Between Me You And Him

daniel's smile

The crying I couldn't stop made me even more fragile in front of Daniel. I don't know what else to do. I don't see the slightest response and answer from his mouth. I didn't expect Daniel to let me cry without calming me down every time my eyes started to look like he was the one who didn't want to see these tears fall on his cheeks.. but this time it was all inversely proportional he let me grieve crying in front of him. I don't think so with his current attitude. I made the decision for him, so he wouldn't be a target of Arin's recklessness but I was in the wrong position. I'm like a man with no direction, no purpose, no hope, all my efforts to make Daniel rise up just make me more broken.

Oh God why everything is so bad.why should it happen, I miss the attitude of caring and caring attitude that always makes me happy and feel the luckiest of all. Now all just silent and silent no more stories like that... I still hope there will be hope that comes in the future, as little as God's color.. Could it be that it could happen? I can only hope and I will not be afraid to keep trying to fix everything...

*the next day

Today's the first day of my grade exam I wish Daniel would come in, because I don't want him to fail just because of personal problems. I would feel so guilty if it had to happen. It's 7 but I haven't seen Daniel. I was reluctant to go to class because I hadn't seen Daniel. We're different rooms, but I didn't see him outside. The doorbell rang, everyone entered the classroom and waited for the teacher to come, before long the teacher came and we have received the exam sheet. Here I feel the worry that arises arrives, whether Daniel enters today... I'm very worried about him, my mind is not calm but I have to stay focused on this exam. Time after time, I always looked at the clock and felt anxious and wanted to end and wanted to ask about Daniel. The bell reads the sign of the completion of the time to do the exam. Ayu invites me to leave the classroom, and I immediately rush to Daniel's classroom. But I didn't find anyone in that classroom, maybe they all went home..

"already Ta . we pray the best.who knows Daniel has entered..

"iya Yu, but I'm still not calm because I didn't know if she really went to school or not today. How Yu. I really feel guilty about him.

"this time you have to focus on our exams first Ta. Daniel problem later I help you, but we have to focus on school first, remember Ta lest we fail..

"but Yu....

"there are no words but Ta. Ayu replied cutting off my unfinished conversation, but it is true Ayu said that I should focus first on this exam.

tomorrow and tomorrow until the exam is over....

Today's the last day of the exam, after I'm done wanting to find out about Daniel.

"Yu uda we've been testing for a week, but why haven't I seen Daniel yet...

"it's quiet first, the day after I'm with you to Daniel's house to make sure.

"it's really Yu...

"uh yes tumben I did not squirm the Ima during this test Yu?

"during the exam period we are invited each of us different schedules Ta.

"oh yeah...

haiiii.. the sound of screaming from the end sebrang.

"uh Yu we just talked to her hehe

"ehhh y'all are the same schedule while I'm not.just the last day can be together.

"eleee, what do you miss? ledek Ayu's

"yeeee if you're your house with me, same Ita I miss hahaaaa

"oh, did we practice today? much

The entrance bell rang.We all headed to the field because today we schedule practice..

"what's Daniel.I don't see it wrong, while I look at the angle a little far from my place and Ayu.

"what the hell is Ta? who's? ask Ima

"that's that. near the class B boy is that Daniel? I didn't see it wrong?

"where the hell is where Ta? asked Ayu while looking around.

"it was tuhh. who wore sports clothes..

"hehh lo also wear sports clothes Ta. and we all pack.how the hell are you who actually dong.

"that's that corner over there Yu's that... Daniel was. I pointed it in the direction I meant

"yes it looks like anyway.yeah we just wait we see later must be his turn we know.

It was my turn to be honest, I was a person who sucked at exercise, I had no ability even with the ball I never held it. And "aaaaaaaaa" I shouted at the ball that was hurtling towards me. I couldn't imagine it and had it caught by Daniel.

"focus dong!"

is that true what I see. Daniel is really you. I mlongo sejadi see him who is in front of my side. Oh Sihan thank you. I didn't realize that I was silent for a long time and when I realized Daniel had left me, I was stupid I didn't realize why I didn't tell him what.

hik.... Ayuu why am I so stupid...

"already important Ta you are not papa, you should be grateful if you know that he is here

"iya Yu but right...

I looked at him, and I saw he was cool with his basketball buddies and there was also Abi's man questioning him. I saw them chatting coolly but I didn't see Daniel's smile. There's just a flat face.

And for so long I watched him from a distance hoping to see his smile, but still notmm. I still see him endlessly until ima and Ayu want to invite me to go to him alone, but I refused, and I didn't want her to change her mood..

Hahhh and yaa. I saw her smile, her thin smile even from a distance but I was happy to see her smile.

Daniel's smile that I missed for almost 2 weeks I didn't see that smile and now I see it even from a distance.

**I felt a blow of spoi wind in the scorching sun, I felt a speck of rain drenching myself and brought me to the deep coolness I longed for.

I feel like I have a hope that brings me to the happiness of tomorrow to come.

daniel's smile a smile that makes me feel at the comfort and tranquility that I miss so much. I want to see always that smile last month that was silent silent empty and arid**...