The soul mate YOU sent

Chapter 6 Disappointed

Mas Yayan jerked my arm tightly for me to look at his face. It was as if he could skin me. Unable to look into her eyes tears began to wash over my cheeks. "Napo kowe crying?"(why are you crying?), he asked again. This time his voice was really ice cold. Makes my tears flow more. The lips are locked, and not a single word can come out.

Regardless of the curious look of some people, Mas Yayan started dragging me away. I don't know where he's taking me. I dare not his party. We walked back to the mainland. Mas Yayan continued to walk without poking his hand from my arm. My arm hurts. His steps were wide and steady, so fast that I had to half-run to keep up with his speed. More and more people are looking towards us. I walked down to hide my wet face.

I just realized we were walking toward our parked car. When he arrived at the car Mas Yayan immediately opened the passenger door without removing his hand grip. He pushed me in but not violently. It's just that his voice is still very cold. "Thick!"((coming in!). I sat myself down and set the position as comfortable as possible. Immediately Mas Yayan was already sitting beside me and facing towards me.

I dare not look back at him. I can only bow my head. Even to breathe, I was afraid to be hard.

It felt like imagining my parents' reactions to knowing about my pregnancy with Mas Damar was not this scary. Now I'm really afraid to tell Mas Yayan the truth.

A large hand gripped a little firmly on my chin. Mas Yayan raised my head so that I looked into his eyes. There's something there. His gaze implied anger, confusion, curiosity but greater than that were all disappointments.

"Kowe Seng opo I seng by the way?!"((you who spoke what I said), Mas Yayan's voice was a stifled growl that could give goosebumps to those who heard it. Mas Yayan was a person who rarely got angry. But when he gets angry it's gonna be scary. Even my father and mother always avoided making Mas Yayan angry.

I don't know where to start. What should I say first, my mind is completely blank now. It was quiet for a while because Mas Yayan was waiting for me to start talking. A gripping silence.

Like time stopped centuries. I decided to start talking. But it seems like Mas Yayan is starting to lose consciousness. As I started to open my mouth along with that a shout came from Mas Yayan.

"ISOMU MONG MENENG WAE!!, LAMBEMU GAWE OPO?!"((you can just shut up!!, what's your mouth doing?, raung Mas Yayan. I was shocked by his screams. "Hiks.".", a sob escaped from my lips.

"Ojok say lek iki koyok seng takirapno?"(don't tell me that this is what I think it is?), this time Mas Yayan's voice was a whisper. "Kowe meteng yo?!" (you are pregnant huh?!), along with the exit of the word I saw tears trickling down Mas Yayan's smooth cheeks. It's broken my heart to see Mas Yayan. I never imagined it would be this painful to see him disappointed in me. As I covered my face with both hands, I began as I pleased.

" I'm sorry, sorry" I said unclearly because I cried louder. "Sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.", raved still while crying and covered my face.

I felt Mas Yayan's hand holding both of my wrists and trying to get him away from my face. "Wasno me!, napo nyingit?!"(look at me!, why hide?!), he said again but this time his voice softened slightly. I directed my eyes at him. But when our sight met I could still only be silent. Why is it so hard to say a few words. "Kowe meteng karo sopo?"(who are you pregnant with), Mas Yayan started asking again. When I don't talk, he comes back asking questions, "Karo Damar?"(same Damar?). This time I nodded in response.

I can only shake while saying I don't know. "I don't want Mas Damar nandi." I said slowly.

"Kok iso gak weroh Damar nandi!, Kowe karo Damar iku wes koyok twin gancet. Blond taun iki nandi ae wong loro. Saiki wes koyok ngene even not weroh bastard iki stopped nandi?!"((how can you not know where Damar is!, you are the same Damar is like conjoined twins. All these years everywhere always the two. Now that it had happened like this and did not even know where the bastard had fled?!), Mas Yayan roared again. His emotions are back on the heat. "Kowe kok iso goblok anyway!, Gelem-gelem ae until kedadean koyok ngene., Wes mbok parani nang omahe?"((you're so stupid!, you want it to happen like this. Have you searched his house?", said Mas Yayan, this time in a lower but demanding tone.

In the end it all just flowed from my lips. Starting from the plan to make me pregnant in order to get blessing from my father and mother, then about the day that I should tell about my pregnancy but Mas Damar did not come. Until in the end there is no news from Mas Damar until now, even his family does not know where he is. Mas Yayan listened carefully without interrupting once. Only after I stopped talking did he start to open his mouth again.

"Kowe sure ra nyingitno Damar's family?", (you're sure the family doesn't hide Damar?), said Mas Yayan.

"No way mas, the family don't understand me meteng lek. Kabeh yo is worried, podo golek'i Mas Damar. Ambek'an family nang I love. They welcome me." (there's no way mas, they don't know I'm pregnant. Everyone was worried, and was looking for Mas Damar. His family loves me anyway. They welcome me.), I replied a little bitter because I did not accept Mas Yayan to vilify Mas Damar and his family.

But it seems like my answer made Mas Yayan angry again.

"Sek iso yo kowe mbelani iku bastard!. Wes kedadean koyok ngene arek'e nyingit ra onok kabare. Kowe ra think yok opo kumane father karo ibuk lek weroh kowe meteng?!" (You can still defend that bastard!. It's happened like this he hid no news. You don't think how father and mother feel if they know you're pregnant?!), Mas Yayan's voice grew higher.

Luckily the beach is not so crowded visitors.there are only three cars parked around our car, it was with a distance of more than two meters between the car and another car. And it didn't seem like the owner was in the car, so no one noticed the screams from inside our car.

Again I can only say sorry and sorry like a thought.

"I ngersulo tenan nang kowe but I ra iso mayangne sak piro gedene roso ngersuloe lan ibuk father nang kowe. Kowe's aware? your behavior iki nglarani father lan ibuk. Kowe iku son wedok seng dijogo ati-ati. Saiki kowe ngaku wes gede ngaku wes mature but behavior ra iso think akibate. Ra bedo adoh karo ABG."(i'm really disappointed with you but I can't imagine how much disappointed my father and mother will be. You realize no? this act of mine hurt my father and mother. You are a carefully guarded daughter. Now you claim to have grown up but the deed can not think how the consequences. Not different from ABG), the anger is long.

For the first time since this pregnancy plan was made I feel scared and sorry. Is correct. I don't think long. Not thinking about my parents' feelings. I have hurt their hearts. They betrayed their trust. Shame their dignity. After all, I was the daughter they had been guarding like pearls all along. Hidden behind the fierce waves, in the ocean and sharp coral. But now it arrogantly comes out showing beauty and foolishly allows people to take it. That's my. The arrogant fool. Now, only a cry of regret hugged me tightly.