365 Days Towards Halal

71# 310HMH (Jonathan's departure)

Queen took the pile of clothes she had chosen to put in her pink suitcase.

His face looked cold, he put the clothes into his suitcase and put some other items he would bring for a vacation to the Maldives.

Queen deliberately chose to take a vacation, she wanted to throw all the fatigue and problems that came to her. Including he wants to forget Raka for ever. It no longer wants to have a relationship with a man tied to a complicated past. Queen's life is already very complicated right now. Even at his age who would soon step on the head of three, made him even more fed up with all sorts of questions from those closest to him who questioned when he would marry and why he was still alone.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

There was a knock outside the Queen's door. Queen who was closing her suitcase, immediately moved to open the door of her room.

You can see Mother smiling at Queen by bringing a plate of fried bananas and a glass of hot chocolate.

"Bun," Sapa Queen replied to Mother's smile.

"Mother bring fried bananas and hot chocolate for you. Can Mother come in?"

Queen grabbed the tray of fried bananas and hot chocolate and invited Mommy to go into her room.

Mother looked around the Queen's room and then looked at Queen who put the tray on the table in her room.

"Thank you Bun" said Queen, smiling at Mother.

"Together" said Mother who moved to sit on the edge of the Queen's bed. Then, Mother looked at the suitcase lying on the floor of the Queen's room.

"You're leaving?"

"So Bun," Queen said as she grabbed the warm fried banana and ate it voraciously.

"Who's the guy?"

"Self Bun," Queen said as she continued to chew.

"Why are you Queen, you have a problem with your boyfriend?"

Queen stopped chewing. He swallowed the rest of the fried banana in his mouth and grabbed a hot chocolate to wet his mouth that felt dry.

"Queen doesn't have a boyfriend, Kok Bun" Queen said after sipping her hot chocolate.

"That's the guy.. What's-her-name? Yes raka?" Ask Mother with a probing face.

"Oh, he... She's not Queen's boyfriend" Queen said, putting her glass back on the table.

"But you guys..."

"Bun, she's not Queen's boyfriend." Firm Queen.

Mother sighed and smiled at the Queen.

"I'm sorry... Mommy thinks he's your girlfriend. Why did you suddenly want a vacation to the Maldives? Aren't you going to design Kimmy's wedding dress? Their wedding is late next month."

Queen smiled and looked at Mother carefully.

"Queen is just designing. Not making. Which makes it right, the tailor who Queen's cooperation,"

"Yes, yes, Mother asked because she felt strange, why did you leave suddenly and for a long time." Mommy said as she moved from her seat.

"Bun, man,"

"Yes?" Mother undoes her intention to leave the Queen's room.

"Thank you for asking and worrying about Queen."

She smiled and approached the Queen. He touched both Queen cheeks with both palms.

"Because you are the child of the Mother" said Mother as she kissed the top of the Queen's head and hurried to leave the Queen's room.

Queen just smiled and looked at her mother's back. Then, he let out a long sigh and went to lock the door of his room.

After she locked the door, Queen leaned against the door and stared at her suitcase filled with luggage that she would wear for two weeks on vacation in the Maldives.

Queen deliberately chose the Maldives to calm herself down. Because of the quiet atmosphere there and beautiful scenery, it may be able to offer a sense of disappointment to the circumstances that surround him.

"Well, just live what to live, forget what to forget. Live only once and I have to be happy" he murmured as he laid his body on the bed.

Queen tried to close her eyes. However, Raka's shadow is again present teasing her night. Although the Queen had insisted on forgetting Raka, but the shadow of the man continued to stick in her eyes.

"That's arghh...! Go no!" Queen sat on her bed and rubbed her face with a huff.

Queen had already cut off communication with Raka by blocking all access to Raka to contact her. It's been a week that he doesn't know about Raka and Jonathan.

Queen grabs her phone and opens a photo gallery on her phone. He looked at the photo of Raka and rubbed it slowly.

"How are you?" Said Queen with a sad face.

"How hard I tried to forget you, but somehow my heart seemed to be led to you. I'm confused Raka, maybe I'm into childhood because it's blocked all access for us to communicate. But, I hope you understand, I'm just tired. More about you and Lala. Honestly, I can't take it yet. I'm just afraid of heartache. I'm afraid I've fought and failed again."

"This time, I'm tired of fighting. I just want to fight for the man who intends to have me. Tired Raka. I'm afraid I've loved and gone back.."

Tears were dripping down Queen's cheek. He held his cell phone in his arms. Where is the photo of Raka on the screen of the phone.

"Honestly, I miss you so much...." Whisper with a witty.

Mrs Amara walked quickly towards the ICU room. Tears flowed down her cheeks without her being able to stand it. Bad news from Lala through a message, he got this afternoon. Jonathan's situation is critical.

As if unwilling to lose the chance to meet her granddaughter, Madam Amara ran down the hallway of the hospital and pulled the door of Jonathan's room in a hurry.

Jonatan was lying weakly beside Raka and Lala. Lady Amara approached her grandson slowly.

In the corner of the room was seen the mother of Lala who was crying, staring at the presence of mistress Amara with a look of dislike.

Madam Amara saw Raka's hand holding onto Jonathan's tiny hand. Raka also chanted the two sentences of the creed continuously in Jonathan's ear, which may be going away in the near future.

Tears of Raka kept flowing. Likewise with Lala who continues to rub the hair of her only child.

"Raka..."

At a glance, Raka looked at Madam Amara with her eyes moist. Then, he looked back at his baby and continued to whisper two sentences of creed in Jonathan's ear.

"Bapi, Mommy, Oma..." A weak voice called out to the people he loved.

"Joe...." Everyone in that room. All approached Jonathan who was lying helplessly on the bed.

"Jonathan love you all. Same Mami, Papi, Papi Max and Oma-Oma all," Jonathan said with a gasp of breath.

"We love Jonathan too." Lala said as she sobbed.

"I'm sorry... Jonathan has to go. We'll see you in heaven, Mami, Papi, Oma."

"Jonathan must be well, son.don't say that..." Lala said as she hugged Jonathan.

Even though she knew that her baby would have no hope, Lala was just trying to encourage her and her son's heart.

Jonathan shook his head. Tears flowed in the corner of the boy's eyes.

"Bapi, thank you. Mommy, thank you.." Jonathan said in a voice that was getting weaker.

"Joe....!" Raka called Jonathan in a panic.

It was as if Jonathan was beginning to take a hard breath.

With tears in her eyes, Raka again uttered two sentences of shahadah to release the departure of her baby, who was already on the verge of death. Jonathan's breath no longer blows.

Crying also colored the room. The room where Jonathan's been treated for months. Finally, the boy succumbed to the illness that had been tormenting him all along. Jonathan slept forever. He is seen by the people he loves, except Max, who he considers his real father. Who's gone somewhere to leave him and Lala.

Tonight, a painful night for those who love Jonathan. They must let Jonathan return to the lap of the Divine.

The memories of Jonathan were so imprinted in Raka's heart. He felt like he had Jonathan for a moment. However, he felt grateful to know his baby before Jonathan left for ever.

Death, not a single person was able to avoid it. Sooner or later, the people around us will be gone forever. Or even we ourselves who will be home in the near future. Who knows his secret?

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