The Story of a Broken Man
29. Paper Plane 365 Days
In my dreams always
It looks like I'm myself
Who freely does everything
The thing I want to do
Life is like a paper plane
Fly and go with a dream
As strong as the wind
Keep on flying
Do not compare the distance
How and what to go through
Because that's the one thing that matters
S'then according to the heart
Instead of joining Arif who is usually loyal to accompany, Joseph casually heard the song. The more you hear the better it feels. It was like being hypnotized by the poem. The lyrics are full of motivation, although the song is slow but can make the spirit. The power of song is great.
The song, he said, had been out for a few years, but he had only heard it last night. That's why he who is usually less excited if being upset because of women, today looks very excited. But still he is lazy because his work is stacked. Excited but lazy, a very strange thing. But that's the truth.
To this day, a lot has happened in his life. Happiness, sadness, everything he ever felt. The color of life is diverse, although sometimes it is burdensome but without feeling it there must be nothing in his life.
According to him, during his life in the world the most he never expected was to meet with Ilyas even to consider a sister. They even met it felt like without any meaningful incident. Even at first he was very angry with her. But now he's afraid of losing it.
Thinking with reason is also strange, that time when it was just a single accident because he braked suddenly. If at that time Joseph had not gone far enough, somehow the fate of Ilyas was now. Maybe he is still a vagabond, living like the wind who does not know the direction of his destination to go.
Sometimes he thought, if there were still Febri . What would it be like if you knew your room was now inhabited by someone else? Especially until his clothes are worn too, he will certainly be angry even though Joseph had foamed his mouth explaining this and that.
Little sister whose attitude is still too childish even though it is SMA. Even so, Joseph was very loving, especially since his father died. He felt the need to protect his sweet brother.
The thing that made him so devastated was when his sister left him . Joseph was eager to follow, but fate said otherwise. It was like grasping a cloud in the distant sky with empty hands. That day, his sadness was unstoppable. He must face reality to be a kara.
It was a very hard day to go through . He does not want to live . Sometimes there are whispers telling him to die. But he didn't want to do it.
Actually he tried it, but failed because he felt unable to do it. He cried himself on the edge of his room while lamenting his stupidity. Just as he was about to commit suicide, suddenly there was a whisper in him telling him to continue living. It still has a role to play in the world.
From that day on, he made the determination to continue living no matter what. Either the sadness that will haunt him, or the happiness that accompanies him wants to continue living. He does not want to be a bad person in front of his brother who has died. He wants to continue to be the figure of Brother who looks cool until anytime. He swore from the bottom of his heart.
