The Sovereign of the Heart (Bern & Renata)

Chapter 17

“Bern, already. I need to get breakfast ready soon. Please just. Yes?” the amorah who had fallen into thin air received the attack of the dawn kiss from Bern. Although his heart screamed to continue in this position, but Amora's sense could still be healthy by not letting her feelings continue to develop.

“Hmmmm, is breakfast much more important than me?” bern asked protesting Amora's relentless persuading attitude. With a heavy heart Bern finally stopped doing push-up movements then lay next to Amora. And when Amora was about to wake up, Bern deliberately held her back by pulling Amora's hand into her arms. He laughed when he accidentally heard the girl's grunts. “Hey, what's wrong if couples hug each other?”

“Pair?” amora's paro. “When do we become a couple, Bern? Don't fabricate. Later people can respond wrongly to your words you know.”

“We've officially been a couple since we spent the night together. And if anyone had heard what I said just now, I would have told him straight away that you were a very bad girl for hanging my feelings. Easy ‘kan?” sahut Bern with his leisure. He then slightly pulled Amora's hand to get more coiled up in her stomach. “Amora, whatever your purpose in coming to this house I don't care at all. All I know now is I like you and I want us to be lovers. I know it's too early for me to express my feelings, but my love for you is completely sincere from the bottom of my heart. It's okay if in your heart you haven't grown a taste for me, I won't bother with it. However, can you not build distance from me? I'm sad, Amora. I don't want to be heartbroken the first time I fall in love with a girl. You're the first woman I've ever touched, and I'll make sure you're the last woman in my life, too.”

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Hosshh hosshh hosshhh

Bern's breath was panting as he woke up from his sleep. The dream came again. Dream about being with Amora. While wiping the sweat with the back of his hand, Bern silently pondered what the dream meant. Could it be that this was a rebuke because his mind was unceasingly fixed on Renata?

"Darling, why did you suddenly appear with memories of us? Are you mad, hem?" ask Bern lirih. "If you're angry, I'm sorry. Until the test results come out I will try not to think about Renata first. Okay?"

Crazy indeed. Inside the slightly dim room Bern was busy talking to himself. Fortunately there was no one else there, so Bern should not be considered like a madman. But even so, it seems that Bern is not the type of human who cares what others say. The proof wherever and whenever he misses Amora, he will vent his longing by talking through the wind.

"Pair?" Bern. "We're more than just a couple, baby. You've been half of my life since I decided to take responsibility for you. You're my breath, and you're everything to me. You're more than just a couple, baby."

After saying such a thing Bern's hand moved to take the glass. He then snorted violently because it turned out that the glass was empty. While lazing, Bern finally got out of bed and then came out of the room.

"Hmmm, it's nine o'clock in the evening" Bern murmured. He stepped lethargicly towards the kitchen to fetch some drinking water. While rendering on the refrigerator door, Bern filled his glass with cold water. After that he sipped it until it ran out. "Ahhhh, fresh."

Silent. This apartment feels very quiet. If Amora were still alive, this place would be filled with her voice that was busy persuading her to take a bath, to eat, even to stop teasing her. Imagining those sweet memories subconsciously made Bern smile to himself. However, slowly the smile began to fade and change into a stifled sobbing. The glass in Bern's handrail fell to the floor, until the fragments hit the leg and bled.

At the same time the sound of the apartment bell rang. Letting tears wash over his face, Bern stepped open the door. He was very hopeful that someone who came this could help treat his longing feeling that felt so suffocating.

"Bern, I brought you .. gosh. Bern, what's wrong with you!"

Andreas who happened to come home quickly from the office decided to stop for a while in Bern's apartment. And on the way here he deliberately bought the polar bear's favorite food in the hope that it could make him feel much calmer. Yes, Andreas was told by Karl that Bern was agitated after meeting a woman whose face was very similar to Amora's. So he came intending to console this man. But what was seen before him now left Andreas half-dead in shock. This polar bear is crying, I don't know why.

"Bern, what's wrong with you? What's going on?" cecar Andreas paid no heed to the food he had bought falling to the floor. He placed both his hands on Bern's shoulders and asked him to explain the matter. "Calm down, don't panic. Tell me what made you like this. You're not alone, Bern. Share with me. Okay?"

"Yes, help me. I-I can't breathe" said Bern, beginning to have trouble breathing. The taste was too strong to suffocate, making it seem like it was going to die. "Amora .. I miss her a lot, Yas. I-i ....

"Hey hey, Bern. Conscious Bern, sober!"

Immediately Andreas hugged Bern while continuing to stroke his back. Never in the least Andreas imagined that Bern would suffer this much in living by Amora. Good thing he's here now, then how's it going when Bern is abroad? Thinking about the bad possibilities that could happen made Andreas so short of breath himself. Oh God.

Mother, how could there be a man who was once so cold in women to suffer this much? Poor Bern, Mother. He looks very sick. Will I feel the same way someday?

"Why did God take Amora from me, Yas. What's wrong? Is it because I slept with her without marrying her first? But I promised to take responsibility for Amora's life. I even proposed to him. Why did God take him away from me? What's my fault, Yas? What's?" bern asked, grinding his teeth. It was very difficult for him to accept this reality. Really am.

"Bern, it's better now that we go in and talk about this matter inside only. Okay?" persuade Andreas to realize that their position is still in front of the door. Andreas is worried that someone eavesdropped on Bern's words and leaked them to the media. The polar bear is the eldest grandchild of the Ma family. So Andreas must be able to ensure Bern's privacy remains secure.

Bern could only obediently follow as Andreas guided him into the apartment. With a body that was already extremely limp, he lay on the sofa, his gaze blank. Here's. This is the suffering that has plagued Bern for the last three years. Waking up in the middle of the night and crying alone. Even sometimes Bern fell unconscious so sick he lost Amora. It's sad, isn't it? Hugely.

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