The Story of a Broken Man

04. The Past of Former Badboy

"If you want, I'll give you everything. That includes my virginity. Will you open this seal?" A young woman in a High School uniform said to the man beside her who was also still in uniform on a quiet street with a seductive tone.

"Crazy. What do you think I am? you casually said so," there was the sound of the snapping of the man who seemed to feel harassed.

"Just be honest. In your heart you want that kind of thing, right? In an instant the enjoyment of the world you will hold, "The woman is growing crazier. He doesn't seem to care about anything anymore.

"Maybe yes, but I have no lust at all with women****** like you. Why not just ask for something else? Many men will gladly give you satisfaction."

"many . But only to you I'll leave it. Every night I dream of this. I always imagined making love to you. I can't help it anymore...."

"Crazy. Maybe now we can do it. Especially the situation is supportive. But I don't want to. Not because I don't want it. I just wanted to do it with my wife later," finished saying 'The man immediately left the woman.

The one left behind by the man looked at him with an unhappy look. While staring, the woman mocked the man. Everything he had in mind was taken out all while shouting.

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Joseph could not sleep. When imagining the past when he played around with women even the memory returned . The first time he felt harassed by a woman . He didn't expect to get something like that.

This traumatized him for a long time. Since then, he has not walked with a woman again. Fear of repeating the same thing.

He moved to school shortly after that. He said he was with his parents moving to a town far away. Joseph could not tell exactly where. Because they've been awkward to say since that incident.

Maybe in a new city he found a male figure could fulfill his sexual fantasies. He may be married and have children.

Yusuf began to open up during the 4th semester of college with a woman named Jamila. It was awkward at first as well when walking together after such a long time. But eventually get used to it too. Their relationship can last up to 3 years. Their relationship ended when Joseph proposed to her.

"sorry. I'm no longer with you. There is someone I love more than you. And I prefer that person, "that very selfish answer was painful at the time. I don't think he wants to live anymore. He was planning to commit suicide. But as he tried, the desire to live longer was even greater. He finally broke his intention.

After a stroke, Yusuf finally finds out who made his girlfriend turn away . The least expected turns out he was the Friend who most supported Joseph to establish a relationship with the woman. It hurts a lot to be betrayed, but it may be the way. Inevitably he must be willing to mate not him.

Last night he cried in the room because it was decided while being unfortunately. The woman he knew well and understood, in an instant in his mind became an evil and selfish woman. If he wasn't a woman, he might have killed that girl. For him to break the heart of a woman. As for the traitorous friend actually he already wanted to pursue him, but there were always events that made him not to beat him up. Until he finally got lazy.

The last port of love at the time was Fitri, a girl who he thought was very pleasant and could always melt the atmosphere even though the time of scavenging could be up to days just stopped but Yusuf had fallen in love with him. He had actually planned to apply from a few months ago, but was still traumatized because the previous one when he was about to be applied instead decided to go with someone else. Because of this fear, Joseph was always stalling. There is in his mind to immediately get married without a proposal, but on the one hand he wants a proposal as well, because it's a once-in-a-lifetime moment that is a pity to be missed.

Unfortunately Fitri now has a disease that he does not know for sure. There was a sense of denial because he had seen Fitri look ordinary. Even he also without burden let out a wide smile. Her beautiful face became even more dazzling with that beautiful smile. Joseph wanted his girlfriend to smile no matter what. He wanted to protect that precious smile forever.