365 Days Towards Halal

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Tomorrow is Queen's wedding day. Tonight, is the day the whole family gathers to pray, for the smooth running of the wedding day and the safety of Queen and Raka in the household. Queen who sat beside Mommy, looked so solemn following a series of events that senagaja her family title for herself and Raka. While Raka who had not met Queen for one week also held a lecture at her home.

The show went on so shahduly. The chanting of the holy verse that came out from the lips of the kyai and the orphans, and the prayers and hopes that were offered were so sincere and solemn. Until the Queen could not hold back her tears that continued to flow on her cheeks.

Next to Queen, Mother always rubbed the Queen's back, to calm Queen from the feelings that are certainly mixed into one. Happy, sad, heavy-hearted and impatient, so toying with Queen's feelings tonight.

For 2 hours, the event is in the title. Finally, at the end of the show. The Queen asked for forgiveness from her parents and relatives. So that nothing else will stop when Queen starts a new life.

Queen's feelings are turning blue. He sobbed to remember all his mistakes to anyone who accidentally or deliberately hurt his heart. With humility, Queen truly begs to be forgiven and given sincere blessing.

Luckily, Queen is a good person. Until there was nothing that stuck in the hearts of his parents, nor his relatives. With blessing, Queen calmed down. The show ended with a smile on Queen's lips.

After the event, Queen returned to her room. His heart was beating so fast that he could hear his own heartbeat in his quiet room. She was really nervous on the eve of her wedding day. Queen could only keep quiet and continue to pray for her good and tomorrow's event.

Dreeett..!

Hearing her phone vibrate, Queen hurriedly grabbed her phone. Sure enough, the message was from the person she was waiting for, namely Raka, her future husband.

Hey baby, is the show over?

Queen smiled and immediately replied to a message from Raka.

Thank goodness, already. At your house too? Reply Queen.

Already dong. Reply Raka.

Queen smiled again and hugged her phone with a crisp face.

Already memorized yet, Ijab Kabulnya? Reply Queen.

Not long after, Raka replied.

Already dong, God willing smoothly and one breath. For your sake, an angel of my heaven.

Queen rolled around on her bed. It was as if he had just won the lottery.

Goodgood. Reply Queen.

The queen got up from her seat and walked towards her dresser. Then, he cleaned the rest of the make-up on his face wearing toner.

Dreettt..!

Queen's phone is back on the vibrate. Queen again grabbed her phone, while continuing to clean her face.

If I'm ready for the Kabul Ijab. Are you ready for the first night? Reply Raka.

"Oh yeah, first night. What was that first night? I'm getting goosebumps." Queen Mumbles.

Queen was silent for a moment, then she gave her smile and replied to a message from Raka.

I never knew the taste of the first night. If you are asked whether you are ready or not, I don't think it should be questioned. Honestly, I'm nervous. But if it is a worship and a wife's devotion to her husband, God willing, I am ready.

Long ago, Raka did not reply to a message from Queen. Queen began to wonder why Raka did not reply to her message. I want him to call Raka. He was embarrassed and tried to think positively. He tried to think, Raka fell asleep from exhaustion.

Queen took a long breath. He put his phone down and moved from his seat. He intends to perform Isya prayer, and pray for all smoothness tomorrow.

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Raka was silent for a long time, after she received a message from Queen. He knew, the question from him, was back to himself. Queen is the virgin. He is a former sinner.

Raka rubbed her face and swallowed her saliva. Then, he closed the screen of his phone and moved to the restroom. He also took a shower immediately. After bathing, he put on his clothes and returned to the restroom to take ablution and intend to perform Isya prayers and also pray repentance.

Raka realized, he had too many unforgivable sins. In fact, he had just done the inappropriate thing by asking Queen the first night.

After ablution, Raka also held his prayer rites, and he began to pray isya and continued with prayers of repentance. On the prayer mat, Raka cried, she no longer knew how to regret what happened. Only God can take away all the feelings and sins that are in him.

Raka really continues to regret his actions, and he promises after this, he will become a better person and human being. Only took his legal wife in the eyes of God and Religion. Keep his gaze, keep his intention to truly be a good husband and priest to the Queen.

Raka continued to cry, her cries making her body shaken. His regrets exceed heaven and earth. He realized that he was just a dust grain full of sin.

"O Allah, I ask forgiveness, I ask You, O Allah. At every step, the deeds and sayings of the servant. Make a human being born again. I was really begging for mercy. The servant knows this will not erase the past of the servant, but only you are able to make all things better and the Almighty over the life and death of the servant,"

Raka prostrated herself in peerless regret. Until he fell asleep in his alphabet with a heart that began to feel light.

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The past cannot be erased. As long as we have a strong memory. In fact, even when our memory is weak, other people who remember about our bad in the past. The past will be buried with our bodies at the end of time.

However, God has a soft heart, and has unparalleled love for his people. God commands us to perform the prayer. So that we can truly realize our mistakes. To be sure, God is an opportunity-giver. Forgive, most merciful.

No one is free from sin. It's just that many people try to forget their sins just like that. In fact, there are still opportunities, and too many opportunities for us in this world.

Raka, is one of those sinful people. But at least he was asking God. For the past that may not be forgiven. He dropped his forehead, humbling himself as low as before the creator. Just for one word, "sorry" he might never hear. But it will be evident by his attitude that will be wise in his future in an action and speech.

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"Don't judge, it's God's business." - De'rini-