The Story of My Time

Episode 133

Because it was too cool various stories with my sister, I forgot that I was called by my mother to eat even the hunger was no longer there. Brother listened to all my stories, even he took me by storm.

" It's time magrib, want to worship together here "gag my sister, tth my sister-in-law after picking up the children she immediately went into the kitchen she said she wanted to warm the cooking that was cold.

" Mmmh, Jani wants to feel worship with Abang Jani himself even Abang who believes "my response

" So when you get ready first, and tell your tth to prepare another face" he said and I nodded

We worship together at my sister's house, it feels peaceful and quiet my mind has been doing that.

When I finished and taught my sister to take us to eat, I smiled, how could I forget my hunger this afternoon when I was with my sister when I was really hungry.

" We eat yuk "tth take brother-in-law to us who are still sitting in front of the tv

" Yuk, Brother had also taken a meal, but Jani chose to sit here with them "my words and got a smile from my brother-in-law

Until the meal is over and I'm content playing with this harmonious family, I think.

I went back home, went straight into the room because the time had come, finished with that I immediately went to bed and closed my eyes after previously telling my sister that I did not go home.

Until I completely fell asleep and encountered dreamland.

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Anta vov's

Almost a month from the wedding of Dena Rinjani or more familiar Rinjani, I still think about it when I know it should not be because she has become the wife of another man. But as long as I don't bother them, just thinking about it I think it's okay.

You want to know how I feel when I find out that the girl I've been wanting is getting married, and I know very well who succeeded in filling his heart may even have become a idol to him.

That guy was none other than ripa'i, yes that's how we called his name ripa'i, if only he hadn't come to our school then maybe I was the one who had the girl, but it was also my fault that I did not have the courage to say that I liked it because I thought too soon I was afraid that he would reject me.

But in reality, ripa'i first expressed his feelings which I thought was just a joke, though, and what I heard about him was that he was brutal enough to make me think that he would have long held the status of Rinjani's lover, but in fact, he did, although I waited a long time for them to separate but it never happened even now they are married.

My heart aches, it feels like I almost cry if I don't remember the struggle with ripa'i, even thought Takan came because I thought I wouldn't be able to see him, but I don't want to leave this opportunity, maybe after this I won't see him again, because I'm going to leave this country and start a new business with Jian.

I didn't think I could be so stupid about this, how not, I've always believed that Rinjani would be mine when I knew ripa'i wouldn't be able to take it off, if he wanted to he could have picked the woman who was always after him, I know that without having to ripa'i tell me.

Now I feel empty in my day, wrong, maybe in my life.

Because so far I've never tried to open my heart to another woman, even to a yanah even though the woman I know loves me and wishes I could always be by her side, but really I never gave hope to him even to others because my heart was imprinted on Rinjani, even if I wanted to maybe I could forget what else in college we were apart for quite a while and I'm sure it would kill my feelings for her if I wanted to.

Now I can only let her be happy with her husband, and live the life she's always wanted. O he, I remember his words that feel tired but can not give up, feel like going home, but there is no provision that will be carried.

But now I'm sure he'll be fine with the people he loves.

When I was at the airport, only Yanah took me, she smiled sweetly and said to me.

" Take care of yourself, make sure you're okay, and hopefully you meet the woman you love there and take care of her if you find her" she told me

Not happy with the words, instead I feel sad, as if he does not want to love me anymore, stupid, not me who wants it, I hope he does not expect me again, I hope he does not expect me again, but why did I feel like I didn't like what he said just now.

" If you don't look after him maybe you'll lose him again, like when you lost Rinjani" he said

I looked at him closely, did he know all my feelings for Rinjani, yes maybe he knew that because he did not just know me.

" Mmmh, and may you also find the best man who can make you happy "my lead and get a weird smile from him

" I'm leaving, thank you for taking me and accompanying me" I said and chose to leave

It's not meant to be with him, it's just that I don't want him to expect more from me, because all this time the closeness between us was just a formality.

I left the country, leaving behind all the memories I had, with a calm feeling I try to close my eyes hoping when I wake up everything is finished but unfortunately it can not feel too difficult maybe later slowly I will be able to forget everything.

" If you were for me, then I'm sure as far as I run from you we'd meet, and if that time came I'd hold you. I'd let you loose "