The Story of My Time

Episode 115's

Somehow it must be how else so that I can always think positively, all the way audah I do even I had time to go from the side of ripa'i and start everything without him however, I did not, again and again I can only go back to him never to see the others.

" It's late, I'd better go home" he said after he finished looking at me.

I smiled, nodded to say his words, he was right this evening I also felt tired and my drowsiness began to come.

He stood up from his seat and looked at the house.

" what else is sleeping? Why it's quiet "he said when he didn't see anyone in the house.

" Maybe "my answer and he smiled, I was a little surprised if he could not smile once before responding to my words.

" Mmm, then I'll say goodbye! Oh he is, maybe we will not see each other for a long time so don't miss me " she said

" Of course I'll miss you "my reply

" Do not want to hug me "he said again, without warning I immediately embrace it.

She returned my embrace, a little while I hugged her shedding the fear of losing her.

" If it's like this, it seems like you don't want me to go " said ripa'i without taking off her arms.

After I felt calm, I let go of my embrace, lowered my head in shame. Honestly I did want to embrace ripa'i from a long time ago but, my shame and prestige greatly dominate me even more, I always remember every teaching taught by my pre teacher be it my teacher, ngajiku, school, even my martial arts teacher, they say that dating is not allowed anything else if I hug, kiss, so I have to be able to keep my limits. Unfortunately I also do not want to be hypocritical, when ripa'i hugged me and even kissed me, I smiled inexplicably, there is a feeling that I can not explain through words just through a smile.

Ripa'i left, I kept looking at the path that left nothing even if it was just the shadow, wrong! The street left a trail of ripa'i steps that left my house.

I went back to my room, after I realized my view on the street was empty.

I put my tired body on my old bed, nothing changed even my bed I did not replace with a new one, yes, maybe because I did not have time to think about it either, because a lot of money matters more than that.

I glanced at the clock on the wall of my room, showing it at eleven o'clock in the evening, I was worried about my brother but because the pitri had already told me that my brother's condition was much better then I also chose to close my eyes.

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Pitri vov's

Tonight I accompanied my elder brother, replacing Rinjani tea, after yesterday he was the one guarding us.

I did not want to make rinjani tea worried so I gave him the news that the condition of my brother is better so that Rinjani tea is not too worried, because there is too much burden in his heart.

There's been too much of a burden that he carried himself from a time where he should only know playing but be different from him.

In Junior High School, Rinjani tea must be able to take care of her younger siblings even she is like a second mother to us, and in High School, in the past, teh Rinjani school while working to find extra money in order to help the family finances, whereas in those days he should only focus on his school but he divided his time for many things, during the tea lecture Rinjani was like a worker even though he was a student. I never imagined that if I was the one occupying his position, could I be as wise as him, could I be as tough and as strong as him, and could I have as much patience as him, I guess Takan could.

She always smiles when I know she's a burden.

I always wanted to be like him, even though I knew I didn't have the intelligence I had, I didn't have the scales but I was sure I could surpass them and would carry the burden someday.

My admiration increased after hearing the story from Julian, yes he is! Now I don't call him brother anymore because of our current relationship. Not that I disrespected him, but he himself asked me to name only when calling him.

Julian also told me about him who once asked me to be his girlfriend, even he said at that time he asked him to be his life companion, what Julian thought at the time was that I didn't have a boyfriend, because I never told him about romance, nor did he ever say anything about his life, and it succeeds in impressing Julian on her and wants to make her a lover.

Julian also said he was very surprised to learn my identity, which he knew was only the son of a farmer and the mother of an employee who earned little but could continue education, he said, he doesn't know, but to get that scholarship I have to keep draining his brain so that what he wants is achieved.

Julian also said that he never thought that I had a lover who could be told from the upper class that I didn't understand.

Just seeing that alone can make Julian amazed, what if he knows all the history of my journey to get to the point like now.

He also doesn't know how my romance tth story that I feel is quite complicated.

Not only from Julian I listened to my story during his college years until now, I listened to many stories also from other friends, I can conclude, if they have any admiration for Rinjani tea.

And at this time it seems like the romance story is not going well, especially after hearing the explanation from ka ripa'i lover.

At first I was surprised, when ka ripa'i called but never picked up by Rinjani tea, when he chat was not also reply, I know it from ka ripa'i itself.

So I ventured to ask the truth, who knows I can help them.

"Believe me, many men want to be my tth lover, but he only believes in his feelings for one man yes it's ka ripa'i"

That's the word I gave ka ripa'i when he asked, could it be that I already have another man in his heart as his successor.

There are indeed some men who I feel are worthy enough and good enough to replace ka ripa'i, but that I don't think I know if according to my tth.

Back to my tth.

I always thought a lot about her, if she married ka ripa'i and gave me a new niece, it would be like what her son's attitude, hopefully like his father, would be, because I saw a warm private ka ripa'i unlike my tth, cold, as if her heart was frozen.

I also imagined, if later their child was born would definitely follow in the footsteps of his mother, how not! Rinjani tea surrounded by people who are good at martial arts even I just learn martial arts for free, because taught by my tth friend, how will my tth son yes.

But all that I patis back, how he will give me a niece is a proposal ka ripa'i only always rejected.

I also often think, how much savings! Because he can always divide the money, for charity, organization, for the cost of my education and Indri, for mother and father, even he also made my brother a workshop.

While I know he works in the company mas Rendi only as an employee, but the period he paid employees can be that much, especially if donating, not the little money he spent from his savings. But if you keep thinking about it and never get the answer I can go crazy, so I just put that thought aside, anyway Rinjani said the important thing is not illegal money, and I believe in him.