I'M A BASTARD!

AWAKE ALL NIGHT

Jason took Narda in his arms past all the other family members. Narda looked limp and pale she put her head on Jason's boat.

"Prepare the porridge and warm water" Jason gave the order to the maid.

"Where are you taking him?" Karina's confused.

"To the porch next to him, he wants to eat there" Jason explained.

"Darling can you accompany me?" Karina asked as she held Narda's head gently, Narda nodded her head in agreement.

Karina smiled with relief because Narda was already willing to eat. Karina holds Narda's infusion pole so Jason can more freely hold the child.

When he arrived at the side Jason sat in a sofa with Narda on his lap and Karina beside him. As the food came Karina fed Narda the porridge slowly, Narda ate slowly and Karina patiently fed the child.

"What do you think I've eaten? want to play or want your mom to read a storybook?" Carina.

Narda just kept quiet and looked up at the sky Karina let out a long sigh and looked at the sad child. Karina held onto Narda's soft hand.

"Dear dear old eat first yes want to see the stars again" said Karina softly.

Narda nodded and continued eating. After finishing eating Narda drank the warm water given by Karina, and returned to focus on staring at the stars in the sky.

"A lot of stars..." Narda's great-grandson made Jason and Karina smile.

Karina holds Narda's hand, Karina feels Narda's hand is very cold Karina tells the maid to take the blanket. When the blanket came Jason put the blanket on Narda and hugged the child.

The air gets colder Jason takes Narda in and heads to his room. Evan had prepared all the medical equipment needed for Narda once Jason entered to bring Narda, Evan immediately paired the oxygen hose and replaced the infusion Narda.

"Bobok adak ya let his body eat" Evan.

"Thank you brother..." Sahut Narda.

Evan smiles and kisses Narda on the cheek after putting up Narda Evan's blanket to go back to her room. Jason and Karina accompany Narda for the night they are unwilling to leave the child alone in her room.

Karina rubbed Narda's head gently. As Narda begins to sleep, Narda draws herself closer to Jason and hugs Jason.

"sleep, son, it's been a night, baby, tomorrow we walk the road we buy a big teddy bear adek want" said Jason while patting slowly Narda's back so that the child immediately fell asleep.

"What doll?" Karina asked curiously.

"This big, cute bear is like our son" Jason said with a smile.

Narda could not sleep well Narda woke up every thirty minutes because she felt like someone was yelling at her. When awakened Narda will immediately cry in fear.

Jason and Karina who saw that clearly did not stay silent. Each Narda woke up and cried Jason swiftly carrying Narda and cradling the child to calm down.

Karina also did not stay silent she did many ways to calm the child. Karina makes milk for Narda and puts it in a bottle of Narda's favorite pacifier.

"Dadek darling drink milk first yes want not to cry anymore" Karina persuaded the child because this was the third time the child woke up

Karina contacts Andrean and Evan to come help calm Narda down. Andrean took Narda from Jason's arms and held her sister by moving to the right and to the left.

Slowly Narda's sobs were no longer heard, Narda fell asleep again in Andrean's arms.

"Evan he has a fever" Andrean said with a panicked face.

Evan rushes to get the fever-reducing plaster and puts it on Narda's forehead. Evan rubbed Narda's head slowly and kissed her sister's forehead.

Andrean laid Narda back down and enveloped the younger brother. Andrean rubbed his sister's puffed cheeks and kissed her softly.

"Good sleep baby, papa's here son" Jason.

"What should we do now? How can we fix all this?" Asked Evan who could not think clearly anymore, Evan sat on Narda's favorite fur carpet by leaning on the bed.

"Destiny is unfair. Why should my child? why is it always my son?" Carina.

"Crying is no use now we have to focus on Narda's recovery, I don't want to lose another child" Jason said.

Narda woke up and cried. This time Jason swiftly carried Narda and calmed the child, Narda continued to cry not from pain but Narda cried from fear.

Jason held Narda with a blanket that still wrapped Narda's tiny body, leaving only part of her face and hands. Evan repeatedly checked Narda's intravenous hands, worried that Narda's infusion had come off.

Narda had stopped crying but was still in Jason's arms. Narda was silent and occasionally sobbed.

"Why are papa and mama so adorable?" Ask Narda lirih.

Jason smiled and sat down on the couch carrying Narda into his lap. Jason allowed Narda's blanket to keep the child warm.

"There's no reason for that dear. Papa and mama love you because it's you, because Narda is your father's son and mama" said Jason as he stroked Narda's sweet cheek.

Karina approached and immediately kissed Narda on the cheek. Karina sat next to Jason and stroked Narda's hair gently.

"Mama and papa don't need a reason to love you, son, because you are the baby of mama and papa" Karina.

Narda smiled thinly and flickered cutely making Jason and Karina anxious. Evan and Andrean did not want to miss them also approached the younger brother.

"Sister..." Narda called her two brothers.

Evan and Andrean sat on a fur carpet and held Narda's hands softly. Andrean kissed Narda's hand and rubbed her with affection.

"Strong sweetie ya. adek must be healed, later if the adek has healed we to the beach see the sunset and count the stars together" Andrean.

"Sister is also promised from now on that brother will always take time to be fatigued, brother will not ignore you anymore" Evan.

Narda smiled at the words of her two brothers. There was a sense of happiness in Narda's heart that could finally slightly cover up her sadness, Narda began to close her eyes and fall asleep again.

This time Jason let the boy sleep on his lap. Jason did not put Narda to bed because he was worried that the child would wake up again.

Until the morning before Jason and the others stayed awake. They did not sleep at all for the sake of looking after the youngest, this morning Narda still had a fever but it was not as bad as last night.

Jason brought Narda who had just woken up to bask in the morning sun. It has become a habit of Narda to sunbathe accompanied by Jason, Narda had been exposed to jaundice and since then he was required to sunbathe every morning.

The snow is no longer falling, the sun is starting to shine brightly, the sign of spring is coming soon. Spring was a season that Narda loved so much because she could see flowers blooming and beautiful butterflies flying.

"Dear baby drink milk first son" Karina came with a glass of milk.

Narda drank the milk slowly because she was afraid to vomit if immediately drain the milk at once. Karina wiped Narda's mouth with her handkerchief.

"what breakfast do you want? let me make you love" Karina.

"Sweet porridge..." Sahut Narda.