Love (Not) Owned

Baby Ayyub

The day that awaited arrived, when a baby had just come out of the womb of a mother who was very good for me.

The atmosphere makes anyone who sees it feel anxious. This baby is named after Sholahuddin Al Ayyubi hoping his name will bring blessing in his life.

The house became boisterous again with the presence of Zahra's older son who made the whole house full of his cries when thirsty, pee and overheated.

My activities started to go back to how they were when I first came back here. I began to actively teach again and was busy taking care of my booth. Especially in the near future I plan to open one more branch.

During the Aqiqah baby Ayyub event not only one or two people asked me about my personal life.

What I feel right now is the same as how I see my social media being asked when to get married ? is there a candidate yet ? how could you never see her husband ? friends already want to add momongan kok not married yet ? want to find what ? picky huh ?

It is not easy to live this life, we are living people who comment, I need to be mentally strong just si ya in my opinion.

I am the age of Twenty-Five years it feels like here it feels like a spinster.

Brothers who attended alternately saw baby Ayyub Alhamdulillah during the event he took good care not fuss.

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At Four I woke up hearing the cries of baby Ayyub who might be thirsty. Because I can not be closed anymore I also choose to perform Tahajud prayers.

I finished the prayer as usual by teaching. Until one point I didn't feel my tears just escaped. I don't know if I'm confused about my own race why I suddenly look like this.

"Don't you know, in life not all the stories smooth the way, there are times when we have to choose between turning the page, closing the book or even writing another book" said the mother after finishing speaking

I don't know when Mom was in my room. Maybe he heard what I said just now.

"mom, what do you think Shofie should choose ?"

"stay in the way son with a new sheet, the problem of the soul mate has been God who determines, I know you have tried but indeed God has not given way there"

"thank you mom for understanding my heart" I hugged him sitting on my bed.

"how I don't understand Mom was also young like you ever felt a dilemma too" said Mom shyly.

"oo yeah, did Mom used to be in Shofie's position like now ?"

"just the same, Mother and Abah are different levels, because the closed mother Abah so little effort to find a gap to approach Mother, let alone the first rival Abah heavy, there are the children of Police Doctors and Officials, there is a police officer, even so, even though at that time Abah was just an ordinary worker, Mother was even more interested. ah that's why it became the story of Mother's past"

"iis no papa know ma'am anyways Mother never told about Abah's youth with Ibu lo"

"Have Fajr ready to finish it we clean the kitchen cooking for them"

"get my queen ready"