365 Days Towards Halal

137# From heart to heart

"What is your dream after this?" Raka asked, as they were having a casual conversation by the beach.

Queen who from earlier kept staring at the application ring from Raka, turned her eyes towards her lover. Then, he smiled with happy-looking eyes.

"The dream? Hmmmm, what yes..." Queen lowered her happy face.

"Yes, I just want to know" Raka said.

"I want to marry you. Have children, and live happily. That's it," said Queen.

Raka smiled and gently stroked Queen's cheeks.

"Other than that?" Ask her again.

"I'm not grandiose, I just want that" Queen said.

"Where are you going on your honeymoon?" Raka asked with a flushed face.

Queen gave her smile and looked back at Raka.

"Where, as long as you are,"

Raka laughed at Queen's words. He took Queen's hand and walked along the beach.

"How many children do you have?" Tanya Raka who returned smiled shyly.

"Hmmm, child..? how much, whatever."

"If at ten?" Ask Raka with a dirty face.

Queen rounded her eyes and looked at Raka in disbelief.

"Yes, not so," Queen laughed amusedly.

"And the sedation" Goda Raka.

Queen smiled and pinched Raka's cheek.

"Ouch..." Raka rubbed her cheeks and laughed amusedly.

"If you can, don't be that much" Queen said, throwing her eyes at a fishing boat seen from a distance.

"I want to have more children. Because I'm the only anal, I feel lonely at home. No sister was disturbed, no brother disturbed me. Life without a sibling, it's really bad,"

Queen looked back at the man she loved. Then, he smiled.

"Five how? It's my age...."

"What's with age?" Ask Raka.

"Yes... I've been thirty years. I didn't know I'd be trusted to be a mother or not." Queen's face started to look gloomy.

Raka sighed and rubbed the back of Queen's hand..He stopped his steps and stood in front of his lover.

"Don't be pessimistic, forty-year-old women are also pregnant. In fact, even over forty years of age existed," Raka tried to encourage Queen.

Queen smiled and lowered her face.

"I want, we don't procrastinate to have a baby." Said the Queen with a hopeful look.

"Not going to." Sahut Raka's.

"When not pregnant how?"

Raka looked at Queen and slipped Queen's hair blocking her pretty face, behind the girl's ears

"I told you, don't be pessimistic. We're trying to find the best doctor to get a baby."

Queen lowered her face and tried to smile.

"You promise, won't leave me?" Queen asked with worried eyes.

"I promise" Sahut Raka.

"If I can't give you a child how?" Ask her again.

Raka smiled and hugged Queen tightly.

Queen gave her smile and looked at Raka with happy eyes.

"Hmmm, I'm sorry to ask, have you ever...."

"What?" Queen asked curiously.

"Not so," said Raka who looked agitated.

"Doing it?" Terka Queen's.

Raka also looks wrong.

"My family and religion do not justify doing it out of wedlock" Queen said.

Raka was speechless, she felt guilty for trying to ask such a sensitive thing. She has been shown to have a child with Lala. Raka bowed and her face flushed in embarrassment.

"Why were you like that?" Ask Queen.

Raka raised her face and looked at Queen closely.

"I'm sorry, I asked a no-no. So that our happy day is interrupted by my inappropriate question" Raka said.

"No problem. You haven't answered my question,"

Raka let out a long sigh and lowered her face again. He sat down in a chair on the beach.

"I've told you nothing I've hidden from you. I used to not follow religion. My life is full of freedom and there are no precepts of the proper norms of my parents."

Queen sat down beside Raka and stared straight at the stretch of beach in front of her.

"With you, I'm trying to change my view of freedom. You are the first woman to try to keep me protected from bad things. I also began to learn to survive, from all the hidden desires."

"I'm sorry, if I ever kissed you, I'm sorry if I tried to lure you a few times" Raka said.

Queen smiled and looked at Raka who looked guilty.

"It's okay" said Queen.

"Are there any other than Lala..."

Raka again lowered her face upon hearing the question from Queen.

"How many times?" Queen asked curiously.

Raka was unable to answer the question from Queen.

"Do I deserve you?" Raka asked back while looking at Queen with eyes full of regret.

Queen lowered her gaze and looked at the ring that Raka had just given her.

Queen recalls the advice of Andra's father. When everyone has a past. We have no right to judge others. Most importantly right now, the person changes, and how serious the person is about changing for the better.

Everyone has sinned by their own story. In fact, the Queen has sins that no one knows about. The mother, Gunawan's father, or anyone else.

The queen looked beside him. Where Raka sat and mute.

Queen smiled and clasped Raka's hand tightly.

"Let's go with Bismillah,"

Raka was silent, she looked at Queen with a harsh look.

"Thank you Queen, thank you" Raka said as she gently dipped Queen's handbooks.

"Never talk about the past again. I'm afraid it will make us doubt. If you really want to step up and intend well, in the future, there should be no discussion like this," said Queen.

Raka nodded in agreement, apologizing once more to Queen.

As a man who once lived a free life, sometimes there are questions that are kept to the couple that he will take seriously. How his past, he will question also about the past of his partner. Not because they do not want to accept, just that the feeling of curiosity continues to be urgent in the heart. Not because they know, but they want to leave. Not at all. Just curious and want to know more about his partner.

However, the fault of many people is, inquisitively, but it ends in heartache, after knowing it. A few more, not wanting to know. Afraid of being disappointed. But, back again, an adult relationship is an open relationship with one mission and vision. That is, a better future.

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"Pardon your past, accept and understand your companion's past. Focus on one goal. That is, a happy life." :) - De'rini-rini