I'M A BASTARD!

A LITTLE LETTER TO ANDREAN.

"Evan's sorry for Narda's operation this time you can't help" Hans.

"Why?!" Evan.

"I know you're still in mourning and you're also bound to be devastated by the deaths of Arthur, Uncle Hendery, and Aunt Viola. I'm afraid you can't focus on surgery and make mistakes.

One small mistake in this operation could put Narda's life at risk, please understand, this is all for Narda's good" Hans.

Evan nodded in understanding and agreed to Hans' advice. Jason comes and takes Evan into his arms, knowing that his son needs him now.

"Hans we believe in you" Jason.

"I'll do my best uncle" Sahut Hans who then goes into the operating room.

Karina sat in the hospital waiting chair provided next to the operating room with Andrean and Evan. Jason knelt at the door of the operating room and prayed for the child's safety.

Jason is a man who never believed in God. But for the first time he prayed this sincerely for salvation for the child he loved so much.

"Sir Andrean. This is the letter that Viola and Mrs Hendery left for you" Luis said in a letter written by Viola and Hendery.

Andrean took the letter with trembling hands. Karina rubbed Andrean's back to strengthen the child, Evan also looked at the contents of the letter.

"Andrean my son. I'm sorry mom and dad took this road, son, it's not our intention to punish you by going forever out of your arms but Arthur's death broke our hearts...

Son we don't blame you for what happened to Arthur because for us it was fate. Andrean though you often say rude and even rash

We know your heart sincerely loves our family.My good son Andrean we take good care of Narda and your family.

Now you are the firstborn who must be responsible for all family members, especially your mother and your two sisters. Greetings to Viola and Hendery" Viola and Hendery wrote in the letter.

Andrean's cry broke out after reading the letter. Andrean stepped up and knelt before Karina to apologize for everything that happened, again Andrean still blamed himself for all the bad things that had happened.

"Son.mom knows you feel guilty, baby, but this is not entirely your fault everything that happens is destiny...

Don't always blame yourself Andrean. Mama has lost enough now mama just wants the three children mama is fine" Karina hugged Andrean affectionately.

Evan bowed with tears that washed his face. Evan was angry but he was confused as to whom he should be angry at, what Viola and Hendery said in the letter was true but Evan still thought that if only that night Andrean did not say the harsh words to Hendery maybe none of this would have happened.

Evan was so dizzy he was really tired and sad everything was painful and confusing. Evan can only cry without being able to do anything, slowly everything darkens and Evan faints.

Andrean immediately restrained Evan's body from falling to the floor. Andrean hugs Evan's limp body and tells Luis to call the doctor.

"Evans?! Evan wake up, please Evan!" Andrean and Karina were very panicked Jason who heard the commotion approaching them.

Andrean rushed to lift Evan's body to the IGD room not far from Narda's operating room. Evan is immediately examined and dealt with right then and there, Jason who sees Andrean and Karina frantically trying to keep looking calm and hugging Andrean and Karina to calm them down.

"Papa sorry.. sorry pa! hiks hicks" Andrean.

"Suht... already son is okay is this not your fault, it's enough don't blame yourself Andrean" Jason. The doctor came out of Evan's room and went straight to them.

"Doctor how's Evan doing?" Carina.

"He's just exhausted and needs a lot of rest, it would be better if the family keeps Evan's emotions to stay stable" Doctor.

"We understand the doctor.thank you" Karina.

Hans handled Narda with great care and thoroughness. Occasionally Hans sheds tears as his best friend Evan and Arthur see for themselves how Narda grew.

Narda and Hans are in a relationship like brothers. Although sometimes Hans rarely came to the mansion but he always asked Narda to Evan or Arthur.

"Narda you have to stay alive no need to pretend to be okay, be the little Narda who used to be and be happy always" Hans said in his heart.

Operation Narda went smoothly and after Narda's condition completely stabilized Hans out of the operating room. when he opened the operating room door, Hans saw Jason kneeling in front of the operating room holding his hands together and praying.

Hans shed tears and hugged Jason right then and there. Hans made Jason surprised and confused, Jason let go of Hans' embrace and looked at him.

"What's up, Hans? is Narda okay? what's up?" Jason was worried.

"Uncle take it easy Narda is fine uncle. I think after Narda recovers it would be better if you move, uncle, maybe with you living in a new environment you can forget all this sadness" Hans.

Jason nodded and let go of Hans' embrace. Jason is very grateful to Hans for leading Narda's operation and for doing his best for the boy.

Narda was transferred to the inpatient room, Karina holding tightly onto Narda's hand. Narda is much better now.

Last year Narda collapsed suddenly while playing in front of the Mansion. Evan and Arthur examine Narda and find out if Narda has heart damage. Finding a suitable heart donor for Narda is not easy, Arthur and Evan continue to try to find a heart donor for Narda.

Until the night of the accident before Arthur died, he sent Hans a voicemail.

"Hans.. I'll be over soon, please give my heart to Narda" Arthur said in his voice message.

Hans grants Arthur's last wish by giving Arthur's heart to Narda. After the operation, Hans went to Arthur's grave with a bunch of flowers and a picture of Narda.

"Stupid! I came. Your sister is fine, she's been operated on and her situation is now stable I'm forced to operate on her own.

Evan is still very sad about your loss. Evan is sick and Narda is also sick, I myself still cannot accept your departure

We promised to go to a nursing home together and enjoy a peanut cake together... You fool Arthur into the hyx" Hans wept hugging the grave of his best friend Arthur.