The Story of a Broken Man

19. Curatan Yusuf

In the afternoon, Joseph was picking roses next to his house. As planned, he wanted to go to the tomb. It's been half a year since I went there. It feels like a long time ago.

"Where are you going? " Ilyas was astonished to see Joseph wearing a cocoa shirt while carrying some roses.

"To the grave. I ever lose anything about my family? Now I want to see them."

"Can I come?"

"Maybe sometime. For now let me be alone."

"I want to come too ."

"I want to be alone again" Joseph did not want his plan to protest to his father interrupted. That was the main reason he refused Ilyas to go with him.

"Yes, that's it."

***

It was so beautiful at the funeral. Orange color spread evenly it feels dear to miss . Joseph immediately went to his father's tomb. Before fulfilling his intention, he sent a prayer first .

"Sir, we haven't seen you in a long time. Sorry sir can't be who you want, yet" while plucking the grass around the tomb he said as if he was chatting with someone.

"So done the warehouse. There's a divorce letter. Though it has been a long time since the letter came out, but why am I not told? I'm curious too. At the time, I was in High School. I've been able to accept the situation enough. As long as there is a logical reason I will accept whatever it is, sir" Joseph began to fulfill his original intention.

"I didn't know what to say when Febri kept asking for the whereabouts of motherhood. I don't know how he got sick and kept calling his mother's name" Yusuf recalled a long time ago . He felt sorry for seeing his sister at that time. Those past times have been hard. Sometimes there is a time to feel a very great loss, anger, and so on. But yes he must be strong in front of his beloved sister.

"I'm sorry sir, this time I don't agree on any reason why you're hiding everything. I felt useless as a child because of that," Yusuf continued.

Maybe for his father first, not telling is the best way. But if Joseph thought, it was all just selfishness. Is it wrong if he knows? Feels not. Joseph did not understand his father's mind. But it's all happened. Good or bad, it's all gone. He misses his mother. But he himself did not know where he was now.

"I'm sorry, sir, I said nothing at my father's grave. I don't want you to be sad. But I don't know who to talk to about this. Again sorry sir. I want to go to Febri's temple first."

After sowing some of the flowers he brought, Joseph immediately went to the tomb of his beloved sister . The tomb that has been several years it still feels like new as if he has not left the world . Joseph sat down at the tomb and prayed for his brother.

"Feb, you haven't been around for a long time. I'm so lonely there's no you. Nothing can be destroyed anymore. There was nothing to be told if I was too lazy" Joseph began to speak to his dead brother.

"He said he wanted to die when I called him. The worst thing is that he suspects me because I am afraid of being scared. It's weird, right? When he talked about it like I was really good, but sorry for him too. It's good to help make the house clean," continued by Joseph his words earlier.

"He said he'd work at the diner tomorrow. He doesn't seem to want to go back to his house anymore. I'm confused actually. I'm afraid to hurt her heart, besides when she's at home I think I have Adek again. There was a time when I wanted to stay with me, but here another I also pity his parents, although no matter where his parents did not worry his son for days did not come home. What are you going to do?" after pulling the grass around the tomb, Joseph said at length.

"I go home first on deck. Next time I'll be here again. Doain me yes dek so I can marry my girlfriend this one. I don't want to be an adventurer of love anymore" Yusuf said as he sprinkled the roses he brought.

Joseph came home with a heart that was quite relieved now. For some reason, after he protested his father's actions, his heart felt better. He did not know the basis for why the divorce was hidden, which obviously all must have a strong basis.

The increasingly orange sky accompanied his return journey. He hopes the bright afternoon sun will bring a good sign for him. He hopes that what he intends to marry will be realized as soon as possible.

***

"What are you eating tonight?" When he got home, Joseph immediately offered his dinner to Ilyas .

"I'm up to it" answered Ilyas briefly.

"Whatever? What if we cook the snake in the barn?" Joseph teases Ilyas who ran away scared when he met the snake .

"It doesn't mean a snake. Not too fond of how it feels," his expression when talking like a person who is disgusted by something.

"Say people taste so good. Sometimes I think of cooking a snake," Joseph wanted to see Ilyas' red face that was clearly visible as he ran with all his strength.

"I would rather fast a full week during the night than eat snake meat" Joseph replied .

"Are you sure you're going to be fasting during the night for a week?"

"Terserah Abang aja deh. Ngeselin kali, you know," Ilyas immediately entered his room after saying so. For some reason, there was a great sense of satisfaction when he saw Ilyas' expression earlier.

Actually tonight he wants to take Ilyas out to eat . For some reason, suddenly thought on the way home from the tomb. But before he invited Ilyas, he wanted to make him angry first. And now the plan has worked perfectly. Exactly what he was thinking. Even more than his expectations .

Instead of thinking about Ilyas who craved, Joseph thought more about where to eat together with him. This he did as a congratulation because Ilyas accepted work. Although he was a bit worried but on the one hand he felt happy too, especially when he saw the smile of the person who woke him while he was cool asleep earlier.