The Story of a Broken Man

01. The past and the hope of the future

Joseph immediately entered the hospital. His clothes were slightly wet as drizzle suddenly descended while he was still driving his motorbike. That day he was very happy , finally Fitri, his lover's condition has improved. At work he immediately met her.

He immediately went to the room where his girlfriend was. He saw a young woman who looked fresher than the last time he met her turned to him. Joseph's lips smiled at all of this. It feels so happy. Maybe it felt like getting the birthday gift she wanted when she was a kid first .

It seems that for two months Joseph never smiled as wide and sweet as that. Especially since Fitri entered the hospital. He did not smile sincerely. Sometimes he smiled, but his smile was bland.it was like something was bothering him .

He sat down near Fitri. Seeing her lover look very happy, the young woman also seemed to look happy.

"it seems that soon you will be able to get out of this hospital" Yusuf said after seeing Fitri closer.

"I hope so. But I don't know in the future either. It could be worse to run out of this," Although it looks healthier, Fitri is still pessimistic about his condition in the future. Everything can happen .

"don't do that. I believe that in the future, nothing bad will happen. Do not have a mind that is not. Things like that are not good for your health. Anyway the important thing is that you can recover first" Joseph tried to comfort his lover who he had been dating 2 years ago.

"i believe it too. His name is only human. But I will try as much as I can" Fitri tried to show his optimism. Although actually in his heart still stored a great fear.

" It's my girlfriend dong . Must be spirit."

"Yes yes. My boyfriend is the best at motivating people," as if tempted Fitri answered with a thin smile.

"hey are. His disciple Mario Teguh was that, "Two said while bragging.

"Bossen's not my girlfriend? I'm just a bosen..."

"it doesn't matter if you are Bosen. There are many others."

"i don't mean that, so people used to talk. Not yet finished already playing cut to pieces," Hearing Fitri say so, it feels like Yusuf does not accept to hear the words that are thrown. He immediately said so.

"yes, I'm finished. Don't do that, the handsome will be gone."

" i'm bosen to be your girlfriend. Want to be your husband soon."

"so my husband yes.." Fitri's tone was like a shocked person. But it seems less than happy. Unlike most women when invited to marry his lover.

" Why does it look? is something wrong?"

"Like it. But it's too fast, isn't it?" Fitri tried to find an excuse.

"It's not getting better, is it?"

"yes. But I have not recovered. "

"that can be discussed when you're out of the hospital. It doesn't have to be right now. Strange you are ."

"Yes, too."

"I go home first. Just jerk. I'm here again. I promise."

"That's for sure."

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As soon as Joseph came out, Fitri immediately thought of Joseph's words. It was very nice, but on the other hand she was very afraid of not being able to give the happiness that her husband should have. It's not a virginity issue, but it's another one. He was afraid that his illness would make him leave first.

He was so scared of that. If only he had realized his illness earlier, he would have preferred to reject the expression love 2 years ago. It's even better that he doesn't love anyone. I don't want it to hurt anyone else.

There is a sense of regret for being in a relationship with someone else. But on the other hand he could do nothing. It was like eating the fruit. Whatever is done still has an impact.

He did not know for sure whether Joseph knew or not about his illness. He told the doctor to keep it a secret. But maybe someone told Joseph.

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The drizzle stopped just as Joseph was about to get on his bike. After preparing, he immediately drove the vehicle quickly. He wanted to forget the fact he had just heard from a cousin of Fitri.

Actually he wants to go on a rampage too. It felt like in my heart I kept asking. Is it appropriate for her to be the companion of the woman she loves? or why he just found out about the illness his girlfriend suffered. Yes although the other side he was happy, his lover was better. Only this news made him smile with pleasure.

The sadness that struck him could hold it because the condition of his lover's body was better. If not, maybe he just wanted to kill himself.

He was determined to marry her as soon as possible whatever her circumstances. I don't want to wait anymore. May his good faith be well received. His purpose was to get married. Not for the others.

He knows why it is hidden. But it doesn't feel fair to him. Joseph felt like a useless man.

Rather than continue to think about the sad thing, Joseph tried to think about the things he could to make Fitri smile. He wanted to ask her out after she got out of the hospital. He wanted to talk about marriage with her.

He knew what was going on, but he wanted to. If it is unanimous, however that determination is destroyed it will not be destroyed.

The possibility will always exist in any condition even if it is very small success rate. If not, who will know. That's what he's thinking now.

His mind recalls the first time he met Fitri. At that time he was heartbroken because he was decided unilaterally by a loved one. Until now he still does not understand why the person did such a thing .

He just said that he was not happy with her. Yusuf always gives what his girlfriend wants. Since then he has been determined to find someone he can marry.

He met Fitri because he was introduced by a friend. At first timid, long-time they were in a relationship as well.

Joseph hoped this would be the last. He was tired of looking for a mate. Tired of being disappointed when the relationship ends. He no longer wants to.

Yusuf remembers, he shot Fitri during Valentine's Day. Let it be romantic he said. At that time there were only the two of them. When shooting, the words issued were not so fluent. He still stammered despite having done it several times.

When accepted actually want to hug , but not so he did. He said when it was legal. Let's be more satisfied. Halal is more delicious. Said anyway.

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