Can I Love You?

I'm Tired and Surrender

Meanwhile, while Jihan was peeling fruit for Datiyah, her phone rang.

"Yes, Hello? " answer Jihan.

"Darling? Where are you? Didn't you swipe at me? I'm in pain right now." Hearing that voice, Jihan's body felt frozen.

So did Datiyah who slightly heard the chat from her phone.

But, Jihan quickly regained her senses.

"Mom got this phone firstwell." then he ran out of the room.

"Darling? " a voice call from Jihan's phone.

"Yeah? " Jihan tried to answer as gently as possible.

He really did not want to go back to Anton, after he was trying to rebuild his relationship with Datiyah.

"Aren't you supposed to be here? Bring a lawyer for me? "

"Yes, I'm sorry I'm a little late today. It's a little more fussy than usual.

" Okay, I'm waiting for you. I Love You's. "

"Yes." replied Jihan briefly.

Jihan went back into the room. Datiyah turned her face away from Jihan when she saw him enter.

"Dad, mama has to go now."

Datiya's breath was hunting when she knew where her mother was going.

"I should know, we can't turn back time. Mama Yang used to choose to die, rather than be with Anton. Now even back to love him again, " said Datiyah began to cry

"I should know, we can't go back to what we used to be. Mama remember, when mama slapped me so I could stop? "

"Tiyah., " said Jihan slowly with regret.

"I thought I was going to quit, I thought my life wasn't so bad and I could still get through it. When I thought the man who loved me was finally really mine. But the truth isn't that beautiful."

"Do you know what made me decide to take everything from Anton, to hear you say love with that monster, to make me sick and disgusted. How can you love that guy after what he did to me, papa and grandpa?."

"Dad,.. Sorry mama. You know, you shouldn't love him. But, he ... "

"hentika..... Better mama go with the monster. I'm gonna make him grow old helpless in prison. Suggestions have no more power. And at this time, all his assets will belong to those who suffer because of him."

"Mama doesn't care about her assets at all. This time, please believe me. Let mama end it all for you."

Datiyah shook her head, "Mama, you better go. Don't come back here. I know what my mom did to keep me safe until now. But loving him is another. Beyond my reasoning."

Jihan stood up to stroke Datiyah's head, but her hands were brimmed by Datiyah.

"Love, it is not something that you can understand with reason and logic. Shouldn't you know that? You're right, better mama go. Sorry Mama, Tiyah."

Jihan left and did not look back.

He could only hear the angry and sad cry of Isak Datiyah.

Datiyah hugged her knees and cried. He said rudely, so that his mother would stop seeing Anton and stop loving him.

Gama runs into Jihan in the lobby.

"Where is aunt going? What was? " Tanya Gama oada Jihan was about to leave and her face was full of tears.

"Sorry aunt, please take care of Tiyah. Auntie knows, this is an unreasonable request, once you know. How could aunty let Tiyah get like that. Auntie has to go." Jihan left without turning away.

"Why did everyone leave Tiyah to me. Without them I'll look after her, because she's my wife." Gama rambled and opened the room door.

Seeing Datiyah cry, Gama entered quickly and hugged Datiyah.

"Tiyah... " Say Gama slowly.

Datiyah returned Gama's embrace and cried in Gama's stomach standing by the bed.

"I hate.... I hate all of you. " said Datiyah in her tears. His heart is deeply wounded when Jihan prefers to go to Anton.

"Ohhhhh.... " Gama stroked Datiyah's head while hugging her.

Meanwhile, Jihan visits Anton with a lawyer.

As soon as Jihan arrived, Anton immediately hugged her, while Jihan was surprised to see Anton's battered face.

"Why face?" ask Jihan curiously.

"Here, because of your son-in-law. Ill-mannered. Look, as soon as I get out of here. I'm gonna kill him." Hearing Anton's words, Jihan's hair stood up unwilling to imagine anything bad happening again.

"Didn't you feel guilty? Someone died because of you." Jihan asked sadly to Anton.

Maybe, in the eyes of others Anton is really a bad monster. But, for him. Anton is a man who treats her like a Queen, therefore, after all these years he can love Anton back, given the feeling of the first time he fell in love with Anton when they were teenagers.

"Why? I had no intention of killing him. Just to scare Hendrik. But he died" he said without guilt.

Jihan is feeling very sad. Jihan closed her eyes, remembering the words of Datiyah.

"How can you love that man after what he did to me, papa and grandpa?"

"Darling? " anton's voice woke him from his daydream.

"Yes? "

"You why? Sick? "

"No, I'm fine" said Jihan with a faint smile.

"Why didn't you bring Raka here? "

"I can't take Raka to a place like this?"

"Oh yeah, you're right. "

"What's your plan, so you can get out?" ask Jihan.

Anton smiled at Jihan's words, he thought Jihan would make him wait longer. Turns out he was wrong, Jihan missed him. At least that's what Anton had in mind.

"this is what you asked for." Lawyers gave him drugs in secret.

"What's that?" Ask Jihan.

"It's gonna get me out of here, and we're gonna meet. But you won't be surprised, I'll be fine after a few days."

Jihan still doesn't understand what Anton really wants to do.

But, after they returned home, the lawyer explained everything to Jihan.

A few days later, news broke that Anton Suggesti was rushed to the hospital, due to stroke and heart symptoms.

Anton was rushed to the hospital where Datiyah was treated. Because that's what he told his lawyer. Make him a hospital with Datiyah.

The drug, which would have had a few days of effect on Anton, is still in a weakened state.

The police guarding outside, only allowed the family to swipe at him.

Datiyah, of course, wanted to take this opportunity to see Anton's state. He can't get out of jail easily for illness.

As soon as he was about to open the door, he saw Jihan wiping Anton's face and hands.

"Anton, do you remember when we were dating? " Jihan smiled. Anton was still weak and half conscious due to the effects of the drug.

"The reason I like you, is because you care about your best friend, even if you look cranky."

"Year-know we're together, you never mean I do what I don't like. Where was the first time, you hit the boy, until he was seriously injured. I think it's just the emotions of a teenager"

Jihan continued to clean Anton's other hand.

Datiyah leaned against the wall near the door. She wanted to understand her mother, because she knew love was hard to understand. Love is different in the eyes of the person who experiences it.

In his eyes, his love is like an endless fetter, He loves Gama, Gama loves him too, but he cannot escape the shadow of Aira returning to Gama.

To Jihan, love is a curse. Anton's love for her makes him lose everything, but on the one hand, that love focuses only on him.

"Love can take you, to the highest heaven, but it can drop you in the deepest darkness of hell" by anonymous

" However, the longer I realize that you're starting to change. I'm still trying to survive, hoping to change you. Until finally, indirectly, it was you who pushed me away from Fuad yourself, because you were always suspicious of me and him." Jihan then sat down next to Anton's bed.

"I'm happy, until you come back. Ruin all my happiness. With reason still loving me."

"maybe I'm too naive, even after being crushed by you, I can still love you again, you treat me like a queen, like any other woman dreams. And at that moment I thought that you really changed. That I can turn you into nothing like your father."

Datiyah who was outside the room, decided to leave the room.

Jihan clasped Anton's hand, "But I've never been more wrong than this. You killed someone without the slightest guilt, I'm sorry Anton, I'm tired and I'm giving up,"

Slowly, Jihan pulled out the gun from the small bag in her hand.

Anton who was still weak and half conscious tried to thrash. But he's still under the influence of drugs.

"I think you should go, then I will feel relieved and not need to feel guilty to Datiyah. The thing I should have done from the beginning every time I had a chance."

"Dddduuuaaarrrr .. Duaarrr... Duarrr..... "

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