Between Me You And Him

Dilemmas

Will I stick with this feeling. Will I choose my beloved Daniel and choose to sacrifice my friendship with Arin? Am I selfish if I choose Daniel? and it would be too hypocritical for me if I really let Daniel go. I can't let go, not because ehois or want to win by myself. But this feels like it's anchored to Daniel. If all is not like this groove, surely everything will be fine until this moment. I will be happy with Daniel, and my friendship will be good without any threat from my best friend, Arin. I don't want to have any arguments and feuds with either my own friends or any of my other friends. Everything seemed to be a scourge in my life, all like a nightmare that kept haunting me.

'Stop '..stop!!!!! my screams are reflected in Arin's threat and all this trouble.

"i don't want to. I don't want to choose. I want everything to be okay."

If only, hope and want everything to run smoothly. No more parting dramas, destruction, and rifts. Enough is enough for everything. Too painful to pass, but too painful to take off.

Daniel was perfect for me, too perfect for me. He was able to be present in the midst of all the problems in my life, he was far able to understand and understand me, he always put the best for me. Without him knowing sometimes he misleads what is in front of him just because of me. I am a very lucky woman among all those who idolize Daniel. Very lucky to get Daniel who looks handsome cool, school idol, captain basketball, good and rich anyway. hemm not matre anyway but he is indeed a complete package for me hehe.... I don't know where this feeling grew from and we finally established this romance story. I used to reject him but he did not give up and I eventually lost it to him. There used to be a lot of blasphemy coming to me because Daniel would prefer me to be his girlfriend. But Daniel mamou assured me that I did not lose to them all. But now it is so hard trials that come to this relationship. Between my own best friend and my lover Daniel. Choosing is not an easy choice. They are just as amazing in my day. Oh my God I have to how else can I do with this choice of mine. They are the same as the strongest in my life.

Dilemma or self-doubt . ahhh I do not know what to do and how again ..

"meit.meitha.. call Daniel to disperse my thoughts and my daydreams.

"uhh yes Niel...

"you why? Arin again?? don't just shut up. I'm involved in this too, so tell me what's going on and be your burden...

"there's nothing about Niel.

"confused? confused why? cut Daniel

"you and Arin are just as instrumental in my day...

"you and I are not on the wrong track.we have a mutual sense and we have a bond.we still have to be like this. and Arin I will always be your shield. he should understand and understand your feelings, especially we already have a bond. is not he your best friend . should he understand and want to let go of his taste for me. Because after all I have no taste with him.

"yes I also had time to think so, but you do not know Arin.he is a reckless person Niel ....

"trust meit. If we stay together and believe each other everything will be fine.

ah better I chat ima and ayu only. long time not joking through chat. I take my phone on the table in front of me and Daniel. I see Daniel was cool playing games.

Ihoh there is an incoming message it turns out that I can not know anyway, even though this phone from earlier was near me. Who would send a message. hmm must be the duo restless ima and ayu nih. can they chat when I also want to chat them.

lhohhh Arin. Open it is not yes.ok I become nervous myself it feels. ah I let it be .. than I added stress .. uh but if left to tar I was curious again... just open it...

***ta.sorry if I'm selfish about this feeling. But honestly I don't want to see you with your boyfriend...

if I may ask one thing from you I want you to give him up for me. Please ta. you want to see me happy, we have been friends for a long time, we have been friends for a long time, but either this taste is really different from the others.

I hope you'll let Daniel go for me.. I really fell in love with him, and I want to have him, I'm sure this is not wrong***

Arghhhhh what the hell is Arin.is he not aware that this message hurt this heart why can he ask me to release Daniel. why not just him who undoes it feel for the sake of our relationship which is clearly in love with each other. Why Rin....

without me noticing my tears wetting my cheeks and I began to hold back my tears, Daniel began to realize that if I held back the crying, he saw me, wiped my tears and looked at me deeply enough. I couldn't see her look so deep on me.

"what else is it? wh why? don't keep the wound in your silence and cry, I'm here...

I was unable to say and was swept away in his arms somehow I had to at this moment. So comfortable I feel in his arms in a wordless embrace but able to make me get a backrest and support like getting protection amid threats.

oh Lord I am more and more unable if I have to let go of Daniel. His embrace makes me very calm, I have fallen into a deep sense that is not easy to express in words anymore. I want to always be desperate in my comfort, I want to always feel his affection. I don't want to, I can't help.why is it all happening when this feeling is so deep.why not when I don't have a feeling, why not while I still reject it first.. why now, why....

this cry became more and more, I grew increasingly confused with this sense of unworthiness. Daniel stroked this hair gently and tried to calm me down. But I couldn't calm down I was getting more upset, I was getting confused, I was getting messed up, I was in a dilemma...

The dilemma between the flavors that have been so deep and have grown strong....

weeping and tangisss were just a wordless cry.....