A Memorandum

Epilogues

So this is now, when I can get my story back.

I know you guys must think I'm silly for what I do, but I don't do it for my own sake. Maybe I'd rather take it as a tribute, a thank you, because Hannah is the one who's making my life completely different now. He perfected my understanding of the meaning of true love. And he made me the happiest man in the world. Although I have to start with a bitter story.

And it's ironic isn't it, when someone you love suddenly marries someone you never even knew? Moreover, the surprise that I meant so that he was impressed was a reminder of our separation. And of course, I also never expected the birthday gift to turn into a wedding gift with someone else.

I knew I still couldn't resist my disappointment at those times. I can't even attend to her wedding. It felt very impossible to be able to face many people, to a place where all my friends were gathered, that they had known everything. Besides it would look too depressing for me, I don't think I'd be able to get out of there without feeling even more depressed.

Part of me still questions why he just walked out of my life. Which I'll never know the answer to. I think the answer to that question is a secret that Sarah will continue to bring to the end of her life. But I've always had a smarter way of concluding all of this. That everyone is free to choose whom they will love, right? No one can force their feelings on anyone else. In the end I knew I had to forget how I felt. While realizing that even from the beginning he was never destined for me.

I said if he was really right with his choice. I also said that the time we spent together still meant a lot to me. Which I will never forget until anytime. And I also said that I was lucky enough to ever feel my love for her. Then hope that he can wear the watch with pride. Although it used to be painful, but time is not a silent reality. And I won't regret it anymore now.

Then when our eyes met again that night, I knew I had to take my hand off immediately. Because our story has been completely different.

So here, I've been in my workroom back. The moment I had to perfect word for word, continuing what I had started a while before. For this is what is part of my soul now.

I sighed for a moment, taking off all the memories that happened. And when I put my pen down once more, it all felt more beautiful when I thought about it. Like I said, I am happy with my life now.