FRIGID GIRL VS OBSESSED GIRL
GLIMMER OF HOPE
POV INA
After Rara's room I returned to my room, I could see Feri standing on the balcony looking at the clear sky, I approached and tried to greet her.
“Mas,” my bro he turned his head for a while and looked back at the sky that had started to be orange, he seemed to be shaking his lips as if in doubt about what he was going to say.
“You are too focused on Rara to not care about your hobby,’’ he said, I bowed and tried to sigh heavily.
“I've given up mas, Ina feels Ina's life is normal. Already, we don't have to waste time. Thank you for bringing Rara to this house.’’tooknya. mas Feri sounded rattling reflex squeezed my shoulder and said.
“After all this, I even wish you were normal Ina, you know? It hurt when I tried to tell myself that my wife wasn't normal. Please make me understand that my wife is fine.”he said. I stared round her eyeballs,
“What's the matter, don't we already have a solution for this household? I was honestly sick when I shared. It's all for our good. I care about you mas.”clearku.
“Didn't there be a little bit of Irimu on Rara? or even jealous, he took half your life, you remember not the future and our dream is to live the future alone without a third party?”in particular,
“You who talk like that are not me, we can do what, when fate requires this. I'm sure someday you can love Rara, and I'll be happy with my loneliness, you know. That's my life.”tukku with sparkling eyeballs. Mas Feri squeezed my shoulders tight. His eyeballs stared into my beads.
“That won't happen Na, it took me a long time to get into your life. Because you can't open up to people other than Mama Rania?I can't just let you go. I want to always be in your life story Ina”he's stroking both my cheeks, Feri stuck his forehead on my head with tears to his eyes.
“You remember the saying, every meeting there must be a farewell.”ujarku mas Feri shook his head and reflexively hugged me.
“Don't force me to leave you Ra.’’he said, I digress and immerse my face, in my husband's chest.
“I just need to wait for the moments you already love Rara mas, after that I can calm down with my solitude”batinku hearted.
Evening visiting, after finishing dinner and even watching together, I got permission to go on Feri and Rara mas.
“Mas, I permission to go to the room first.”lucapku stammered, mas Feri who was sitting next to me earlier looked up a little see me standing, while Rara who was under the sofa lying down also looked glanced.
“Oh, yes already. Mas Also tired,ayo.’’ucapnya. I turned to Lara who seemed to not care about us holding the TV remote.
“Mas can be the same Rara aja tonight, I want it myself.”ujarku. mas Feri looks silent and try to nod in doubt. I took a little breath and stepped while shaking a smile at Rara. My step gontai up the stairs I can still see the Feri and Rara quietly, I had thought about what problems exist between them, why mas Feri could not be comfortable with Rara. I just kept walking until I closed the door, I laid my body on the couch, there was a very tired veiled but not on my body. A long exhaustion seeps the soul. Will I really let go of Feri's car after all this, as long as I know. He is the God who brought me out of backwardness.
FlASBACKS
“Down or I kill,”Ijarku shuddered while cutting the knife on the middle-aged man who became my adoptive father, yes my fate when very poor my biological father and stepfather both behaved vilely, he said, they traumatized the man I met after I grew up, he chuckled at me so much as he thought I was joking and didn't want to come any closer, I threw away the knife and rushed to get myself.
“Ina sayanng, your mama is very good at finding toys for me,”he words sound disgusting. He was chasing me who was running to get out. The teenage girl who was a dozen years old was struggling to cry while in the room.
“remove.. hiks tolonng Ina.’’ My whine is crying sobbing.
Prang…
The sound of the window glass was broken, I could see baseballs grinding into the house, after before this incident ever happened my stepfather's action stopped when there was a bell, until the car engine was lit, so that the action of my stepfather stopped, getting that chance, I ran back to save myself. I ran back to open the door and ran as far away as I could to escape my fear. Until in an empty house I hid from the many people who passed by no matter what happened to me until I was afraid to meet people. Without me realizing it was someone who was following me from home, he walked in slowly looking for where I was. I trembled in the corner of the empty and messy house, my eyes round as he flicked the fragile door leaf.
“Arrrrrggghhh..”Teriakku. The man approached and tried to calm me down, a young man who looked the same age as me.
“Do not, do! approach me.”My son was hysterical, he seemed to tangent on how to make me understand that he had no evil intentions,
“I Feri, I'm his niece Aunt Drista, our house next door’ejarnya, it seems hard to convince me no matter I don't want to hear him who's on my mind just a gentleman with his lust, it's hard to convince me that I don't want to hear him who's on my mind, I covered my ears and said hoarsely while hiccupping.
“Go.. please go hiks..”tangisku, he was confused and just silent seeing me cry, until my chest felt sick and tight. I felt so weak and trembled my eyes slowly darkened until I fainted and regained consciousness at home. When I woke up the atmosphere seemed to be crowded, there were some family members and mama who seemed to meenghakimi my stepfather among the busy people the young man had come back to me who was lying down,
“You are calm, please, the man will not admire you anymore”he said rumbles with the sound of the sighs of two vile men who tried to force me to serve it My ears hurt to hear it again I covered my ears and shouted.
“Don't...don't bother me.”my hysterical screams all seem to be approaching, and the young man also looks panicked, he tries to embrace until I get hysterical and scare everything,
“Already, don't touch him. Looks like Ina experienced a great Trauma, please stay away from my daughter.”ujar ,mama Rania mas Feri looked away, and looked at me from afar while concerned.
Until the day passes. I grew up to be an introverted woman, all the activities I do in the house, my mother limited the number of workers and people who enter because I do not like to see new people, because I do not like to see new people, since my stepfather's death my mother wished I could recover was not, now the world seems to revolve for myself without a smile and without laughter there is only a silent tear.
Back there was a knock from my bedroom window that led directly to the garden, for the umpteenth time, I found gifts and natural wreaths that were arranged so beautifully, but this time was different in the last 5 years, he sent a bottle of flies . I can see him bolongi over the bottle with small needles so that the animal can live in it, I saw and raised it. But I can't understand anything. The reflex I saw was a piece of paper inscribed with the brightly colored pen.
“If you, need a friend at night, try to turn off the lights and shake this bottle, for a moment there will be happiness.” he wrote, I glanced back at the bottle that was hit by the sun, and then I glanced back, there were only a few flies in it, until I finally decided to, put it on the table and wait for nightfall.
The night I visited at eight o'clock the night after Rania's mom delivered my dinner, I tried to turn off the light switch and sit on the window while shaking the bottle, as soon as I was swept away and my eyes opened to see the headscarf on the animal shining, my mouth slightly open and reflexively smiled without me noticing from earlier there was someone who noticed my smile behind the window curtain.
“That's a firefly,”bisiknys with chin support saw my smile, I was surprised and retreated. I was shaking to throw the bottle at him.
“I'm sorry I'm not a bad guy, we're neighbors, it's been a long time I don't dare to show you my face, don't be afraid, I just want to be friends.if you throw I'm going to fall, I'm going to fall, your room is so high, so I was confused how he could go up, but like he had a special ladder to come to my room to take all these gifts all this time, I was shaking and screaming.
“Go....!”I shouted, the man grabbed his hair and was forced to go back down, after that day I did not stop thinking about it, for the first time I carved a smile after all these years, I felt like I wanted to know about him, but I felt awkward because three days in a row, he didn't send me anything else, until I fretted and tried to find out, I walked down the stairs looking for mama downstairs, downstairs, suddenly my mother was moved to see me can also come out of the room after a long time.
“Honey? What brought Ina down? Does Ina need anything?”ask her with teary eyes approaching.
“Mama our neighbor beside whom ya ma?”I asked, mama stroked my shoulder and said, finally you care about something, son, I guess you no longer want to talk and socialize, yes, baby, Ferries family had an accident both of his master's people died, he is alone now, we have to meet him’’Jelaasnya without rag I want to come with mama to the hospital, even if only locked himself in the car, but I will not be alone, until after a few hours had been long enough I sat in the car waiting to look mama from the lobby walking with the man, he looked devastated, I understood his feelings so much that mama took him to the car.
Ever since that day I got used to Feri mas, I no longer considered him a stranger even when he dared to propose to me, I was very happy. Mama was also happy, although she wanted me to have to marry a businessman, but seeing my condition that could not be open to the new person also made mama approve
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Morning visit, I again woke up with a million in despair, slowly I sat down and packed, as usual my routine is now a wife who serves husband only at birth, and for his mind I leave it to others, after bathing I go downstairs, can I see mas Feri sudh set his favorite morning event, he said, it's Sunday we're not at all preoccupied with the office business, I focus on making breakfast while glancing at the door of Rara's room that has not been opened it seems they did not sleep in the same room last night,, can I see the guest room door open and messy, I sighed and tried to get closer to Feri offering tea and sarapanya.
“Mas drink first,’’ujarku, mas Feri looked to turn his head with a warm smile and embrace my waist,
“Here dear,,”his whispers carried me off his thighs.
“Content yes dear’’toward. I stroked his face and saw that tired face.
“Mas don't sleep all night?”mas Feri looked a little smiling and nodded.
“Since you ignored mas.”rengeknya,
“Mas, do not let Rara hate just because you are always impressed to reject it, she has been very good to help us?’’I whispered, mas Feri smiled wryly and said, but I love you Na, I cannot share our love,’’he explained again. I stood up and nodded on the sofa.
“You must be able to love Rara too, you must be fair mas, Rara we bring to this house to be your wife, I beg you please give me the same rights.”ujarku again, mas Feri sounded snorting, for a moment I thought of something maybe I should stay away from them for a while, so that Feri could get closer to Rara.
Afternoon visit without telling them both I went home to mama Rania and did not forget to leave a message and turn off my phone, the plan is I want to stay a few days so they have time alone. At home, my mother was very surprised at my arrival,
“What's Ina why are you home?”I smiled and reflexively hugged my mother,
“Mama please support Ina for this time, Ina is not perfect mah, Ina just want mas Feri happy with the others.”my love only sobbing when venting what I also feel
Until the next morning, I tried to clean up the garden and warehouse that had not been maintained at the home of mama, but I failed to focus on the same wooden box that says the name of Feri mas, Feri, I could see there were some bisboll balls, a little crowbar and some other boys toys, so I smiled until I remembered something during a bad incident that my heart actually refused to remember, I can see this creepy baseball is as passive as that time
“This ball?,,”ujarku. In my confusion mama came,
“What are you doing Na?”I asked my mother and I looked at her and said,
“Mama is of use to what?”I raised a crowbar made of iron.
“Oh, it might be possible to open the car door if the key is lost, never used anyway, in Feri take for toys, so not infrequently also the car mama adi victims”judar I remembered something, I remember something, when I was harassed papa, Feri always diverted by honking and turning on the car engine, just a few tears came out, I did not expect all this time to be my hero was Feri, Feri, he avoided me from worse, I gasped and tried to catch my breath which was tight, I wanted to embrace him immediately. I rushed to the room to go home, but in my busy life, my phone rang.
Drrrrrt Drrrrrrt Drrrrt
My eyebrow looked at the therapy doctor calling me,
“Ya ibuk Hana?’answer me,
“Today ibuk Ina holiday again?, whereas I see, mother changes quite well lately,”obviously a little I was wondering, maybe I should follow this therapy first, then, because of the fact that there is a light heart of me after knowing the reality earlier, even now I want to hug and kiss Feri mas.
"Good my book will come"
