The Sovereign of the Heart (Bern & Renata)

Chapter 41

Despite trying to close his eyes, Renata still could not sleep. Slowly he woke up and turned to the side, staring fixedly at two other men who were sleeping while hugging.

This scene is heart-warming, but why am I so unsettled? What happened to Bern? Why is he suddenly acting so strange as if he wants to lock me up in this apartment?

"It seems I need to reflect on this. I can't possibly continue living with her without a clear status" Renata murmured softly.

With a very careful movement, Renata stepped down from the bed. Half tiptoed he came out of the room. He then closed the door as slowly as possible so that his voice did not interfere with the rest of the two men of different ages.

"What should I do?"

This word first appeared after Renata sat on the sofa. The clock showed at one in the morning, but he did not feel any drowsiness at all. Renata's mind was filled with curiosity about the change in attitude in Bern. The foreign man he initially knew as a warm and kind man, suddenly became memorable as a possessive man and also a blind jealous. Weird, right?

"Maybe I made an unintentional mistake that made him angry? But what?" renata wondered for himself. "Bern spends a lot of time with Justin. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that. Where does that place lie?"

"It's already night. Why not sleep?"

Renata almost squealed in shock as Bern suddenly spoke. Immediately he looked at the man who was now standing in front of the room door.

"Did I wake you up?" tanya Renata tried to calm down. It's okay, Bern wouldn't have possibly hurt her.

Bern shook. He walked over to Renata and sat down next to her.

"Sorry,"

"Huh? Pardon?"

"I'm sorry for making you feel scared." Bern took a deep breath before continuing his words. "I know my attitude today has made you feel uncomfortable. I'm sorry."

For a while the living room of the apartment became quiet. Both Renata and Bern, they chose to be quiet for a moment.

"Bern, I don't know what I've done wrong so you treat me like this. If there's a problem, just tell me. I'm ready to be your listener and your back" Renata said, stroking a man's shoulder that looked very sad. His heart was full, though afraid.

"No, it's not about the problem. But it's about something that only I alone can prove" Bern said helplessly.

"How do you mean?"

"You know that I don't think you look very much like my girlfriend?"

Renata nodded. He watched Bern closely, waiting patiently for the continuation of this man's words.

"To prove whether or not you're my lost lover, I need to look at some part of your body. This I'm not being mean to be rude, please don't think like that. But this is the only way I can satisfy my feelings for you. You understand what I mean, don't you?"

"-I mean I-I have to undress in front of you?"

Shock. Renata was really shocked to hear that.

"Yes. And that's even if you'd do. If not, I won't force it either. So don't be afraid. Okay?"

Bern. His hand stretched out stroked Renata's cheek. Then he smiled.

"Amora is a very gentle and also kind girl. My heart warms every time I see his smile. I can even go crazy just by hearing her voice so sweet and beautiful. She's very charming, isn't she?" bern said remembering the figure of Amora. "When the girls chased after me just for the sake of my status and wealth, Amora was the only girl who objected every time I gave her a gift. He always said that his belongings were still worthy enough to wear. My amoras are too simple, and his passing is capable of robbing me of my sanity. He's half my life if you want to know."

Tests

"I've tried to convince myself that you're not the same. But there are times when my common sense refuses to accept. The reason why I'm like this is because I don't think Justin's using your family surname. He's my son, he should have used the Ma clan, not Goh. I can't accept this, Renata. Really!"

"Bern, relax. Keep emotions. Okay?"

"I can't take it, Renata,"

"Yes I know. We're not going to talk about this anymore. Let's close the story and calm your heart" Renata said patiently. He was relieved that at least Bern was willing to tell the truth about the change in attitude that occurred. This guy is pretty open.

Maybe for some people what happened to Bern was the act of a coward. But he was completely helpless to face the sense of loss towards the figure of the girl who had managed to touch her true point. Bern is not capable and not that strong. He's weak, he's losing the love he's got.

"Bern, can I ask you something?" renata asked after confirming that Bern's emotions had subsided.

"Please," replied Bern slowly.

"Why are you telling me your personal problems? Aren't you afraid that one day I'll break it to someone else?"

Bern smile. How does he explain this?

"Em, but if you feel uncomfortable it's best not to answer yes. I just wanted to know" said Renata, feeling bad to see Bern just smiling. He was afraid that this man would feel offended.

"Because I know Amora is the best listener in the world. In front of him I am free to express my feelings. He doesn't reproach when I feel weak, he doesn't make fun of me when I admit defeat. And the reason why I trust you is because you look like Amora. I'm sure you guys must have the same kindness" Bern told Renata the reason why he dared to tell her everything.

"So you assumed I was Amora when you were telling a story?"

"Yes,"

Silent. Renata runs out of words hearing Bern's honest confession.

"Don't make it a burden on the mind. I have absolutely no ill intentions towards you. Really!"

"If I show you the body part you want to see, will you allow me to go home?" renata asked as he looked closely at Bern. This man's mind is no longer right. If not immediately dodged, fear later Bern will be increasingly obsessed with him. Renata's afraid.

"Renata, don't force yourself. I just ... just ....

Bern suddenly felt uneasy as Renata discussed his departure. He was afraid to stay.

"Bern, I just want to go home. And you're still free to meet me whenever you want. I just want to prevent others from misunderstanding our closeness. Please understand?"

"But Renata, I ....

"Please, appreciate my decision. We're not husband and wife or lover, Bern. Please understand my position. Okay?"

"Should it?"

"I'm sure you can."

After saying that Renata stood before Bern. Let her be stamped as a shameless woman. In front of this man Renata bravely took off his sleeping pajamas. He left his skin exposed, hoping that his actions could make Bern realize that he was not Amora.

N-can't be. W-how can it be like this. Impossible. Renata is impossible ....

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