365 Days Towards Halal

Prologues

How do I say goodbye to what we had?

The good times that made us laugh.

Outweigh the bad's.

I thought we’d get to see forever.

But forever’s gone away.

It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

The song, titled It’s so hard to say goodbye to yesterday from Boyz II Men, sounded very painful in the ears of Queen who was soaking in the bathtub. He closed his eyes and permeated every song lyrics that were almost similar to the story he was going through.

Queen is forced to break her relationship with Antoni, her future husband who has filled her days since she was in high school.

Tears rolled from the corner of Queen's beautiful eyes. Actually, he felt it was hard to part with Antoni. However, all that he had to do because Antoni did not understand at all the situation he was facing.

Queen's only sister was hit by an accident that resulted in her being paralyzed, until she had to be treated for months in the hospital. Not only that, his younger brother named Athar had to do recovery therapy in neighboring Singapore and just left a few weeks ago.

Of course it becomes a burden of mind by Queen who will soon be married in 2 months. Hearing that there had been no progress on Athar, Queen decided to postpone the marriage of her and Antoni. Because he felt he did not want to get married without the presence of his sister and mother who was accompanying Athar therapy in Singapore.

"But Mas, our marriage must be postponed. My sister is sick, Mother is also still in Singapore. If the marriage is still carried out, the time of Mother and Athar did not present Mas?" Said Queen who was arguing with her future husband at one of the Japanese restaurants.

"But Queen, my parents can't wait long either. We just marry, yes, without the presence of your Mother and Sister, there is still your Father Queen," Antoni tries to convince Queen to continue their marriage without the presence of sister and Queen Mother who do not know how long will stay in Singapore.

"That's how you say it? You only need what you want, but you don't think about how I feel, Mas?" Queen asked with an incredulous look.

"But Queen..."

"Mas, it's better to fail to marry than to marry a selfish person like you !" Said Queen as she moved out of her chair.

"Queen !" Call Antoni.

Queen did not care, she kept running out of the restaurant.

Antoni chases after Queen and pulls the girl's arm.

"Queen, listen to me first !"

"What's? What else do I need to listen to?"

"Queen Please, don't be like this !"

"Then what? You want to impose your will on me? Can't do it ! Family is number one to me. I want them to be present at our wedding. If you can't accept it, I don't mind ending our relationship !" Said Queen while letting go of Antoni's hand violently. Then he got into his car and left Antoni in front of the restaurant.

Tears trickled down the cliff of Queen's cheek. The beautiful girl looked upset by the circumstances. How not, her future husband is too imposing a will. In fact, he had told Antoni, if the marriage was postponed for another six months. However, her decision was about all-out by Antoni and her future husband's family.

"I'm sorry, maybe we're not a match." His murmur interrupted his increasingly bitter cries.

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At that time also the shadow of the face of his mother and sister just his puppet also crossed the mind of Queen. He immediately pulled his head out of the puddle and sat there silent.

"Yes Allah... Oh God..." His mind continues to name the creator. How short of a decision he would choose if he died in vain just because of heartbreak with Antoni.

Queen got out of the bathtub and grabbed a clean towel and stepped out of the bathroom.

Queen grabbed her phone after she finished getting dressed. He intends to contact his mother to announce the decision he has taken. He has tried to be completely sincere and there will be no marriage between himself and Antoni.

The tone of the call went off several times, when Queen contacted her mother who was in Singapore. Shortly thereafter, the Mother received a call from Queen and greeted Queen with joy. However, the mother began to realize something bad happened to Queen.

The Queen's voice did not sound as excited as usual. The cheerful Queen, now sounded like a crying person. His voice was hoarse and sounded slow.

"What's the Queen? What the hell happened to you?" Ask the mother from the end.

"It's okay bun, Queen just wants to say if Queen doesn't get married to Antoni" Queen said bluntly.

"What !"

"Can't we Queen?" Connect the Mother with a tone of voice that sounds sad and worried.

"It's okay Bun, maybe not a mate," said Queen who tried to calm down.

"This is all because of Mother Queen?" Ask the mother with the end of the sound.

"Not really Bun, this is just fate" said Queen who held back her tears.

"Pardon Mommy yes son. because your Mother so failed to marry." I heard sobs from the end there.

"It's just Mommy's destiny, it's okay. Maybe the Queen will meet a better man" said Queen, who tried to calm her mother.

"Mother is really sorry, Mommy should not have brought Athar to Singapore. Mother really regrets Queen."

"It's Bun, if it's the best thing for Athar, we have to try to get Athar to walk normally again. It really has nothing to do with what happened. Queen and Antoni are not a match. Queen has accepted everything, sincerely and does not dispute it all. Importantly, at least Queen is not stuck in marriage with the wrong person. That's just Bun, the positive side that Queen believes in," Queen lied a little to cover up the core of the problem of her and Antoni's failed marriage, so that the Mother did not constantly feel guilty to her.

"Yes the Queen, if that is your decision, what can Mother do? Most importantly, you are sincere and can live better. Mother always wishes you the best."

"Yes Bun, thank you. Mommy and Athar are healthy there.... Queen love you two" Queen said.

"You too, son..."

"Yes Bun, Assalamualaikum..."

"Goddessalam.."

Queen breathed heavily. He put his phone on the nightstand and grabbed a photo of himself and Antoni from the table.

"Yes, we're not fools. Let's close the book and start the story of each one" he said, throwing the photo into the trash can next to his bedroom door.