The Story of My Time

Episode 54

I saw his eyes closed, I was under the covered fur carpet, it was comfortable to blame the tv, I reduced the volume of the tv so as not to wake the ripa'i

I watched half an hour of television and I was tired of coming over, and there was nothing I could do to cook nor was there any ingredients I could cook, until I just dropped my head on the table and looked at the handsome face that looked calm in his sleep

Sometimes I wonder about ripa'i, why he is so gentle with me, my family, and the people close to me, if he is just because he is my lover, never once did he want to argue with me even though I know sometimes he was upset because of my actions, but still responded with a smile as if there was never any frustration.

Until my drowsiness came and I fell asleep, when I woke up I saw ripa'i looking at me, I lifted my face and ripa'i smiled at what she was thinking

" It's great to see your peaceful face while sleeping "woe, and I just returned with a wry smile

" Yes I took a shower first after that just drove you home" he said as he stood up from his seat and passed his room

While waiting for the ripa'i I looked around the middle room of the ripa'i, a smile I saw when I saw the photo on the table and on the wall, notah when ripa'i took the picture and printed it, there are so many pictures of me when I am alone or with him even when I am with my friends

" How doesn't it look so pretty" she said as she approached me

" It's over "instead of answering I asked back, ripa'i smiled and nodded

" Well I'll take you home like you don't feel at home lingering with me" he said, straight away I put on my flat face a little annoyed also with joking ripa'i, I know he was just kidding

" Kidding, it doesn't need to be like that come on" he said as he took me out

We stepped out of the place, I'm good ripa'i just silent when in the car until ripa'i stop the car I'm still silent, I'm still silent, he got out of the car and walked to a place to eat not far from the roadside, it turns out he was very sorry for my taste, really even though I have worked and already have savings but still when looking for food is still on the roadside, why does it taste different when eating roadside cuisine like I am eating at home

Unlike my two sisters, they prefer restaurant food than the roadside, they think it is very good and I think ordinary

Until ripa'i returns I don't get out of the car choosing to stay in the car

" Why don't you ask me if I want to buy food" I said when Pai got in the car

" Why should you ask, instead of you liking this food the most "he replied

It's true he said that, but I got a message from Indri Fitri to come home with food not to mention the food that was bought by assistant ripa'i, yes, until me and ripa'i came assistant ripa'i not allowed to go because in addition to waiting for ripa'i I also entrusted my sisters

" It's okay, it's just that at home there are also many Fitri foods that carry "my answer

" Oh yes, yes, then this is for us he'mh "cock it

Hah, that much food is true, where it can run out if only me and him eat it, but do not want to talk much I just agree

The car returned at moderate speed, right up to my place

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" Assallamelallaikum" I said as my door opened

" Wa'allaikum sallam" replied the person inside the house

I see my two sisters are busy with their own books, happy to see my brothers diligently studying because it means I am not in vain to send them high school, he said, I also saw assistant ripa'i join them, it doesn't matter to me as long as they're not distracted

" The king of my brothers is "cock ripa'i as he approaches them

" Who's sister who is "from Fitri, I shake my head, why he can one character with me first is not so

Ripa'i just smiled, and came to sit next to me

" Just look, if you can ask for this tth, you will send out the country to "canda ripa'i

" It's really "tanya ripa'i back

Lakh lakh mana maybe jug ripa'i seriously want to send my sisters that far

" If you but learn, yes papa, yes tea "nya while asking for Fitri approval

" Ogah "of Fitri's origin and it managed to make a small laugh from ripa'i

No more teasing my sister now she's teasing me

" Would there be another ripa'i later in your family "the candle

" What the hell is "my weak

" Since it seems like your two younger sisters are the same as you, inheriting this kind of tth attitude is not impossible if it will be another ripa'i who will be a struggle with me "

Not responding to ripa'i words I just left him to the room to clean up

Long enough I was in the room, even very reluctant to get out maybe because of fatigue in my body, sometimes I think when this tiredness bears sweet fruit but the thought disappears when I remember what my situation used to be now

A bitter smile appeared on my lips, why did it feel so tired - what made my mind so tired and my body responded, when my mind feels tired, my body feels very weak, even just to pinch sometimes I can't

Believe me, no matter how strong a woman remains she will not be able to continue to survive, there are times when they are no longer able to bear all the burdens but there is no place to pour them out, he said, then only tears become her impingement,

Yeah, sometimes I cry alone, don't want my sister to know and think that my two sisters are a burden to me when I see me cry, then I will just cry in the room just right at night when I come home from work and the body feels tired,

And no matter why at this time my chest feels tight, like no where if my family used to be well enough maybe I will feel how it feels in love and in the care of parents, as if my family had been well enough, even when my sister or I are sick we will only take care of each other because if you expect a mother to take care of it will be very difficult, because mom has to get permission first and her salary will be cut anyway, then we prefer to take care of each other

I cried, my heart screamed no one really knew I was always waiting for the moment when all my brothers were successful and able to raise the level of our parents.

Maybe I felt like I was in kmar too long until one of them caught up with me in my room

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I heard the door keep knocking because I didn't open it, I can assure you that it is not my sisters because if my sister after knocking and not getting an answer then she will enter but this is not until I hear the voice of the person behind the door calling me

" Rinjani, is all right "ripa'i voice

I was eager to step in to open the door but at this moment my position was sobbing, why the more I could stand the stuffing felt increasingly crowded

I heard the door open, ripa'i came up to me, his worried face, maybe he was worried about something with me

The closer the pie the more powerless I hold the stuffing, until unconscious I hug the ripa'i, at first ripa'i just silent not returning my embrace but when I tighten the embrace then he replied

" Shed, I know for sure the feeling of fatigue that you can't bear anymore, cry me here as your back "soft as I rub my head slowly

I didn't reply to ripa'i, still trying to calm down.