives' houses. and that's where all the facts began to unfold from our last communication on that green tick.

malikis, malik, the man who asked for an answer to his declaration of love that I put off until the end of the exam but because of his impatience he slowly began to move away and approached other women and as soon as he also expressed his feelings to the woman under the pretext I gave too much uncertainty.

my race was clear at that time if my answer would not disappoint.I think he would understand what I mean.

on the other hand, I secretly stole a look at him until he was caught off guard by my friend.

"hayoo why look around there continue to not hurt what your neck is, is it not better you talk four eyes only so it's clear so there's no action guessing". babble jihan and I just nod.

actually, the relationship between me and Malik was already known by classmates even some teachers already know our storyline in the past, only at that time we were too embarrassed to admit.

I think there is actually also the word jihan, there is no harm either.

slowly but surely I tried to approach her a little nervously.

I just want to make sure everything I hear from his mouth is straight away.

"malik" called me quietly timidly to sound to the other.

malik: yes why

shofie, may I ask ? while I squeeze the tip of my plain hijab.

malik : ask me not to pay.

I exhaled a rough breath and I steadily looked at his handsome face with certainty

"before I wanted to say thank you for waiting and maybe I said this at the wrong time, but I hope you understand. don't you want to know the answer to how you felt then ?? tanyaku who only answered nodding by him.

"i'm willing to accept your feelings and I want to be your girlfriend"

I looked at his face that was slightly twitching his forehead.

"shofie, thank you for answering my feelings, but I also want to apologize to you if I can't have this relationship, I've also sentin to deket each other because I feel if you take too long to answer me"

I was silent for a moment as I remembered how long I had kept him waiting.Yes it turned out to be almost 4 months, and during that time we rarely communicated even though we only exchanged news.

I think it's not just women who need a quick certainty, it turns out I'm wrong, men too.

"well, I understand"

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since then we have really no communication at all, even he himself blocked all social media related to me.