Get off the bed

Chapter 8's

The roar of birds humming on the porch of the house, connecting with each other, racing to show who the best sound and make the heart of the owner feel carefree.

Anindira was already early in the morning bathing Afifa and took her to the terrace for sunbathing, according to Mamahnya after bathing the baby more in the sun before the sun rose higher. Anindira eagerly invites Afifa to be in Poyan in Sundanese.

Before long the sound of the CBR motorbike stopped in front of the fence Anindira house, it seems that the motorbike has been in the past three months often stopped at his house, he said, who else if not Gilang friends Dimas who often visited Anindira crowd to meet him.

"Guten Morgen (good morning)," he said smiling at Anindira .

"Halo Mang Gilang," said Anindira swinging Afifa's hand greeting Gilang.

"The handsome gini in the mang mang pangil is already like a meatballs mang," he chanted.

"What do you want to call him?"

"Call me Uncle Gilang" he said as he reached out to Anindira.

"Ah does not fit, already mamang" said Anindira laughed.

Gilang sat next to Anindira who was holding Afifa who seemed to be asleep, occasionally Anindira hummed a little Afifa in her sleep making Gilang smile seeing Anindira so painfully caring for Afifa even put her to sleep.

"Not working a?" ask Anin.

"Liet, boss mah can come at any time," he said in his songgong style.

Gilang opened a workshop and motorbike sorum business that has been pioneered for a long time, he continued his father's business that was given to him because he was the only child in his family.

For the past three months Gilang often visited Anin's house to invite her to talk and meet her parents, Anindira felt comfortable if she was with Gilang who was humorous and humble, and she was very happy, but the arrival of Gilang without the knowledge of Dimas they have rarely gathered together since Dimas married.

"Aren't you looking for another job, Nin?" ask Gilang.

"Not a, Anin wants to focus on managing Afifa first, as well as making miniatures is also a long time so that while working fear is not even tense," explained Anin.

Gilang just nodded, he knew Anindira did not intend to find work again after returning to Bandung, he only made a miniature series that ordered online to him even though there were not many messages but the benefits were enough for his daily needs.

"Assalammualaikum" said Dimas who had just arrived.

"waalaikumsalam, uh Mas Dimas dedenya still bobo," said Anin when Dimas directly approached him.

"Well, is Mom inside?" ask Dimas.

"There, Mas into aja," said Anin.

"Loe what's up here Lang?" ask Dimas.

"Gue was passing by so stop by first" said Gilang.

Dimas only nodded and went straight into the house, although in his heart he was still wondering about the presence of Gilang in Anin's house, although he knew Gilang often visited Anin's house but he never told Dimas anything and it made Dimas curious about Gilang's intentions.

Anin invites Gilang inside because he wants to put Afifa to sleep, but Anin has not had time to go into Dimas already out with Mamah who carries a sling and hat.

"Nin let's go" asked Dimas.

"Huh? Where's where?" ask Anin bangtung.

"You go to Dimas first, use his African sling," said Mamah giving a sling.

"Afifa is being invited by a gapapa?" ask Anindira.

"Yes gapapa anyways rarely take Afifa for a walk," said Dimas.

"a'How'd you say?" the tanya is not good.

"Why do you walk, I go to the sorum" he said.

Anin also say goodbye to Mamah while holding Afifa who was still asleep, Mamah also gave milk bottles for Afifa and jackets so that he did not get cold, so he did not get cold, they also went to use Dimas' car parked in front of the gate.

"Say you want a drink?" ask Mamah.

"Eh, do not mah, want to go straight home," said Gilang friendly.

"Oh yes thank you for visiting, do not forget to doain may they love Afifa needs Mom, pity marriage" said Mamah.

Gilang just nodded while smiling at Mamah Anin, he immediately said goodbye because he felt awkward.

"Anin's the same Dimas getting married?" ask Gilang in heart.

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Dimas' car was stuck in front of Baby Spa, Anindira cradled Afifa and walked inside, Dimas had registered Afifa.

"Let me be a fat one" said Dimas who was about to take Afifa.

"Eh gapapa Mas, same Anin aja anyhow he was afraid even to wake up," said Anin.

"But the pegel was also you from earlier carried him continuously," asked Dimas.

"Gapapa Mas, Afifa is also the son of Anin so pegel also gapapa," he said with a smile.

Dimas was only silent to see Anin who loved Afifa so much as his own flesh and blood, he offended by the promise he made to Alm Kirana to marry Anindira, he still can not open his heart anymore because since he married Kirana all the centers of his affection have fallen on Kirana the woman in the betrothed of his father who is also Anindira's older brother, Anindira, but he is also unlikely to often invite Anindira to leave without any status among them especially by bringing Afifa who is already comfortable in Anin's arms, he must speak directly to Anin.

"We go home first, I want to talk to you" Dimas said in the car.

"What's up, Mom?" anindira asked worried that she already knew Dimas would discuss the matter of going down the bed.

"We sleep first Afifa at home later I will talk," he said immediately forwarded his car.

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He tangents when Dimas invites him to the house he occupied when he married Kirana and he gives a book to Anin.

"I just found this a week ago under a pillow, it's Kirana's,"

Anindira opened the notebook and read it every sheet, all the outpouring of Kirana's heart was written there until almost the last part Anindira read in disbelief .

"Tonight everything happened so quickly, I had to marry the man my parents chose, no one even asked me how I felt, actually, I'm imprisoned here" she wrote

"She was kind to me, but I didn't love her yet, until now I still love that man but God didn't allow me to be with him, why did God take it sooner." the second page.

Anindira scrunched her forehead with a brief outpouring of Kirana that even she herself did not know, she saw Dimas who seemed to have read and knew the contents of Kirana's diary

"Now God has destined me to be pregnant and I am grateful that I will soon be a mother, but I see a portrait of my beloved sister on her cell phone that they seem to have met before we got married, even Anin looks so pretty did I get jealous to see her keep a photo of my beloved sister? I want Anindira to be happy." Kirana's last note.

Anindira felt her heart tremble violently, all this time did Dimas keep a portrait of himself? Have they ever met? Whereabouts? When's? Why didn't Anindira know?.

"That's what I mean?" ask Anindira.

"I once kept your portrait" he said bowed.

"What photo? When?" ask Anin not to believe it.

Dimas gave his phone to Anindira and saw a picture of himself being photographed from the side, but Dimas said he only had two because some of it he had removed and Dimas explained about his first meeting with Anindira until he was paired with Kirana and fell in love with her.

"Why didn't I delete all of Anin's photos? Kirana tea all this time must have suffered heartache," he said in tears down regret with Dimas' attitude.

"I didn't know if he saw the picture, I forgot to delete the picture, too" he said regretfully.

"Mas, has Kirana tea been angry about this?" tanyakanya.

"She just asked me why I kept your photo, and I answered accidentally during the holidays before marriage I had met you, I told you I didn't like you I just loved him and he believed." Dimas said.

"Teh Kirana had lost her boyfriend in college, they dated almost four years, her name was Handika, unfortunately Handika died of congenital heart disease," Anindira told Kirana.

"Handika's? Kirana once mentioned her name when she was sleeping" Dimas said.

"Teh Kirana very dear Handika, they had planned to marry and Mamah also agreed but God willingly other, they will, two years after this Kirana tea immediately married Mas Dimas and there may still be a shadow of Handika,"

"I never know if Kirana during her marriage is happy or not, nor have I ever asked her if she loves me or not? Because every day he was always kind and served me attentively I never asked and wanted to know about him until finally this diary became the answer" said Dimas.

Anindira saw the line of regret from Dimas, he really had lost the person he loved the most without ever knowing the past of Kirana really, really, now that regret was meaningless because Kirana was already calm by God's side, Anindira also regrets that she left Kirana alone without ever asking about her real sister until she probably felt heartache that no one else knew about.

"Before he died, he asked me to take care of you, I don't know if I meant to look after you he asked me to marry you,"

"Actually before giving birth what happens the same?" ask Anin curiously.

"When he said take care of you, he went to the bathroom and he fell down, I immediately took him to the hospital because he had bleeding on the way his blood more and more out finally the doctor cut out for a cesarean section but he refused, finally he was born normal but the bleeding did not stop," clearly Dimas could not help but cry in light of the incident.

"I was with him in that moment, he kept calling your name, until finally Afifa was born his condition was getting weaker Doctors tried various ways until blood transfusion but his blood type was again empty and my blood stroke was also not the same, he still survived waiting for you," he said.

Dimas crying could not hold back his tears, he really felt lost, Anindira who saw Dimas hit close to him and patted his shoulder, Anindira said, he said that everything is God's destiny, nothing can be regretted, maybe this is the way and Kirana may now be happy and she has also met Handika.

"Mas, about the promise can we just cancel it?" ask Anin on Dimas.

"Why?" tanya Dimas raised her head.

"Anin can not make the same marriage Mas Dimas, Anin knows Mas love the same tea Kirana and Anin does not want to if he has to replace his position" said Anindira.

"To be honest, I'm not talking here to discuss this diary," Dimas said, staring at Anindira.

"meaning?"

"I want to propose to you."

*DEG* 

What did Dimas just tell her? Apply her? He meant how Anindira felt to be awkward.

"I want to marry you, I want you to be my wife and mother to my child" she said.

"Mas Dimas" said Anindira in disbelief.

"I know, I do still love Kirana until now, but can you be patient for a moment? I just want to grant Kirana's last wish to look after you and be a husband to you" he said, staring at Anindira.

"Mas, Anindira is not ready yet" Anin said.

Dimas clasped Anindira's hand, trying to convince Anin to accept it, Anin flinched trying to neutralize her pacemaker beating faster as Dimas stared fixedly at her and clasped her hand.

"Afifa needs Mom, and I also can't possibly take care of her alone, maybe it's not easy but I will try to start over" he said.

Anindira was silent, she remembered that Afifa, the baby had to be an orphan from birth and Anindira loved her nephew so much, but could she be a mother to Afifa? Does going down this bed apply to his life? But he remembered his last promise together to Kirana to marry Dimas, but he knew Dimas did not love her would Anin happily marry without any taste?

"Anne?"  ask Dimas back.

"Yes, for the sake of Afifa Anin accept Mas," said Anin convinced himself that he should be able to take care of Afifa as requested by Alm Kirana.

"Thank you" he said with a small smile to Anindira.

Anindira just smiled knotfully, she did not know if her choice of accepting Dimas to be her husband was true? He did not know if he would happily marry his own brother-in-law Dimas? Anindira tries to hold back her tears now not about her happiness but all just because Afifa for Afifa and Alm Kirana who have sacrificed for her now let Anindira sacrifice herself for Afifa.