I'M A BASTARD!

I WANT TO LIVE TOO

Narda locked herself in a room for hours. Jason and the others had tried to persuade Narda to take turns but the boy still did not want to say what else opened the door.

Narda sat on her favorite fur carpet and leaned back on the bed. Narda really can not think of anything as if she had been overwhelmed by sadness and fear, Narda just daydreaming and crying.

Narda walked up to her dresser Narda took her favorite vase on the table and threw it on her glass.

"Destroyed..." Narda said softly while smiling and shedding tears at the same time.

Jason and the others also heard the sound of broken glass from outside. Jason and Hendery exchanged glances and immediately broke down the door, but their efforts were in vain because the doors throughout the mansion were made specifically to be strong and resistant from all forms of impact even bulletproof.

Arthur remembers Narda's room key in his room, Arthur rushes to retrieve the spare key and opens Narda's room door. They saw Narda sitting on her dresser with a shattered glass, Jason immediately approached Narda and held Narda to get away from the broken glass.

"Papa.. I broke the glass" Lirih Narda said to Jason.

"It's okay dear that the maid will clean it up, later we replace the glass with a new one" said Jason while tightening his arms to Narda.

Jason took Narda to his bed. Narda was silent and did not move much.

"His father..." Evan lirih.

Jason examined Narda's hand and saw Narda's palm still clutching the broken glass. Narda clasped the broken glass until her hand was injured and blood dripped from between Narda's fingers.

Evan signals Jason not to force Narda to release the broken glass but to speak slowly and gently.

"Everybody get out of here let me and Evan talk to Narda" Jason said, giving orders, they agreed and left Narda's room but they didn't close the door.

"grandfather... Is adek okay?" Evan sat on the carpet and held Narda's hand gently.

Narda remained silent she did not say what. Narda just looked at Evan with a blank look and smiled, Evan rubbed Narda's face and looked at Narda's face with a glassy look.

"get it off. give it to brother" Evan.

Narda smiled but her tears suddenly dripped just like that. Narda just got tighter holding the broken glass, Jason and Evan until made to panic.

"Dear baby don't kid, don't baby don't do this kid" Jason hugged Narda's body tightly.

"What do you feel, baby? why adek?" Jason.

"Adek does not know pa... adek tired, adek afraid, adek sick...hiks hyks hyks papa adek why? I want to get out of this, Papa! Papa please come! adek want to live pa hiks adek want to live!" Narda cried loudly but her body was very limp.

Evan took advantage of that time to take the glass in Narda's hand. Evan had the maid take the medicine box and rushed to treat Narda's hand, after Evan finished injecting a sedative on Narda.

Narda falls asleep due to the influence of drugs, Jason lays Narda to the bed and covers her. Jason clasped Narda's hand tightly and kissed the boy's forehead.

"Evan papa knows you're tired and depressed about all this, but I hope you're patient and keep your brother" Jason.

"Papa don't worry I'm fine" Evan.

"Without me realizing that my son, who was very young, is now an adult, you are a great and tough adult...

Thank you Evan you've worked hard and survived this far, son" Jason.

"Papa I can be strong because there is yourself beside me, you have made me tough..." Evan.

Jason hugged Evan tightly and told Evan to go to bed next to Narda. Jason held Evan's hand until the boy fell asleep.

After Evan and Narda sleep Jason went to the medical room there was Karina who was accompanying Andrean.

"Rest me with her" Jason.

"What about you are you okay? How's Narda and Evan?" Carina.

"I'm fine, we should be fine for the kids" Jason hugged Karina tightly letting her cry in his arms.

Karina is a strong woman, but she is still a mother. Whichever mother's heart is not broken after all the bad things that happened and befell her son, Karina wept releasing all her sadness in the arms of Jason the husband she loved so much.

"Don't cry baby.Go to Narda's room, Evan is also there it would be better if you sleep in the same room.

Evan needs us to be able to strengthen him. Evan is also tired and sad you must understand him better than me" Jason.

"Eum.. Keep Andrean he's still high fever" Karina.

Jason nodded after Karina left the medical room Jason sat next to Andrean. Jason clasped Andrean's hand and rubbed Andrean's hand gently.

Jason stayed awake and checked Andrean's body temperature. Jason breathed a sigh of relief as Andrean's body temperature was normal, before long Andrean woke up and looked at Jason.

"What's up?" Andrean asked softly, Jason just smiled and kept holding Andrean's hand.

"It's okay just papa just realized something, it turns out papa's child has grown up you are so mature but why in my eyes you are still a child?" Jason teased Andrean.

Andrean chuckled but his stomach ached and the pain made him not want to move much. Jason, who saw the child in pain, was worried.

"Is it very painful? papa's gonna get Arthur!" Jason moved but Andrean held Jason's hand.

"No need to pa I'm fine, but it looks like I can't move much for a while" Andrean said with a relaxed smile.

Jason clasped Andrean's hand and kissed the child's hand. Jason smiled lovingly and gently rubbed Andrean's cheek.

"Are you really my son? my little son who used to cry just for a piece of chocolate cake? my little son who loves to play frog and said, Papa I can catch him and run towards me with a frog in his hand" Jason smiled with glassy eyes at his oldest son who was now an adult.

"Yes pa I'm your son who used to be very naughty and often makes you cry because he always came home injured, I'm an adult and I'm still your little son" Andrean made Jason cry.

"My children are grown up and the youngest will also grow up, do I still have a chance to see them get married and live happily?" jason said in his heart.