The Story of My Time

Episode 127's

Almost all the guests have disbanded, leaving only a few relatives and friends who are not married, while for ojah and pupu, too, they've come home with my friends from the city.

" Tea, Jani is tired, Jani rest first yes "my love to my tths who are still chatting with others

Ripa'i glanced at me, she looked at me pity maybe she knew I was exhausted.

" Cealah, the new bride wants to say "caca slur, I turned and deliberately added a little joke

" Of course, let alone the newlyweds waiting if not the first night, not so "my words as I glanced at the ripa'i at the end of the sentence, ripa'i chuckled he understood that I was just joking

" Yes I have been first, and "I continued to talk afterwards directly to the room, it feels like I want to immediately lay my tired body and immediately fall asleep.

I don't know how many hours I've been asleep but when I opened my eyes, I found Ripa'i playing with her phone, what time is this why she is still playing cell phone, he said, I also glanced at the clock on the wall which turned out to be at 3pm before dawn.

I got out of bed, approaching the ripa'i who was sitting casually on the long bench that was in my room

" Why wake up? " Ask when I realized I was near him, not answer but I asked back

" Why haven't you slept? " I asked back, she smiled and gave me an answer that I didn't understand

" I'm afraid to disturb your sleep "he replied

" You mean, how could it bother me to fall asleep

" You sure if I sleep next to you, I'll just fall asleep? " wanted

" Maybe I'll hug you or more who can disturb your sleep" he said again, I just silently responded to it, how could I forget it, how could I forget it, he's a man and even now I'm a pity, so what he said could be true

" Alright, I've woken up so you can sleep "I said, pity ripa'i he must also feel tired like me

" And then you? " ask

" I'm going to the kitchen, maybe there's something I can do there" I said originally, but got a strange smile from ripa'i

" Surely, were you trying to avoid me" he said, his tired eyes were already so visible on his handsome face, I felt sorry for him that he should just fall asleep, if afraid to wake me up, he can sleep on the bench he sits on

"No, go to sleep quickly you look so exhausted "I softly said that he would close his eyes

" Take "the door, feel sorry to see his tired eyes I also agree with his words.

He led me to bed, put me to sleep and covered me with a blanket, my feelings were not because there was a feeling of fear, tension and I don't know what else.

Ripa'i also laid her body next to me and then lifted the blanket up to her chest, closed her eyes, then fell asleep maybe.I tilted my head to glance at her, it was a calm look on his face that I think he had completely fallen asleep.

I also close my eyes but cannot fall asleep again, because I am afraid I will miss the dawn that will soon come.

I thought of looking at the calm face of ripa'i that looked peaceful in his sleep, so I tilted my body and looked at that face, in my murmur.

" How many girls used to sleep next to you, how many girls want you, but why do you even want me who is only a shadow if your side "murm me by continuing to look at that face

" You know what shadows mean to me, there are but invisible, only people really want to see the shadows, that's what I am, if one day I let you down, if one day you get bored with me, then what can a shadow like me do, not much and you should know it "murm back, I murmured, either I lament the situation or feel myself unworthy of ripa'i

As I was about to extend my hand to sweep the hair that covered his forehead, I pared back in fear that he would wake up, but my hand was drawn and led to hold his face, I was surprised that I thought he was asleep it wasn't.

" What is that question that's on my mind? " She asked softly after that kissed my hand.

" I've never fucked any girl, if during High School I was famous for my jerk, not that not on the girls, but because I who can't a day just don't make a tantrum, and because of that I get the nickname jerk from bang herdi "he explained, I just quietly listen while fighting against him

" And as for girls, I never thought they were lovers just an outlet for the loneliness I felt, and I never slept with girls other than now" she said

" When I helped you out of the raging bang herdi, wasn't it because you wanted to,, ah "I couldn't go on with my words which I thought was impolite

" Forward" he said, continuing to kiss my hand

" No need "I answered

" When did I do that? " Many

" Once, obviously I am happy when I remember that, and now my happiness is increasing because you are mine now" he said

I just found out that Ripa'i has this side, spoiled, even what she doesn't usually talk much about now I can hear her talking about herself

" Are you happy too "he asked me which I answered with a smile

Ripa'i pulled my back neck to get close to her, after which, she kissed my forehead for a long time and went on the lips making me uncomfortable in this position.

I let him, just feeling every kiss he gave me on my lips, cheeks, eyes, even nose and lastly he peeked back at my old forehead.

" Sleep there is still time to fall asleep" I said persuading him to rest

" It's 3 o'clock now, it feels responsibility later after the dawn prayer I will sleep, and now I just Inging hugged my wife" he said, then pulled me in his arms, she kept kissing my forehead but I just kept quiet, what else could I do.

I did not feel the morning ripa'i movement that I thought he was asleep then I tried to lift my head want to see it but, ripa'i instead*******my lips, gently and warmly. But when the kiss came down on my neck I prevented it, she looked at me and smiled at me.

" I know you're not ready, and I understand that. I won't do it as long as you're not ready, believe me I just want to fuck you, let go of the longing that feels like killing me "softly said, with closed eyes he's back pecking at my lips, then my neck, then, I felt amused and wanted to laugh this oath for the first time for me.

Ripa'i stopped her action and shared a small laugh with me, after which she just held me back and told me what was the reason behind her accelerating our marriage.

I can't stop thinking, if there is such a woman, why she is so bravely self-destructive just for the ambition of having, believe me I don't see the love of her, all I see is the ambition of wanting to have ripa'i only.

" If all that happens, it means I have to let you marry her "when I say

" I'm not a coward, if that happens I will inevitably have to take responsibility "he said

" even if I have to let go of me "my word returned

" Who said I'd let you go "he replied

" If you marry glenca, then I'll leave not so "I said

" I won't let that happen, because my only woman is you "

" Wrong, if that happens then it's not just me, but glenca, and I can't be selfish then I have to get away from you" I said

" If you walk away from me, who will you choose? Anta, he, are you sure "he replied while asking

" why? Isn't he the same as you, love me and be able to understand me "when I answer but it turns out ripa'i seriously respond to him

" So as long as I'm away from you, you get affection from her" she said, taking off her arms

" It is fitting that you never miss me" he said, folding his hands across his chest

" Honestly, did he ever do anything to you "he asked by looking at me fixedly

" you mean? " Let me go back

" Hugging you, or even more "he said whether it was just the origin of the talk or the contents of his mind that he poured out

I turned my body around from him, not liking what he said. Is it possible all this time that's what he thought about me and Anta.

Ripa'i tried to hug me from behind maybe she understood that I was upset because of what she said.

" I'm sorry, I've never doubted you, even if it's true that she hugged you or even kissed you that doesn't matter to me, because I'm going to erase that hug and that kiss, too, tell me where he kissed you "he said there was a dislike tone from him

" Ripa'i, how do you know me, and how far do you understand me until you ask me such a thing "I replied, I got up and was about to leave that room I felt claustrophobic with what Ripa'i said. But his hand prevented me, forcing me back into his arms.

I just kept quiet when he hugged me it felt like he didn't want to make a sound, until the ripa'i who spoke.

" I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I'm sorry "he said and I just kept quiet, I tried to let go of the hug choosing to sit on the bench.