Him Always

11

Today is my third year in school.

The morning sun shines brightly on the earth and greets all its inhabitants.

Already Class 3 means this dark blue-white period is coming to an end.

Will my liking end too?

Right, I still like Raga and Raga still with her boyfriend, I guess.

This morning Okta and I went to the school library because we have different classes. I also have a different class with Raga.

We learn to prepare for the exams that will be present later.

My friends in the new class were very competitive and unfriendly. They were individuals once so I couldn't adapt well.

When I got tired of studying, Okta and I started talking. Unlike Ajeng, Okta is a child who does not like to gossip. He is a lover of many men that he sees on television or the internet, he also has a lover in the real world.

"When you graduate, where do you want to go?" Ask Okta

"Therefore where. You?" My answer is lazy

"What a girl you answer. I'm going to go to vocational school."

"Why? You still want to be an Architect?"

"I want to major in gourmet"

"Are you serious? That's so different from what you wanted from the start?"

"It can all be different over time, right? I just want to be a good wife and mother"

"What does this have to do with the course you choose?"

"Of course to be smart kitchen problems. Wouldn't husbands be happy to have a partner who is good at kitchens?"

"What's that your lover Ta said?"

"Yes, he wants me to cook. That's why I chose the gourmet for my future"

"You sure? I think you're pretty good at cooking right now"

"If you think the master of boiling instant noodles is called a kitchen affairs whiz, mending you are caged deh"

"Haha, isn't it?"

"Of course not. A woman must be good at cooking any cuisine, can take care of the house, take care of the garden as well so that the house becomes beautiful and the husband is at home"

"Are you sure you'll be made a wife by your lover?"

"Why are you asking like that?"

I got out of my chair before Okta became fully conscious.

And it's true

"Hey come back you damned girl!" Yells Okta

"Who is noisy? It's a library" asked Mr. Sadi

I just giggled and got out of the library.

I darted to the canteen because my dragon who grew up healthy asked for nutrition at the right time.

Arriving at the cafeteria I saw Raga and Sasa both there.

Look, Raga's influence is still that big on me. Just looking at it, my heart is out of its mind.

"Girl here, sit with us!" Shouted Raga

Damn, don't understand that I can't get close to him but I can't refuse either.

"Hi Dis, where are the others?" Ask Sasa

"Okta's still in the other library I don't know" I replied

"Have you ordered your food?" Ask Raga

Look, that fucking smile just keeps on being there

"Yes already"

"Where are you going after this?" Ask Raga again

"Therefore only. I didn't expect anything"

"Hahaha Girl once" Merrily Sasa

"If we're going to school in this foundation again Dis. Because we want to always be in a place that makes us meet" Sasa replied

"Who asked? I just don't care. Show him off once" My grunt

"Did you say something Dis?" Ask Sasa

"You still want to be a doctor, Dis?" Ask Raga

Damn she still remembers?! I just never talked about it again.

Fucking raga.