Love (Not) Owned

It Turns out We're Together

The news of Abah's departure was like thunderous lightning. I cried and fell unconscious. Malik's mother and my sister took my mother for immediate treatment. While my father-in-law and my brother-in-law take care of Abah's return.

I was sitting on the bench at the Hospital, calming myself down, unable to see the change in Abah. So unattentive was I to him until the second of his breath he was still thinking about me while I was.

"Shof, you have to be sincere, this is the way" Malik said approaching me.

"was I too selfish until Abah was sick I didn't know"

"you're not selfish, Abah, who is good at hiding all this from you, because he doesn't want you to worry"

"Dad actually knew Abah was sick, and he knew when Abah met Dad right before he got sick, Abah told me everything and at that time Abah also advised that later he died My father can convey his intention to marry us both"

"She was also unable to tell Mom because she was worried about her heart disease "

"So you already know about all this why don't you tell me ?"

"I also just found out before coming here, now we better get ready to go home because the car that brought Abah was ready, Your mother and sister also went home first after the doctor let you go home "

Arriving at the neighbor's house has arrived. I'm the one who just got reluctant to get off Malik's car.

I saw a red flag near the house. I didn't think Abah left so soon. I remember when I was in college in Jakarta, Abah I always bothered to handle my gera. I remember when she nagged and teased Mom when she came home from the Hospital. I remember He always drove me wherever I went, picked me up without seeing the time even faithfully waiting for me when I had not yet reached home.

"Shofie we're down yuk"

I was sobbing more and more in Malik's arms. "It doesn't feel like you can accept all this. Just a few hours ago he married me but then why is it like this" I mumbled softly

"you know Abah left quietly without burden because He has completed his last task and He is sure I can take care of you like Abah takes care of you too, let's go down. You are strong I'm sure of that"

We went down and went inside the house. I went straight to where Mom was.

"Mom,, I'm sorry Shofie"

"why apologize, all this is the destiny of God son, Abah it is time to return we must be sincere. I believe Abah was happy to go to God because he had done his last duty "

"you shall never once ignite yourself Abah will surely be sad to see it, let us show before Abah one last time that we are well "

Mom was right, I wiped my tears and then I went to my room to clean up to get Abah to her last place.

The first night without the figure of Abah so felt. Sometimes I still hear sobs on this side of the room.

Malik, who is now my legal husband, also prepared tahlilan until the third night. All that time I let Malik take care of himself.

"Son, go get some rest, take your husband to bed in the room. Kasian him if he sleeps in the shofa again. He might be reluctant to enter your room "

Yes for three nights Malik slept outside. I still lost the figure of the man who had been with me until I forgot my current status.

"Malik sleeps in his room tonight" I asked him, who was still sitting, to open his phone.

Without speaking, he went to my room.

"Come in"

She sat on the edge of the bed, while I took out her clothes that were still stored in the suitcase for me to move into the closet.

When I finished I cleaned up and lay on the bed next to him.

No words came out until I saw Malik closing his eyes, while I slept uneasily.

"are you uncomfortable sleeping here ?"

It turns out he hasn't really fallen asleep.

"if you're not comfortable I'm moving down no papa" he sat down and was about to come down.

"don't forgive me for ignoring you these few days, I really can't"

"no papa I understand, now we sleep yes"

We lay down and purposely put his hands on my stomach. I who was surprised by his treatment could do nothing considering he was my husband.

"I won't ask for my rights before you're really ready, go to bed tomorrow I've started work"

"are you angry ?"

"thank you for understanding, sorry if I always make you wait until you've even been your wife you still have to wait for your rights"

"you're not wrong to stop apologizing"

"Malik, are you happy ?"

"of course I'm happy, all these years I've been waiting for you, you know, I can stop myself from contacting you for a long time but I can't help but miss you"

"oo ya, then why don't you work even harder to get close to me ?"

"what's that question, can't you frown when we've been together a few times ?"

"during that time did you not miss me ?"

"If you ask me to miss not the same you uda surely I miss wearing a lot. Maybe I don't like the people in my heart"

"i think I'm late to get you again"

"and in fact we are together, no matter what happens I will try to make you happy"

Four o'clock in the morning I woke up, only this time I slept very comfortable after yesterday-yesterday I slept less time.

I was shocked when I found a familiar face in front of my eyes. I forgot that I was married.

I very carefully removed his hand from my body.

"You're awake" he said in a distinctive wake-up voice. He just woke up handsome especially when he took a shower, ahh what si me this

"don't praise in your heart"

"where do I praise you, it's dawn prepare, I take a shower first"

"Shof, could it be if we were just the two of you opened your hijab ? I'm your husband "

I nodded in response and went to the bathroom.

After Malik finished bathing, I deftly prepared prayer clothes for Malik.

Last night when Malik was asleep I made peace with my situation, accepting the current state of affairs. I promise to start getting used to Malik.

When I finished the prayer I kissed his hand with reverence and Malik pulled me while he kissed my forehead.

"i hope you'll get used to this"

"Yes, oiya what do you want to eat breakfast with ?"

"what you cook I'll spend as long as it's your own hands the money makes it"

"Of course, Malik, today my sister will all go home to their house because there is no way their husband will linger here children also have to go to school, I think Mother must be lonely at home, I think you must be lonely at home, I also have to work today, I'm confused Malik"

" Can you take a week off, we'll talk about this"

"All right, I'll let you go first"

After making breakfast in the kitchen I rushed to prepare at the table.

When everyone was done, they gathered together for breakfast.

Finished breakfast I was busy helping my sister pack to return to their home.

The house was once again deserted, Malik's mother and I were here.

"you don't work, Malik ?"

" working mom, later at 10 am directly to the airport because there is a meeting in Jakarta"

"Aren't you tired of having to go home ?"

"no ma'am, just a few hours there and back here"

"Yes, which is good in your opinion only, if you feel tired do not force it back here, mother to the room first"