Him Always

9

"Hi baby! Have you been waiting a long time?" Answer Raga.

For whatever, honey? A raga? God, this is not good for my heart and my eyes. Is he Raga's girlfriend? So she's the reason Raga rejected ka Nisa?

Though I was already confident that Raga was a little interested in me.

You fucking smile!

"Hello all! Please introduce my name Sasa. I'm Raga's girlfriend"

So she's really Raga's boyfriend.

There is no hope for me, is there?

"So Raga has a boyfriend? Since when?" Ask Okta

"Oh he's my first love. We've been in touch since the middle of 1st grade" replied Raga with a smile that certainly did not subside from her face

Is it that happy that your first love also likes you?

I want to feel it too. But it turns out that my first love also became a destroyer of that taste in my heart.

Holy hooch! Do I really love him?

After that the five of us finished our meal quietly.

I thought today was my lucky day sitting near Raga. But the fact that happened made me realize that Raga only considers me a friend.

The smile was directed at everyone. He is friendly and does not choose friends.

If only my brain had worked better before, I would not have been as disappointed as I am now, right?

After finishing with the affairs in the canteen, the four of us returned to the classroom and Sasa returned to his class as well.

I really want to stay away from Raga. I was not ready to face his smile and his jokes that turned out to be aimed at me as a friend.

After reaching class, the physics teacher entered the class and immediately gave an unreasonable task and arbitrarily returned to the classroom again.

We are all seriously working on existing physics problems. Of course I am relaxed, although Raga is the best in brain matters, the brain I have is also not inferior to his.

After finishing work, Okta immediately snatched my to-do book. Along with the others joined in a group copying the tasks I have completed, as well as Raga.

Huh, he again. I really want to stop liking him. But after what I knew, why do I still like him?

Can't I stop liking him? Or do I stop liking it?

Heart is that session.

Seeing my friends copying my errands bored me a little. Do I have to write assignments on board? They are also sorry for cheating.

But I went back to my daydreams and ignored them.

Maybe with this I can take away a little bit of my liking for Raga.

I keep writing whatever is in my imagination.

I really want to be a Raga who can have her love. I also wanted to tell him that I had liked him from the beginning we met.

But is that necessary? Will it affect our friendship?

What if after I tell Raga that I like her, she steps away?

In fact, I do not want to be rejected let alone rejected by Raga. Just imagine that I don't want to.

Perhaps it was worse for me than knowing that now, Raga already had a lover whom she loved and loved.

As a friend I should always be supportive for her happiness, right?

As many people say, you will be happy if the person you love is also happy, even though the happiness is not with you.

Yes, love does teach us to be that hypocritical.