I'M A BASTARD!

PAPER SIDE.

Jason approached Narda and held the child. While in Jason Narda's lap just smiling, Narda took off the ring she was wearing and put the ring on Jason.

"This is for papa. hadia of adek" Narda.

"really? thank you dear" Jason.

"Our father has a message.. Please tell someone?" Nard.

"Message? for who? and what message?" Jason.

"Message to mommy.adek will write her message in a letter, please give it to mom later" Narda.

"Adek knew that Adek would not be able to meet with mother again, because it would adek just write a message for mother...

adek wants you to know that adek has been living well. Adek always pray that mother can be happy too, adek can not give happiness to mother

But at least I hope you can deliver this message and make this the first and last time" Narda.

Jason just kept quiet he didn't immediately agree to the boy's request. Jason looked at Karina and got a nod from the wife.

"Well you can write a letter later you will tell your mother adek" Jason.

Narda comes down from Jason's lap and asks Rega for a book. With a smile Rega gives Narda stationery complete with crayons and color markers as well.

"Papa, I'm sorry can you sit alone for a minute? adek wants to write a letter to mom" Narda.

"Dear dear but not for long yes, mama and papa will wait outside" Karina.

"Eum" Narda nodded and smiled.

Narda was right alone in the room she wrote a letter to Amalia not to forget Narda also made a simple picture to tuck in her little letter. While writing the letter, Narda's tears could not be held back, she did not hate Amalia.

Narda was even very grateful that Amalia had given birth to her. Narda also loved Amalia very much even after everything that happened.

Andrean and Rain had already finished buying their wedding equipment.on completion they decided to return to the hospital because there would be a proposal event that was also held in the hospital.

Andrean tells Leo to pick up Rain's parents at their house. There was no smile engraved on Rain's beautiful face only a sad face and tears of sadness that were clearly visible from earlier.

Andrean didn't really care about it because Andrean's own mind was on the air thinking about Narda. Andrean saw the younger brother who was getting weaker and weaker, even the younger brother now often spoke carelessly.

not to mention Andrean thought of Evan whose end was often daydreaming. I don't know what Evan thinks but he often doesn't focus on everything.

When he arrived at the hospital Andrean saw Evan who was in his room. Andrean deliberately approached Evan in his study because Evan workspace one way to the nursery Narda.

"EVAN!" Andrean pulled the hand of Evan who was almost a hot water spill.

Evan wanted to make tea but he daydreamed and unknowingly nearly poured hot water into his own hands instead of into a cup. If Andrean hadn't come in time, Evan would have been hurt.

"German..." Andrean held both hands of his brother.

"are you okay? is anyone sick?" Andrei.

"Ti-no brother I'm fine..." Evan looks panicked.

Andrean took Evan into his arms and calmed the younger brother down. Andrean realizes that there is something wrong with his sister Evan, so Andrean wants to see Evan.

Rain saw how Andrean was so sincere about loving his sister. Rain approached the brothers and smiled.

"Evan what were you thinking? you look so tired" Rain.

"I know you're worried about Narda but this isn't the way, you have to think about your safety as well" Andrean let go of his arms and held Evan in the couch in the room.

Andrean took a new cup and made tea for Evan. When making tea Andrean accidentally saw a bottle of medicine containing sedatives and a bottle of anti-depressant drugs with the name Evan written there.

Andrean grabbed the two bottles of medicine and sat down beside Evan.

"this is your tea. Don't consume too much sugar is not good for health" Andrean.

"So why are you here? isn't the proposal show about to start?" Evan.

"Evan I want to ask you.. Since when did you take this drug?" Andrean asked while putting two drugs that were definitely owned by Evan on the table in front of them.

Evan was silent actually he wanted to hide this matter from Andrean and the others but it turned out that he failed.

"Sorry brother..." Evan.

Rain took the medicine bottle and examined it. Rain was surprised that Evan was taking the medicine at such a high dose.

"Evan the second dose of this drug is so high why are you taking it? do you know the side effects of this drug can cause kidney and heart damage?" Rains.

Andrean was eager to scold Evan for already putting himself at risk by taking the medicine. But Andrean tried not to do it, because since Arthur never Andrean had promised himself he would try his best not to yell or hit his younger brother.

"Evan.. answer your sister-in-law's question" Andrean.

"Sorry brother..." Evan.

"Your brother-in-law asked Evan, he didn't tell you to apologize but he asked" Andrean.

Rain looked at the dejected Evan and the worried Andrean. Rain moved and took out a blank piece of paper and sat back down.

"Evan look at me... Evan man is like paper we have two sides, man will sometimes show one side only then hide the other side

Look Evan your brother fought for you, like you told me he was crazy...

One side is saved, and the other side is shown to be a natural thing. But each side of humanity must have its own weak point, your depression Evan also has a weak point

And the task is not to further damage yourself with these drugs but your job is to find the weak point of your depression and attack that weak point until your depression breaks down and you can be free" Rains.

"But I can't. You can say it easily because you're not me! I saw how my brother's car hit a cliff and was destroyed!

I saw my brother dying in my arms! Brother Arthur died in my arms!

Papi and Mami died by suicide! You won't know how painful it is to lose three people you love at about the same time!" Evan was angry until he got up from his seat.

"I don't know. I don't know your pain Evan, but I know being you isn't easy...

But do you want to just give up? do you want to kill yourself slowly?!" Rains.

Evan fell silent he did not answer Rain's question. Rain went up and picked up a medical scissor in Evan's room.

"Take this! If you really want to give up and be a coward, take this and end your life!

I want to see how the son of the De Wilson family killed himself because of his unjust destiny!" Rains.

Evan stared at the scissors hesitantly slowly Evan wanted to take the medical scissors. But Andrean precedes Evan and takes the scissors.

"You want to die, right? let's end this together, let's die together" Andrean.