FRIGID GIRL VS OBSESSED GIRL

ACHE LONGING

 POV RARA'S

I don't know how long I've been standing here looking at the water under the bridge, I'm tired of all this weird, I've loved Feri too much, even I don't care if it's an outlet of his desires or what, what he clearly presents is something precious to me.

For the first time I didn't like Mba Ina. Why is he recovering at the wrong time, I haven't even been able to enjoy a little longer with Mas Feri, if I wanted to ask, I didn't even get to enjoy my time, I want to repeat that time and not waste a chance alone with him, and today I will bring these memories to death, I've been happy with the memories of Feri who was only a few hours away.

I held onto a promise that I believed he would never break but in an instant it faltered and even broke.

“Im sorry Rara…. Rara also had to go mas,”ujarku.little I stepped on the barrier iron. The bridge of my tears flashed profusely as it closed its eyes, and prepared to jump.

“Sorry..”lirihku lay my body down but with lightning fast, there was someone who ambushed and brought me down while in the arms of someone who seemed upset about my actions, he said,

“Are you crazy what?” hardiknya, I tried to see who the person who pulled and rebuked me this, a little I bought a blank look that was so calm, I was wondering to see anger and anxiety squeezed tightly on my shoulder.

“What makes you this frustrated, what happens if I don't come,”he said, I bow down crying and trying to bang from the clutches.

“Despite, what do you care about Aldo, you guys are the same, can only give hope, then you throw me with a bitter statement, “kalku. Aldo hugged me tightly and sounded contrite

“I beg you to forgive me, Rara, I did lie to you, but I don't have any feelings for her after having a relationship with you. He was cheap, I accidentally met him and what happened as you see, believe me baby I was not serious with him I was drunk at that time”obviously I hissed and tried to get out of his grip.

“What happened Rara, please tell me how do I know I can help you, what's the matter dear, are you disappointed again with mama?”she said softly, I lemes staggered and nodded at the shoulder of the bridge.

“I feel my world has now been destroyed hiks”lirihku with a hoarse voice, Aldo also joined in and tried to embrace me

“I don't know what your problem is Rara but please come home with me,”Tell me, please, I sighed and remembered the past with Mas Feri something that I firmly believed was his love I was sure, but Feri also loved me I could see in the twinkle of his eyes, I'm sure every touch of love isn't mere lust, though, I know Feri just wants to be principled to be a loyal husband for mba Ina I'm sure there must be a little place in my heart that he must realize that I'm not a stranger to him,

“Alright, I will go home”lirihku Aldo feel relieved and try to bring me to the mobile, I let go of the fatigue to lay down my body in the back of the car and said with tears whimpering..

“Mas, I miss you today I will not end my life but slowly I will die with this miss,”whispers liriih.

Days passed, it had been a week I could not hear from the ferry anymore, somehow more and more days I could not bear this inner burden, there is a feeling of being overwhelmed to the point of being weak about an unfailing longing, how do I convince my heart that I am loving a man in the arms of another woman,

The ToK Tok Tok..

I knew there was a door knocked on but I was reluctant to turn my head as usual I was sure it must have been Aldo who tried to comfort me this end-of-life.

‘’Ra, how long will you lock yourself up like this?”the question is not in thought, I grimaced dsn bowed,

“I'm not interested in anything now Al, even I don't know how to comfort my heart”lirihku, Aldo slightly snorted and said,

“You can't be like this, you have to be strong for the sake of mama, she is now being hostile to Rara.”ujaraa, I embrace the thinner cloth that covers my body, the more days I get down just because I think this, the more, it turns out that longing disease is very difficult to treat other than the person who is missed itself is here, all feels tormenting this reality, and this love. What is my fault in this, I just follow my heart and love, until I fall into a terrible tempest, is it also my fault, there are people who give hope and make promises for me but it seems like it is just a dream, stupidly I was too hopeful.

“Ra, what a perfect from the man you often call it”he said, a little I opened my eyes a little wide and said,

“She is not perfect, but she is in my bloodstream, I am sick when I force her out I will be injured.’’lirihku, I,

“In that even you hurt yourself now, please don't be stupid Rara.”tow Aldo with annoyance,

“No need Aldo let him hurt himself, he is not eager to live, he, he might want to die and no matter here there is me who is so worried about him.”ujar my mama is upset I still mute silent as I crumble to stare blankly at the blue sky behind the curtains,

 

“Now mama Worries me, where is mama when I need mama, mama subuuk with husbands who are always going to change, and now when Rara is weak mama is burdened?”I asked softly without looking at her, mama sighed and said,

“Who, who said load?”he said it was a wonder I only silenced as my mother passed by saying.

“I know him, do not like my presence.”turnya, back Aldo looked at me with inexhaustible thought,

”I don't like you like this Rara, even I deserve to know what makes you absorb this until you fall ill. I clenched my fingers and said softly,

‘’I just fell in love’Shortly with a slight wry smile, Aldo approached.

“I've never seen anyone fall in love this sickly”he said, I drifted a little and said.

“I also just found out that there is love that scratches deep wounds like this, I even feel tight in this vast area because my chest is filled with longing for Feri, my father, I don't even know when I can see his face again.”rintyhku, Aldo approached and tried to embrace me tightly.

“Even I really want to see him, who is he that you love so much, I'm jealous of Rara, as soon as you forget I just for Feri. I chose not to flinch when Aldo squeezed my shoulder, I had loved him, but that was before Feri was enthroned in my heart and mind. and now that I've decided to stay away from Feri I'm tormented like this, will this feeling slowly kill me.

“He is so perfect Aldo look, hopefully I can meet him back”.

 

Until a month passed, I could not hear from Mas Feri or mba Ina. With a little heavy breath I tried to take out the sim card from my phone and break it, it seems I am no longer needed, mas Feri he has found the solution as well as mba Ina, it feels like now they are too foreign and far away from me, I may no longer remember them or they said in their conversation, trembling I tried to incite word for word on the paper while tears ripple wish I could send it to mba Ina someday.

 

Dearly

My brother Ina,,,,, the,,,

For the sake of longing that soars to stifle the coils of my heart. I can't do much more than just feel it and flow with this Miss. I love the beauty that I see, the grace that I have, the sense that I touch everything I love the love that is in the heart mba Ina..

Yes, I love half your soul my brother,

Like you I was also claustrophobic when far from her, yet you tied her up with a halal bond while I was still in a knot somewhere, but neither did it lessen my love for her a little, She was the beauty herself, it took me a second to put her smile on my back, but it took me a lifetime to pull out that punch, sorry for my sassiness, praising your husband as much as he did, but sure enough, he said, your husband is a god in my heart.

I don't know, when are you going to read this letter with such a reckless confession, maybe I don't have to write my heart to you, but mba, we are friends as I always say, mba has no place to tell other stories besides Rara, nor Rara, either,

 

I'm not your madman, nor a stranger but your brother.

Greetings to Rara...