He's Not For Me

CHAPTER 4 | Tried Back Like Before

One week passed, when Airin returned to the hospital to take the results of a blood test he had last week, he stepped up with complete confidence if what the doctor said about the blood cancer he might have suffered was wrong. However, in fact not, the doctor's speech is true.

“Let's rest, many leukaemia sufferers are able to successfully recover from the disease, and again your age is still very easy. So keep the spirit to be able to heal”, said the doctor trying to comfort Airin who looks surprised in front of him.

As if unable to hear another voice, Airin fell silent and hoped that what he heard was only a dream that would not come true.

“Please yourself, if you feel better come here, we make a therapy schedule for you. We will try to cure you” disease, the doctor said back in a soft tone to Airin.

Airin came out of the hospital and came home, he really did not think that he would be stricken with the deadly disease, his eyes straight forward but not with his mind and heart. In his mind, the shadow of the doctor who stated that he was positive for blood cancer, while squeezing the test results on his grasp Airin walked to hold back tears.

Dozens of missed calls from Billy and Bianca he missed just like that. He even permission not to go to work because there was a sudden problem, Airin was forced to lie because he wanted to calm down for a moment. In his apartment, Airin just sat still and thought nothing but to look at the test results in front of him. Bianca, who had suspected something had happened to Airin, tried to contact him and also came to his apartment but unfortunately, Airin's security code had been changed which resulted in Bianca not being able to get inside as usual.

Airin's phone again reads, this time Billy who contacted him, several missed calls from him continue to make Billy not calm with the state of his lover.

“Rin.. Its me. Please open the door, let me enter”, exclaimed Bianca by continuing to knock on the door of the house Airin begging to be opened. But both of Airin's ears seemed closed, he did not pay attention to the sound of Bianca who kept calling her name.

“I beg to be quiet.. Huh.. Let me calm down and alone”, he said in a small voice that only he himself heard. Airin began to shed tears, he occasionally grabbed his hair because he did not accept the condition he was experiencing at this time.

“From so many people why should I experience this?”, he said again

A short message went into his phone, Billy who could not contact Airin now he sent a message to Airin hoping Airin responded.

Billy [What's wrong with you? Why are none of my calls answered? You okay?]

Airin: [Yes, I'm fine. I'm sorry I have business with my parents. What's bugging me?] reply Airin again he lied.

Billy: [No, I just miss you, so I called you. Can I call you now?]

Airin: [I'm sorry, I'm so busy, I'm afraid you're not comfortable talking to me while I'm busy with my business]

Billy: [Well, if you get home quickly call me, I really need you Rin ]

The short conversation finally ended, Airin again dissolved in his sadness. He even woke up until the morning with the lab results that were on him. His decision to stay awake until morning made him have to go back in pain. Airin's head again throbbed and this time it hurt more than before.

“Ahhh.”, Rinih Airin while holding his head, he quickly took his bag and took the medicine that the doctor gave him yesterday, before long for the drug to react Airin's headache was reduced and he felt better.

“Back to work Airin. Already sad you and live your life”, he said to himself.

Airin decided to cover up the pain he suffered, even the elderly also love him not knowing anything related to the health condition of Airin. He walked into the studio after parking his car and went inside accompanied by two cups of coffee he bought before going to work.

With a smile like he did, Airin walked into his study. Just as he opened the door Airin had received a sharp gaze from Bianca to him.

“You crazy? What did you do yesterday? Why aren't there any of my calls you received? Why did you change the security code of your apartment?”, furious Bianca on the only friend she had. All eyes were currently on the two of them. Airin and Bianca look like two lovers who are fighting because there is no communication between them.

Airin gives Bianca a cup of coffee because she knows that Bianca will scold her when they meet.

“Calm down, I just didn't want to be bothered yesterday. Now I'm fine, go back to your place before Mr. Beni comes”, said Airin drove Bianca away from her place.

Almost all the work has been done, some tv programs have also been completed, Airin returned to his office and tried to contact Billy.

“Hmm?”, Billy replied briefly to Airin who contacted him.

“You're busy?”, asked Airin

“Lumayan, what is it?”, asked Billy back with a focus on the pile of papers he had to sign.

“What's wrong, just call you. Good if you are busy”, said Airin who was a little disappointed with his girlfriend's answer.

“This afternoon we eat out yes. I'll come get you. Do not sulk dear”, said Billy gently who managed to return a smile on Airin's face.

“Can’t wait. See you” reply Airin with happy face. Just as he was feeling happy, blood had already come down from his nose, Airin immediately cleaned his nose with a tissue and hid it from people.

“Still pretending to be okay?”, asked Bianca.

“I am well, such a disease cannot knock me down”, he replied with confidence. Bianca returned to her place and waited until the break time came.

A short message went into Airin's phone, Billy had arrived and was waiting below. Soon Airin took her bag and went down to her lover.

“I will have lunch with Billy, sorry can not accompany you dear”, said Airin with a small laugh that made Bianca amused by it.

“Najis, what a disgusting creature like you Airin”, exclaimed Bianca put on an amused face that was reciprocated by a laugh by Airin. Bianca who saw Airin back as before was happy but on the other hand she was also a little afraid, because Airin wanted to face everything alone.

“Good luck for you dear”, muttered Bianca in her heart hoping Airin would always laugh like this even though she felt pain in her body.

“So, what do you want to eat?”, asked Billy to give Airin a choice.

“As far as”, reply Airin tidied up her slightly messy hair.

“Hmm, what's spicy? Or fry or fry?”, asked Billy.

“Hmmm.. not”, reply Airin while shaking his head.

“What about meat? A chicken? Or fish?”, asked Billy back

“Just mind Bill”, reply Airin who still tidying his hair.

“Rin, Telor Cicak want?”, asked Billy

Airin laughs at Billy's choice, he ends up in the mirror and looks at Billy while laughing.

“Fill burn, I want to eat grilled fish”, Airin told Billy.

Billy starts his car and takes Airin to eat what he wants.