The Story of a Broken Man
71. The Unwanted Child
Feeling a little heavy, Joseph left his hometown. Accompanied by the fog that still leaves the cold Yusuf motorbike after saying a few words that are actually not too important to Ilyas.
A new journey in life will begin after this. Mumpung now also no longer have a partner, Yusuf hopes in a new place will find someone who can and really can be married for whatever reason. He was determined not to date for many more years. For what is also to waste time with the soul mate of others, it feels like a waste .
Maybe it's good this time to come directly to his house, actually Joseph this time wants it so. But if for example met directly invited to marriage it feels like a bit how it is too. Surely the girl will think of strange things. That's for sure, it can't be not.
The worst thing might be in nature, maybe it would be considered strange even maybe he could stay away. Joseph was confused himself. I want it to be straight sat set like people, but I don't think this is possible for him. That's how he thought.
Especially for his size. Joseph is self-conscious with himself who is always hesitant in deciding things. It was his ugliness, only he really could not escape from such an attitude. Instead of trying once, he tried many times but always failed again . Maybe everything has become a self-suratan, willing to be changed after all it has become his natural instinct.
While being engrossed in thinking about how to get a partner, out of nowhere suddenly appeared a young man who seemed to be trying to crash himself. Joseph who realized his existence immediately braked suddenly. He almost fell off his bike.
"If you look around!" with great restraint on his emotions Joseph said a little shouting.
"I'm sorry, not intentionally" he replied.
"If you want to die, you don't have to name people. If I get hit by you, I'll die, I'll get hit too. You're so good, I have to take care of this, not to mention if your family doesn't accept it . Even going to jail I'll have you no responsibility!" I don't know what made him so, Yusuf unconsciously nagged.
"I'm sorry again, bang" said the man again.
"Mending we stop first, mumpung Padang food stall looks. We're chatting over there. It's good to just say sorry," Not usually Yusuf nagging to all his.
They went to the place where Joseph meant. After ordering food he immediately asked about this and it mumpung circumstances around deserted.
"I'm sorry about that. I was carried away by a short thought of wanting to kill myself when there was a motorbike through his intention I wanted to crash myself," when asked the young man replied that.
"If you want to die immediately you crash yourself into a car or bus. The motor has no effect at all. Why do you want to kill yourself all?" Still with a nag Yusuf said.
"I was confused, my parents until now did not want to admit me as his son. They say I'm not a kid on purpose. And if they don't do me, there won't be."
"That's patient. People sometimes like that. It was good that they were hardened, just so they did not want to take care of it," Joseph softened a little.
"If your parents didn't say why did they grow up?"
"I've been with Grandpa all this time. I was a long time anyway, I passed the SD I immediately misah because the pain is said to continue. Why did it fit in the poison so I didn't die?"
"My parents used to say that if they were pregnant they tried to have a miscarriage, but apparently still alive today" he explained.
"Rather than killing yourself, you go where you go. Lupain your parents, actually looks like a bad boy but if in fact it is not considered yes to what?" Joseph gave advice. It was actually a bit perverse to hear, but maybe he thought it was the best thing that the young man could do.
"But if you want to die please, but do not I also be a scapegoat . It's delicious in you it's not good in me" continued Yusuf. He did not want to provide another solution because he thought it was useless. If you want to die, please.
"But mending don't die just yet. At least until the completion of the first night ritual to know the taste of the pleasure of the world," continued Joseph again. His advice was actually true, but somehow it sounded a bit like that.
"Yes, thank you for the advice. Next time I won't bother you, brother," it seems this young man is starting to get guidance.
"I follow the proposal of the first brother. Why hope it stays the same. Though I also never burden them, but why yes .." he said again.
"That's good. Find your own happiness, if you say disobey the same angels do not need to be horrified. If your story was honest, you had good reason to reject their argument. If you could just know your grandfather is alive?"
"Udah died a month ago. Now I occupy his house alone. Actually a little far from here, just because of the envy of seeing other people can still feel the complete family life so I came back here to ask for recognition from yesterday my parents. But it turns out, actually I've been trying to sincerely face the worst reality. But it turns out I'm not as strong as I imagined, '" she replied. His voice sounded sad.
"Life without them I'm used to it, but every time I see people gathering with their parents I feel jealous when I see them" he continued.
"Not to worry anymore, bro. I also lost my parents. My mother left me when I was a child . He seems to have eaten another man's love. What matters is how it goes forward. If the time has come that we cannot repeat the same mistakes as them" Joseph responded to his curses.
"I'm sorry about that. Everything happens because of spontaneity. I don't even know why I wanted to be hit so badly" the young man apologized once again.
"I know it. The important thing is never to be repeated again, but yes it's up to you as well. Whatever it is, the consequences will be you. Sorry I talked about it while eating. You didn't order food, either? Ice tea does not make you full. Do I want to buy it?"
"No need. "
"Oh yeah, what's your name?" after speaking at length Joseph realized he did not know the name of the interlocutor.
"Call for Surya."
"I'm Joseph."
