The Story of a Broken Man

64. Tears In The Rain

As the rain grew, Joseph, who still could not believe the reality he had just received, stopped at a bridge. It looks so sad. With tears flowing, he tried to let out all his emotions behind the sound of rain that drowned out other sounds.

The removal of the ring he was about to give to Fitri earlier . That night he didn't want to live anymore. Her pitiful voice protested the fate that God had given her. He wanted to follow his family who had calmed down in another realm. The most likely option now is suicide. He wanted to forget everything by plunging into the river where the water began to rise.

But he refused to do it. This time he was not afraid, but he did not want his worship to be in vain. Dead silly just because love was a bad choice, dead too she'll never have it again . But he was also confused what else to do. The hope he had built up after such a long time had to run aground as well.

It should have been better after his relationship with Fitri when he knew that he was the son of a rich man. It should have been realized from the beginning that he was not created for her. Butwhy? Why did he ignore it?

For some reason, in sad moments, every very sweet memory came to his mind. His brain was filled with the sweet cradle of love. I just want amnesia.

Why is god's destiny strange? people who want to get married why not easy? While those who hunt for pleasure instantly get it easily.

"I'm sorry once again. I didn't want him at all, but I didn't want to be a child of disobedience," the last time Fitri said so to him it felt like the world was completely collapsing. Joseph felt that he was the saddest man in the world.

For the second time he felt it. It didn't change, it still hurt as he felt. Although the current reason is not too sick because he himself does not know the man who is betrothed to Fitri. But obviously the man is a rich man too.where there are people betrothed to the poor.

When can I get married? Joseph always thought about it, after all he also wanted to have children. He had a desire to have children for a long time. He no longer wanted to back off. It feels bad if the desire is not fulfilled.

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"I'm going to propose tomorrow."

"I can finally get on the lap too."

Some examples of the many words heard by Joseph made his chest very tight. Why do they all seem so lucky? If only I could, but is it possible?

The rain began to subside, Joseph who was soaking wet for some reason did not feel like coming home. He wanted to finish his grief as quickly as possible but he did not know the place for it. It was like hiring a woman oroun to drink something that could make him float up to the seventh sky to be able to vent his disappointment, but it was against his principles.

Finally, he was forced to go home, change his clothes and slam his body into the mattress while hugging a pillow bolsters. Actually wanted to also hug Ilyas, but he was afraid to say the strange. While crying in silence he slowly fell asleep.

In his dream he saw himself being married to Fitri. They sat on top of the pelaminan while showing off a smile. A truly perfect day, even if it's just a dream. If it could be real, Joseph would be happy.

In his dream too, he saw Fitri was pregnant with her child, something he had really longed for. He saw himself fondly stroking his stomach Fitri who looked increasingly enlarged. It feels so happy .

Dreams always lull every human being. Not infrequently he can kill a human who can not realize his dream. Although on the other hand it is the encouragement of humans in living a cruel life.

When Joseph opened his eyes, everything was gone. No marriage, no one's pregnant, it's all a delusion. Joseph sat down and hugged his knees. His face looked very depressed.

"Why is everything destroyed? Can't I be happy? Why am I in this world God? I just want to be like everyone else, but why is it so hard?" in a very soft voice he said. He doesn't want anyone to hear it . He did not want to look pitiful in the eyes of others. As the night wore on, Joseph could no longer sleep. He looked ahead with a blank look while lamenting his unlucky romance