A Memorandum

Storia 13: The Unwanted Phone

After a long time leaving Bandung, Ryan never thought to return. And it was not only because of the work that made him not want to do that, but also because he felt there was nothing important that made him want to go back home. Besides there are some things about feelings.

When people think of the family as a precious bond, a place of good emotions among the people in it, a memory that will not be replaced easily, but for Ryan, family is a hollow bond and never means anything. Too often he hears people say about the tenderness of a mother, the protection of a father, those who will always raise your heart when you fall, a person who can always be a friend inside towards maturity, but he will never and will not be able to find such things in his life.

Sometimes he gets angry at God. To the fate that says if he has to live like this. It seemed like it would be better if he never knew them at all. Because he doesn't need to think about their whereabouts, does he? But hope is hope. Which he can't change anymore.

But exactly six days, before Sarah's birthday finally arrived, she suddenly got a call from Bandung. His uncle David called this time. And he wanted to talk about his father. He doesn't know where he got his number. But Ryan soon found out that what he said must have sounded bad.

His father was very ill when he said it. Lymph cancer had long been eating away at his body. Before advising him to return to Bandung immediately. When I first heard it, Ryan probably didn't know what to do. He could not even explain how he felt when he heard the news. She did not know if she was sad, or felt sympathy for him. Although mostly, he only felt hollow.

And that's pretty easy to explain here. That his relationship with his family was not harmonious, making him not have any emotional ties. The experience continues to be ignored, ultimately making him do exactly the same to them. It was even quite easy for him to consider the news to be too exaggerated. Which made him ignore him immediately. In other words, he just wanted to feel at ease living his life here. And he doesn't want to live with attachments anymore.

But for three days the phone kept ringing. They repeatedly persuaded him, saying they were family. They talk a lot about forgiving, forgetting, something that is certainly still difficult for him to accept.

At the end of the fourth day, his aunt Maya once again called. But this time his tone sounded gentle and empathetic at the same time. Nor did he find the tones that seemed to dictate to him there, or to indicate his position.

“Nak,” said, opening the conversation. “Your father needs you. All your family needs you here. Try to see him again. Maybe this could be your last chance!” Clearly again.

He remembered it well even though he did not detail his circumstances. He even knew that they were not trying to hide the truth from him. That his father was really dying.

And this is where he began to debate the dilemma he had to face. Some of them reminded me that they were being cruel. So what he's doing now, he thinks is appropriate. Even though his other self actually showed an unbearable feeling. And again in addition to the above problems, there are still parents who never even tried to contact him once. They never called him, or simply said what they were feeling at the time, and this is what made the problem worse.

The next night, he could barely sleep a full night. And he could only continue lying inside the room, with his gaze continuously staring blankly in the same direction. He tried hard to control what he felt at that time, but what he did actually made his mind feel darker, so he could not hold the burden anymore. Strangely, though, he recalled all the memories of being with his father as he did so. Some even feel like they are destroying feelings.

He remembers when he was a child. When her father would always take her and pick her up at school. And he will always ask for pocket money that he had at that time. Before you add it so that the allowance remains. Then, as her family regrouped, she knew that her father would always pass the time for her. He could even remember it vividly from the photos he had taken. Which is slightly opposite to his mother because he prefers his other sister. Then when the school ended, only he was always present at the rapping event. Ryan also knew that he had never shown any frustration to her. Because he who never shows bad results even once. But of all, it seems that the incident when he made a number of toys that felt the most fun. He used to fly kites for her. Because he's the one who never even got a chance to play it.

Then on the last day, when Sarah's birthday finally arrived, she asked Sarah to meet again. He took her to a place called Roca Restaurant this time. A restaurant that also has its own uniqueness because of the atmosphere of dinner. The place is built on a pond, and connected by a number of passages. People can even see ornamental fish swimming right below them. And he was also quite lucky that night, because the place was not in full. That's where he started to tell her. Sarah listened well as she told stories.

“I think you should go home Ryan too. It's been a while, haven't you seen them?” Sarah's advice to him.

Of course he never asked Otto's permission to leave. Even when he took Sarah out of Welmina it also meant that she ran away from duty again. He also explained to her about her birthday gift that had to come late. But the answer was again exactly the same as he had heard so many times.

“That dinner was amazing too, Ryan. It's a special night for me.” Legally. “Dan..., thank you for bringing me here.”

She smiles. Even if he thinks he's the one who should be grateful.

Next, he reached into his pocket. Take a small catalog piece that is inside. It is a picture of Sarah's birthday present. Before showing it again right in front of him. He knew it was another stupid thing he was back to doing. But the fear of losing Sarah completely messed up her whole way of thinking. Even Sarah was a little stunned as she showed him the picture of the gift. It seems, Alexander Cristie brand watches are not excessive at all.

“Gosh. You shouldn't have bought me that, right?” He said, as if he did not believe what he was doing. His eyes really told him that.

“It's okay. I told you earlier, didn't I want to?”

“Yes, but it must be expensive.” He tried to say it as appropriate as possible. “I won't be disappointed either, even if you don't give me anything.” Then continue again.

“It's okay, Sarah. Really am. I've decided anyway. I'm just happy if you like it.” He tried to smile.

But this time Sarah did not answer. And just stunned right in front of him. Although he also did not expect an exaggerated reply. Other than him who could slightly consider his feelings.

“You must think of me as silly, right? Show the picture like this. I mean, a gift like that should be a secret.” Say again. He also did not believe that he did it.

“No..., I don't think so. I think you're very kind, Ryan.” Then be friendly.

And Ryan caught the sincerity of his tone. Makes him not know what to do. And she kept looking into his eyes, while Sarah also did not take her eyes off him. On his face was a smile.

That's how the beautiful night ended.