Between Me You And Him

Ego

A lot of things I've been through with Arta's mas today, and I really feel today is a great day for my togetherness and Arta's mas, without Daniel...

Today has made me very happy. Like a garden full of beautiful flowers and charming blooms. But it is only a taste that may only be present at a glance because of the departure of Arta mas only, like a child who whines spoiled do not want and heavy if left by a figure who guards him. Comfort that may arise due to adult attention and attitude that protects from the threat of danger that comes arrived. Mas Arta is good, very good for me and never makes me feel upset or uncomfortable when near him, his warm and unpretentious attitude makes anyone who is nearby feel always in the deck of peace and peace. He also never forced or sued me, even though the pain must be he who loves in silence. If only I could have felt it all so much earlier and understood its sincerity long ago there would probably not have been a story between me and Daniel. In the past, Arta's boyfriend from mbak mbak who was his classmate did not know what his name was but he had said he had no relationship with him but he was still insistent if there was no word to break from him. Yes, remembering when I knew him was funny, from what he feared because of a trauma in his childhood to a weakness I knew. It used to be that he was only good to me, often driving me home either until the front of the house or just in front of the alley in my house, often driving me home, he also made me a glimpse of the paper, but I've been understanding and self-conscious because he used me as an excuse to avoid his ex. He actually likes me not but with him who used to be with me, I used to have a taste for Arta but I think my race is wrong just because I am a mere reason. And the stupidest thing I ever did was when I didn't dare admit who I really was. He knows I'm someone else, he's also good at playing music and has brought it to me through an ordinary phone yes because it used to be rare to have bebem. Without him knowing who I really am, it's stupid, but somehow I can do that. Until it was finally discovered and made it far away from me. And now when he comes back and indeed with the right sense there is I still doubt it, I don't know what I doubt. But I'm not sure if he really likes me or just a game. Maybe there's still a sense left for him but I think it's just friendship. Honestly I don't understand my own mood, on the one hand I'm happy because I can feel what I once imagined, but on the other hand I'm afraid if Daniel knows this. This world is full of surprises, surprises that always come, many things that I can not recognize with details about my story, my story and all my life is so complicated. There's Arin, Daniel, and there's even Adnan.

This taste is still there honestly for Adnan there is still a little taste, a taste that may not look can not be expressed again but can not be lost or forgotten just like that. I now belong to Daniel but the taste is so full of memories. Daniel is good at captivating me with his attention and the way he brings laughter. Adnan is so cute but super paying attention. The cool Mas Arta even looks haughty but protective. Mas Aris who never miss the feeling of attention and care. ahhh. No more things that must be exaggerated or reduced are all in the portion. Better just focus. Daniel hasn't come home either, and I shouldn't be like this but I'm enjoying this all very free time that's been a lot of fun for me.

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The day Daniel returned...

today I spent my time back with Arta's mas. Which I didn't realize was the beginning of a disaster. Whether this relationship will survive or not. I admit it's my fault, and I don't deny all this. Daniel's back....

I'm with mas Arta in a cafe we just eat and talk but still we're just the two of us, and Daniel saw it.

"are you here meit?" questions with unfamiliar calls and voices for me I looked back to the side of Daniel. Daniel asked me.

"have you gone home, niel?"

"do you not want to?"

"just answer my question!"

"yes I'm here and yes as you can see now I'm eating with Arta's mas, oh yes you why not skip it anyway?"

"what the hell are you saying, niel?"

"everything is clear even you're still pretending?"

"just enough niel! I'm here with mas arta but we're just talking and eating, and your thinking is far from over"

"more than your limits? which limit is meit? I'm still your boyfriend and you're still my girlfriend, and you go with Arta when I'm not around. Am I going too far beyond my limits?

"i can jasin everything bro." said arta

"do not mas. let him assume so. he who should see from the other side is not just from what he just saw."

yok mas. we just go home. I'm not in the mood. sorry niel. I go home first ..

"meit.. meitha.

It's true that I lost the mood to eat.why he was so, and he also came home not ngabari instead go to the cafe first again .. and once I'm wrong... Then he's not wrong?? ahhhh all I can not think of. everything seems to be my fault, he is also wrong not only I am wrong.

No matter what kind of anger I don't know, but he's also obviously wrong.why I'm the wrong one.yeah maybe I was wrong because I did go with Arta's mas. but he's also home and I don't even know when and what time he's back.....