Between Me You And Him

Still the same

Without any response from Daniel, I finally let go of my arms and left.. I can't force him to respond to my existence. I can't tell him to be nice to me, I know this is a little risk I have to take from all my decisions. Accept it or not accept it all must be ready for me to accept, this is my own work. Sad indeed but what I can do, Daniel is much more screwed up.

"Niel.. I go home first yes. tomorrow I will come again..

I finally left and was full of disappointment, disappointed with myself, disappointed because not only my feelings that I threw away but I also sacrificed everything to Daniel who became his victim. I want to be angry but angry at who? Arin?? he will be responsible for everything that has happened. Truly he is not someone who feels human, endless I think and I have sacrificed all for him until now Daniel who must feel the impact. Arin is Arin I have to meet him to talk about all this he must immediately realize, he must open his eyes, he must understand everything he does. I don't want things to get worse and more complicated, I don't want to. This matter should be resolved soon. Must.

"Are you down? hows it? Daniel's fine, right?"

"Bec ... Ita .. I asked you how even bengong anyway? what was???

"Daniel Yu... Ayu hugged me and we sat in Daniel's living room. The aunt who saw me crying was finally approaching me and calmed me down as well.

"already non, den Daniel must be fine, maybe now is not the right time for all acceptable, indeed aunt does not know what happened but aunt understood very well with den Daniel.. the aunt who took care of him from childhood, Daniel would be fine, he was a person who did not give up, he was a person who always had a high spirit to rise, non who was patient first..

"iii.iiiya bi.all my fault bi. because of me he became such a mess...

"now is not the right time to blame, if you want to blame all this is clearly wrong Arin.you behave so just to guard and protect Daniel from the threat of Arin alone.. you must rise up you can Ta.. Daniel must understand...

"i don't think I want to be in this position Yu. This story and this story should never exist, I'm evil, I've made Daniel this way. You know Yu is as angry as he is with me he never dodged, even when he was angry he still picked me up even without any chatter between us, but now he is really disappointed with me Yu... he was the victim of all my decisions...

"have Ta don't cry. I get confused, don't cry yes Ta...

Aunty just kept quiet listening to my conversation with Ayu, and Aunt encouraged me too and helped me to make Daniel stop with his solitude.

It was too late for Ayu and me to go home. And tomorrow I want to see Daniel again.

The sun had risen and was radiating its warmth.. I immediately rushed to get ready for school. I can't wait to get by and go to Daniel's house to be with him until he understands.

"heii Ta. how did Daniel go to his house?"

"so mas...

"no mas. which Arta thinks is fine even I don't know...

"have I explained to Daniel? about our meeting.Ant finished yet Arta spoke I've cut it...

"do not need to mas. do not need.fear it to be longer.

the school bell rang to stop my conversation with Arta's mas. Now Arta just waiting for the announcement of her graduation, she came and went to school just to wait for the results. And on Monday tomorrow we have a class exam but Daniel still hasn't entered school. It's all a long impact and then I have to go there to tell him, it's not funny if he doesn't go to class and he's a kid who does well in our school.

*Daniel's House

"eh non Ita... enter non.... alone today?

"iya bi.. Daniel is bi...

"there is a non. there in his room. just go in and aunt wants to go back first..

"iya bi. thank you..

My heart felt unsettled, every time I climbed the stairs I always felt doubtful, but I still had to meet Daniel.. Arriving in front of Daniel's room door, I steadied my heart to knock on the door, it felt like it was shaking and it was like it wanted to be tried, hah, it was more like me... I knocked on the door of his room until the third knock there was no answer at all like yesterday. I decided to go straight into his room, the same image was clearly visible to these eyes, all scattered with a lot of stuff that could have hurt the feet of anyone who stepped on it. I met him in the corner of his room by the window still as silent as he was thinking yes.

"Daniel.. I came here again to see you. You're fine...

"Niel.. the day after we have a test, you enter yes.brentar again we will go to class loh. it does not feel later not until one year we will graduate... oh yes dana nanyain you why you have not been home for a long time.it seems like Dana kangen mas also the same you are Niel..

hahhh still I did not hear a single answer.it feels like I want to cry and without you knowing my tears have fallen down this cheek.I continue to babble while filled with tears.. I can't stop this crying anymore I don't know what else to do...

"Niel.. please don't be like this. If you are angry with me it is not papa but don't punish yourself and the people around you.. I'm ready with all your anger but don't involve anyone else let alone your situation, Niel...

"I admit I was wrong I was wrong. I love you Niel. I love you. I love you..... I have not finished taking out everything I feel my crying is getting louder and I already feel bad to talk to me to approach Daniel and sit beside him. I dare not touch him when I need to lean. and either my eyes are wrong or I don't think Daniel's looking at me. I hope he sees me and speaks a word to make me feel a little relieved....