365 Days Towards Halal

14# His heart.. Your heart.. My liver..

For a moment, the atmosphere was so awkward when two people who had established a romance story, were reunited. Their gazes spoke, if the longing was so burning, if the love was still left in the depths of the heart. If only time could be reworked and repaired, maybe now they are in the same bed. Hands wherever they go.

However, fate is so cruel with Queen and Antoni who still hold a sense of. They are glued, staring at eyeballs trying to convey messages from the heart.

"Am, hmmmm..." Queen shook her head, trying to realize that the man standing in front of her was her past. He lowered his gaze trying to strengthen his heart, as a woman who felt heartbroken because of the man.

"How are you?" Ask Antoni.

Queen looked back at Antoni's face and tried to smile, as if she wanted to convey to Antoni, "My world is fine, after you leave.".

"Ba-ba-well," said Queen.

"Queen I miss" said Antoni, without saying anything stale before. Those words just came out without being able to hold.

Antoni is well aware that he and Queen will never be together again. But, he could not resist the yearning word that was rolling from his lips.

Queen was speechless, she really felt an old wound re-emerge in her mind.

"Queen are you alone?" Antoni asked while trying to get close to Queen.

"I-i..." Queen choked, now Antoni was standing in front of her so close. Until the fragrance of Antoni perfume that he was very favorite, smelled so clearly in his nose.

"Where's your wife's son?" Queen tried to divert the conversation. He did not want himself and Antoni to be involved in talks about their relationship that ran aground..

Antoni bowed lethargic, he did not dare to look Queen in the eyes as the girl asked about her family.

"Queen, I'm sorry. The marriage I didn't want. It's all because my parents set me up too much. Actually I have no intention and want to wait for you until Athar recovers. But my parents were impatient. He immediately betrothed me to Tasya" Antoni said.

Queen let out a long sigh, then once again she looked at the face of the man who had not been seen in her eyes for long enough.

"Whatever it is, you're already her husband." Firmly Queen, without wanting to discuss everything that has happened.

Antoni looked at Queen's eyes. Tears began to rise in her sad eyes.

"Queen, do you still love me?" Ask Antoni.

The queen sighed again and threw away her gaze.

"I'm busy, I go first huh" Queen said as she passed from Antoni's presence.

"Queen!" Antoni restrains Queen by holding the girl's hand tightly.

Queen turned her head and looked at Antoni's hand that was holding her right hand.

"Antoni, stop....." Said the Queen with a pleading face. Queen was scared, when she saw Antoni's attitude like that. He was afraid when his soul returned to wavering. For years he tried to erase all the good memories, removing Antoni's name from his mind. However, it all feels in vain if Antoni's presence in front of him with a face that pleads to him.

"I can't forget you Queen, I'm almost crazy because of all this" Antoni pleaded.

Queen chuckled, then she lowered her face and removed her hand from Antoni's hand.

"Accept your destiny, never expect anything with me. If you and your family don't respect my family asking to wait six months, how can I trust you who can't forget me? Never mind.you are now the husband of another, I do not want anyone to see us and bring up slander. I'm afraid, again I'm wrong in your family's eyes." Firm Queen.

Antoni begins to cry, he continues to hold Queen captive and apologizes to convince Queen.

"Antoni's enough!" Queen Say. Now both Queen's eyes began to redden withstanding the cries and emotions that were ready to be released.

All eyes were staring at the two of them. Queen began to feel embarrassed, because it had become the center of attention of the visitors in the Mall.

"What's this?" Said a man who ventured to interfere with the drama Antoni created in the Mall.

"That's okay Mas.." Said Queen while releasing her hand back from Antoni's grip.

"He who?" Ask the handsome and athletic looking foreign man.

"Bu-bu-no one," Queen stammered.

"I'm Raka, Queen's fiancee" the man said.

Suddenly, the Queen was flabbergasted and looked at the man she did not know.

"Tu-fiancee?" Antoni asked with a surprised face.

"Yes I'm Queen's fiancee, please don't disturb my fiancee." Strictly the man.

"Is that really Queen?" Ask Antoni.

Queen looked at Antoni, then she looked at Raka closely.

"Duh, I'm males in uber-uber same Antoni. Yes, I admit that this is my fiancee," Her inner being.

"Yes he's my fiancee, I've moved on Antoni. Our farewell leads me to a better and more patient heart. So, from now on, don't bother me again" Queen said, holding the stranger's hand and inviting him to leave in Antoni's presence.

Antoni was silent, tears kept flowing down his cheeks. His body feels stiff too. Regrets that never disappeared from his mind are now increasingly crooked. The anger towards his parents that caused him to lose Queen, again made his heart hurt.

Antoni is not in a theater at all. He still loves Queen and can't forget the girl. In fact, his wife was not able to make himself fall in love. Her love for Queen was petrified in her heart. Love is so hard to replace.

Antoni's leaning against the wall of the Mall. He wiped his tears. He endured the pain in his heart. If his parents want to listen to what he wants and not manage his life, maybe now he is happy with Queen.

With a bitter look, Antoni stared at the departure of Queen and the man who claimed to be the fiance of the girl he loved so much.

"Fiancee? Did the Queen forget me that easily?" Her muttering.

Antoni did not care about the gaze of people who thought he was whiny because he cried in the crowd. He just drowned with a broken and bitter feeling. Then he walked over to the bookstore. There, his wife and son were waiting for him.

A few minutes ago, Antoni, who was about to go to the toilet, saw Queen who had just come out of her restaurant with Queen.

As if seeing a hope, Antoni also followed Queen who turned out to also go to the toilet.

Actually all this time, Antoni could have come to Queen. However, he is embarrassed to meet the Queen and Queen's parents. He also visited Queen's office, apparently Queen has moved from her old office.

To contact Queen, he could not. The phone number and everything about Queen was deleted by her mother. In fact, his mother sent Antoni to live in his wife's hometown in Solo City. And, only 2 weeks ago Antoni moved back to Jakarta. That was why Antoni couldn't help himself when he met Queen.

It is true, for men, his body can be for anyone. He can share his love for any woman. You can say love to anyone. But, if you already feel the real love, then there is only one love in him.

"That's papa" said the little boy who was about 3 years old.

A beautiful woman with a shady face turned her head and looked at Antoni with a smile on her face. The woman was Tasya, the wife of Antoni.

"Have you been to the toilet?"

Antoni tried to smile, then he nodded without saying a word.

"Well, how are you blushing? why Mas?"

"So my eyes were dusted." Said Antoni in a flat tone of voice.

"Oh, still sick? Want to blow it?" Tasya approached and blew Antoni's eyes.

"No need. Got the book already? Let's pay" said Antoni, avoiding the hand of his wife who was preparing to touch his face. Then he took his son and went to the cashier.

In the hallway between the two bookshelves, there lived Tasya alone. His eyes looked at Antoni and their son who were walking away without caring for him.

"Either till when will you behave this cold with me Mas. What's my fault? I've been trying to be a good wife to you. I tried to give my life completely. Isn't that enough for you?" He murmured with a sad face.

During this time not only Antoni was tormented, but Tasya was tormented. He loved Antoni, who still counted his relatives. But, for almost 5 years of their marriage, Antoni's love can not be had.

Tasya walked with a gontai, following her son and husband who were already standing in front of the cashier's desk. He tried to keep smiling, even though his heart was full of wounds inscribed by Antoni. The man whose body he married, but not his heart.