Him Always

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ARGA POVS

"I know, I'm Gaga" I said

He just stood in front of me and looked at me.

Damn, he's crying again because of me.

"Girl" I said as I tried to grab her hand.

But he retreated slowly and moved away.

Maybe he remembered and thought I was the one who caused his brother's death.

But I also don't want to cause Bella to leave this world that way.

"Dear, I.."

"Stop calling me that!" Yells

"You don't remember that either?" Manya make sure.

"What should I remember from someone like you?"

I just found out that she hates me that deep. Am I not forgiven?

"I also don't want Bella to do something like that, understand" I said

"Why are you coming again? Why has your face changed so much now, even though I already know that your face is the same as that person but I always think about the possibility that you are not him! But what now? Why are you coming?"

"You came to me"

"In your dreams!"

"You don't remember? You came to my house with Raga and the others. Remember already?"

"I'm not coming for you!"

"I'm sorry!"

"If you came just to say that, I've forgiven you a long time ago"

"Stop hating me"

He stayed in place for a long time, don't forget that flat look.

"Would it be that by stopping hating you, you can bring back ka Bebe here?" He finally said

"Dear" Lirihku

"You're my girl, my lover. Why can't I call you that?"

"When did you become my lover?"

"Since then, since your 10th birthday party"

He kept silent without answering.

"All right, I remind you. On your birthday, I express my feelings for you. I don't understand why I did that either. All I thought about at that time, I just didn't want you to be with anyone but me." I paused my sentence and saw his expression.

I know he's not satisfied with my words.

"Then I asked for your answer and you answered..."

"Stop it! It happened when I was a kid. I just didn't know what love was at the time." Forever

"You have answered yes and it means yes" I replied not to lose.

"Well then let's just end the unclear relationship" he replied.

What did he say just now? Not clear?

Doesn't he know that I really love him?

After what happened first, I always followed guilt and anxiety about his condition and now he told me to leave?

Don't hope!

"I'm not gonna let you go"

"Whatever. For sure I assume there's nothing. So stop bothering me and assume we never know"

"When I saw you at home, I didn't expect to see you so easily, Dis. Actually I know you went to school in the same place as Raga on the first day I drove Raga to school. But I have the guts to spit.

I'm so happy to see you again, I'm also tormented by you always hating me, baby"

He started crying again and I immediately grabbed him. There was no rejection from him. I tightened my embrace on him to channel the longing.

"I beg you, stop hating me and tell me to stay away. You know I can't do that! I also don't want to cause Bella like that, she's my friend. I'm good friends with him. I lost a friend at that time. But feelings can't be forced, right?"

I touched her cheek and wiped off the trace of her tears.

He looked at me and kept crying.

"Don't cry anymore, baby!" Exclamation

I kissed her on the lips without waiting for her response and asked her permission.