A Little Desire Of Anti - Hero

Arc I - Chapter 51: New Teams and Old Operations - 1

After the call reached Huge's ears, he immediately went to Ditch's office. In the familiar room, he faced Ditch who now had the most serious expression shown in the past.

After making a respectful gesture to Ditch first, Huge also said, “I came according to your call, Captain.”

Ditch saluted Huge, then began to explain what happened to squad one.

Hearing this story of failure, Huge lowered his head. This sort of thing had happened again, and this answered the uncomfortable feeling that had recently re-nested in his heart.

“Captain, then what is your real reason for calling me here?” ditch asked, he was sure that the reason why he was called here was not just to hear this sad news.

Pounding softly, Ditch expressed his true intentions. “You will I join in the mission of catching this bandit tomorrow.”

“If it's a task, then I will carry it out without hesitation.”

However, different from Huge's expectations, Ditch immediately shook her head. “I will not send you as a soldier. Also, I do not intend to deploy a large group to overcome the bandits, but I will only send a team that is able and able to overcome this problem without much fuss.”

Ditch stood up and headed for the window. With a slow step, he let the silent Huge and continued to look at the city. Shifting his gaze, a word that felt heavy finally came out of his mouth. “And you will make me a leader in that team.”

Huge was again surprised, after time passed he was about to open his mouth. However, Ditch has preceded him.

“You don't have to worry, I've determined the members that I consider appropriate. Besides I'm sure this is the right choice,” Taking a few sheets of paper from his desk drawer, Ditch looked at the profiles of those listed names once again.

“These people will later become members of your team. Although they are only five people, but I am sure that there will not be a big hole that can be found in the team.”

However, Huge still shook his head despite having been described so far. “Captain Ditch, I know your purpose, but I can't be someone worthy leader anymore.”

Huge's eyes were slightly clouded, as his head slightly lowered. Memories from a few years ago returned to his head.

The period when his career journey continues to climb following the progress of his strength level continues to increase. Until finally he can become a captain in a small squad, just like the position of Simon who leads team one.

It was a great team that Huge once had, mission after mission they lived with success that kept flowing, making him and other members of the team live their lives brilliantly. However, like a wheel they are not always on top, in a mission because a small mistake all the team members were killed and became history.

Right, that whole team disappeared, except the team leader ... Huge.

Huge considered all of that because of his mistake, because his command of results that seemed obvious had become far unachievable. It is like two lines converging in a single path, but because of a small angle, even if it is only 1 degree the distance between them widens as they get farther away.

Due to a command error he gave, Huge was convinced that it was what made a corner that led his former teammates into the afterlife. However, one thing kept haunting him, why did he have to survive when it was all his fault?

Although Ditch knew that, the old reason was not accepted at this time. Now his eyes were looking into Huge's eyes with a deep look that seemed to be able to see Huge as a whole without any veil.

“Huge, I know what happened to you but ..” Sighs for a moment, Ditch finally finished his words. “Do you know what makes you feel constantly guilty?”

“....”

Huge Shut up, speechless.

“....”

Huge's eyes began to move, distancing his gaze from Ditch. Like he was trying to get away from this truth.

“Try you see the name in the paper is fine.”

Huge could not dodge more than this, still with his head down he replied softly, “Good ..”

Huge began to read the names on the document, at first his sight continued like a dead fish. However, the moment he had his mind started to notice these names more observantly his gaze immediately came to a halt.

Holding his head, Huge tried to stare at Ditch. His hand seemed to still tremble after reading the names on the paper in this hand.

“Captain, these names ...?” Although he honestly knew, Huge could not help but ask questions, even if it was just to ascertain the conjecture he had made.

“True, it is the name of people who have experienced severe depression after a loss, or suffered failure in a matter. Rico, Kent, Tue, even Dany, and Ernest are also on.”

Returning to his seat, Ditch continued what he wanted to convey. “They want to make amends that made them suffer the results of that time. So ... Huge, are you also going to lead people who will atone for the sins they once committed? Or are you even a loser in the face of reality?”

Huge looked at Ditch who now looked very different from what he had seen.

As if answering Huge's gaze, Ditch said, “Even Dany wants to make amends for the mistakes she just made. Besides the Ernest you've met recently, he's already made up his mind and even learned some magic and war tactics madly after that decision he made. You should know that means he won't turn around anymore. Huge, after all what are you going to do?”

“....”

For the next time, Huge was silent.

Now he had been given a chance to atone for his mistake first, and it was right before his eyes.

Someone who always doubted his own capacity, and Huge knew that person was none other than himself.

Being an ordinary soldier forever was not to punish him, but a way to escape from reality. That was the truth because he wanted to stay away.

Huge steadied his heart, he was going to change that part of him. Staring back at Ditch with a different view he said, “Good Captain Ditch, I Huge accept this task.”

Reclining himself, Ditch smiled in satisfaction. “Make sure you bring everyone safely. You will be the one to protect them in the mission. Well, especially Ernest who incidentally is the weakest in strength.”

“Alright, I will carry out my duties as a leader as best I can. Then, I resign captain.”

“Ya.”

The door was closed but now the gloomy nuances that had perched had disappeared, a team that felt the most ideal had been formed.