Love (Not) Owned

Marry someone who loves you equally

"I want to tell you that my mother just recovered from her illness, but I'm still worried about her. He always thinks of me here. She was worried about my unmarried condition while she was now sickly. I'm confused that Malik is currently finishing my studies that are a few months away from being finished, but seeing Mom's strong desire I'm so out of focus"

"What does this have to do with me ? do you want to ask me to marry you so ?"

This question sounded like there was no feeling at all, didn't he put his feelings on me, ah I almost forgot, I just remembered about his last status. Maybe it's changed, he's not wrong I'm the one who changed him too much to play with his time.

"How do you think ?"

"Isn't your marriage desire still in temporary delay ? then after this incident why just thought, yesterday where ? it's clear there's a door open you're still waiting at the door that's closed. Don't you think about how his people feel for years always ignored just because of one mistake"

Malik put down a spoon and drank the water that was available and gulped it until it ran out.

"If getting married now can make you feel better find someone who is willing to accept her with a roomy chest, your college friend for example"

Very deg. What do you mean, he really doesn't want to be with me he's so disappointed and then I have to put where I feel ?

College buddy, Hendra means ??? the truth is that I married someone I didn't love, how could she think that way.

"It is better to marry someone who loves us than to marry someone we love is better "

"I mean ?"

"i think you already understand what I said just now, well I'll be ready in a moment I'll drop you off "

"it would not be better to marry someone who both loves "my mumble in heart

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"why not go straight to Indekos ?"

"i have business, you better pull over later you're late "

He also pulled his car over.

"Thank you for everything Malik, sorry for being too much trouble for you all this time, maybe this is the last time I ask you for help after this I promise I will not trouble you anymore" I said before getting out of his car.

"tomorrow I will go back to Medan, do you not want to go home too ?"

"make it, I just got back here, I'm gonna start all over again from scratch but not from where I came from but in this town, I'm sorry to say goodbye "

God hurts to listen to my own words. This is what it feels like to be with someone we love.

Maybe this is what he always felt when he expressed his feelings but was rejected.

I don't know how long I've been sitting here reminding myself of my own words.

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Malik drove his car just like that when I got off. Let us re-examine ourselves I thought.

No matter how strong I am if he has no feelings for me I still love myself not as I used to.

Finally I believe in the words "One day a woman will be bound by two choices, first: waiting for the man she loves to propose to her or second: accepting the proposal of the man who loves you"